i was juz looking for new blogskin..
but i juz can't seem to find 1 to replace my current blogskin..
i dunno y..
my feeling juz dun feel right today..
for no special reason..

recently, i seem to recall all my past memories..
be it happi ones or sad ones..
i had no idea y..
but my mind juz flows in alot of my past memories..
maybe cos of tis reason, i haf a craving for old songs..
i keep listening to old songs now.. and i like it alot..

years ago, i'm on gd terms wif tis girl..
but cos of an incident, we quarrel..
even though we patch up after tad, tad same kind of closeness was alreadi gone..
and now, we r alreadi no longer close..
i did try to salvage our relationship..
but it was of no use..
wad's gone is alreadi gone..
there's no turning back ani more..



he's heartless.. he's cruel..
now, we dun even tok although we haf d chance..
i'm alreadi taking d first step. yet he juz ignore mi..
he's realli heartless...
i still remember how sweet he was around a yr plus before..
yet now, his attitude towards mi has changed..
i'm hurtz.. i'm sad..

another him..
few mths back, his stand is veri clear..
now, i dunno wad he's thinking..
i dunno his stand..
his attitude ranges frm 1 extreme to another extreme..
it's terrible..
imagine a guy treats u veri gd but a while later, he treats u veri cold..
it's a veri terrible feeling which mani girls will not wish for..
although i dun like, fate brings us together..
god wans mi to meet tis kind of guy..
so i can't avoid it.. and now, i'm stuck here..
i also dunno wad i shld do now..



these 2 memories keep flashing back in my mind..
guess these 2 are d most unforgettable ones..
they r d ones tad affect mi d most..
as for d rest, they did not affect mi much..

i wanna forget all these memories..
i dun wanna recall.. i wanna forget em.
i wanna start a brand new life..
i dun wanna b stuck wif these 2 memories..

but i juz can't let em go..
these 2 memories will juz come back all of a sudden..
making mi confused..
when they came back, i find myself unable to do d correct tinks..
i can't tink properly.. i seem to get all d tinks wrong..
i'm not d normal self......
r they etched in my mind???

rained @ 10:25 PM