i juz realised i'm damn busi la.
i haf so mani tutorials to do.
and now, i haf to do project work.
and i join 3 cca.
but 2 haven confirm yet.
i didn't noe i'm so busi until juz now.
and frm next wk onwards, tests will b coming up.
frm today onwards, i cannot slack le.
i haf to work veri hard.
if not i sure cannot catch up one.

i haf no choice la.
i've alreadi chosen JC as my path.
so no matter wad, i haf to perserve.
i cannot gif up.
thus, next wk onwards, i tink i will seldom online.
haf to control myself.
cannot online too often.
will update my blog whenever i'm free.


somtimes, my heart will juz suddenly ache.
i will feel tad somtthing pierce through my heart.
it's veri pain. veri hurting.
ur actions will affect mi.
i dun wish tis to happen on mi animore.

since i'm not veri sure of my own feelings yet, i've made up my mind.
it's better to stop all this now.
i'm so busi now.
and i dun wish this thing to affect mi.
i dun wan ani distractions.
i wan my full concentration.

i'm alreadi feeling abit stressful now.
all d tutorials. project work. cca. everything.
if i still continues this, i realli dunno i can take it anot.
i may juz go crazy.
i dun wanna myself to suffer again.
stress is alreadi too much for mi.
plus d pain n hurt i haf to take, i'm sure i can't handle.

i'm sure giving up is a gd decision.
i haf to stop now b4 i get too deep into it.
i wan to gif up.
it's too hurting for mi.
it's too pain for mi.
my heart can't take it.
my heart may juz break ani time n nv recover.
i dun wan my heart to break into pieces again.
i haf to gif up. i haf to.

- all because of you -

rained @ 10:39 PM