dun feel like updating.
today jordan & nah nah came my hse do GPP.
tad's all. nth much.

i juz wan to say..
some things can affect mi alot alot.
some things can't affect mi at all.
i dun even gif a damn abt it la.
different things have different degree of influence on d person.
and it all depends on d person.

another thing is that..
some ppl can affect mi alot.
i can haf drastic change in mood juz becos of tad person.
my life will also be affected by certain ppl.
but some ppl i dun even care abt em.
i dun feel their existence at all.
they're nth to mi.
and all these depends on d person also.


u all may be asking now "y m i saying all tis rite?"
well, there's of cos some reasons behind it.
recently, i've found out alot of things.
and all this sort of concerns mi.
but whether it affects mi anot is another matter.
tad's wad i'm trying to say..

some things realli dun bother mi at all.
but some things realli bother mi alot.
those things tad bother mi influence mi alot.
it can influence my mood.
it can influence my life.
it can influence everything of mi.
but it all DEPENDS.

not tad i wan to say i hate u or smth.
but some times, i juz feel tad u're abit action lor.
u think tad wadever u do is rite.
u like to show off also.
so wad if u noe alot of things?
it doesn't mean ani thing.
it doesn't mean u're d smartest or smth.
i dun wan myself to hate u.
there's around 1 and a half yrs more.
i dun wan myself to b avoiding u everyday in sch.
it's irritating.
i'm trying to accept u.
but i dun think i can do it unless u change ur bad character.


another u. different one.
u affect mi alot.
d things u do.
ur actions.
ur words.
everything.
it juz affect mi.
i tried to control.
but i juz can't.
i juz can't control myself.
i'm scared.
i'm scared i'm falling deeper.
falling deeper that i can't climb up.
i dunno wad to say abt u.
all of d things juz lie in mi.
it's my fault. not urs.
i dun like myself..

rained @ 11:55 PM