ever since thurs, i think i've not been touching my work.
cos hols is coming.
so i've been slacking.
so is like i've wasted so mani days.
so mani slacking days.
think i've to start studying tml.

i'm going to camp tis thurs @ malaysia.
i seriously HATE camp.
from last time till now, i will always find all sort of excuses not to go.
cos i hate camps!
it's so tough & tiring la.
i can't imgaine i'm going for a camp tis thurs.
how could tis person b xiaowei?
guess tis is my first big camp ever.
cos tis camp will b 5D4N.
shit. i dunno how m i going to survive.
i can't use my phone for 5 days. SIAN.

i realli regret going for d group camp.
when i saw d equipment list, i was like...
STUNNED.
i dun feel like going for d camp animore.
but i've alreadi paid $60.
so i cannot dun go.
tis sucks lor.

and i've to buy mess tin, ground sheet.
and i've no idea where to buy.
i noe i can get em frm beach rd.
but i dunno d exact location.
and i'm so lazy to go buy la.
oh well, shall c how things go.

and since last wk, i've been coughing like siao.
my throat hurt.
sometimes, it's okay.
but sometimes, it hurtz alot.
in d morning when i woke up, i will keep coughing non-stop.
camp is coming yet i'm still coughing.
haiz. can i dun go for d camp & demand a refund?

it'll definitely feel gd to b cca-less.
hahaz. can i dun haf a cca.
i wan to b cca-less.
it sounds so nice.
and i'll b veri carefree.
i can concentrate better in my studies too.
oh well, i think i'm day-dreaming.
or rather, nite-dreaming.




i still dun feel gd.
my heart hurt when i c u.
my heart hurt when i c her.
my heart hurt alot alot.
my heart is broken when i heard d news.
my heart juz sank to d bottom.
my heart is like being pierced by a knife or smth.
my heart broke into pieces.
yet i have to put on a brave front.
i have to act like i'm normal.
i have to act like nth has happened.
i have to act like i'm veri happi when in fact i'm not.
i have to act like there's nth when there's smth.
i dunno wad to do.
i juz dun feel gd.
i feel sad.
my heart is broken.

rained @ 10:40 PM