today is d last day of 1st wk.
but next wk is d start of common tests.
wed sch dismiss early for mi. 12.45
so i went hm.
wanted to study.
in d end i didn't.

thurs. after sch went mac wif ruth, jannah & yonghui.
i wanted to go study there.
end up doing a few qns onli.
so unproductive.
ended up doing more talking. =P

today. after sch, went ps.
d 4 of us again.
ruth, jannah, yonghui & mi.
went swensens to have our lunch.
after d lunch, i'm totally broke.
after lunch, mi & yonghui went mac study.
ruth & jannah went back sch for sc.
i would say today is more productive compared to yesterday.
we studied until abt 8 den went hm.

a few gd news:
1) i've finally started studying.
2) i saw a veri veri cute guy at mac today! he's damn cute la!!
3) tml's 2/8 gathering again. and tis time, i'm going. =)
4) had a heart-to-heart conversation wif angel on wed.
5) my new GP tutor seems like a gd one.
6) next wk quite slack. no proper lessons at all.

a few bad news:
1) i've spent too much money tis wk. i'm broke!
2) i'm having muscle pain. =(
3) next wk is my chi oral. thurs somemore. my class not supposed to come sch on thurs la.
4) next wk is common tests. gp & chem.
5) i realised my stamina have deteriorated alot.
6) jannah started a rumour abt mi yesterday. my goodnes.


seems like d bad news & gd news are of d same weightage.
is tis gd or bad or neutral?
well, no much comment.
at least it's not bad la.
den shld b ok alreadi.
i realli have to start studying.
i dun mug.
i study. hee. =P



i feel tad i'm avoiding.
or rather i noe tad i'm avoiding.
i dun wanna avoid.
but my heart keeps telling mi to avoid.
my mind noes tad if i continue to avoid, it won't do mi ani gd.
but d prob is my heart dun wanna follow my mind.
previously, i used to love wkends.
but now, i'm slowly dread of wkends coming.
but not alot. juz a tiny little bit.
i feel so terrible inside.
i did say out to my frenz.
but i still dun feel gd.
hu can understand how i feel?
hu can help mi?
i guess nobody r of ani help.
wad shld i do?
i realli hate tis.
i wan to quit.
it's d best solution i think.
by quitting, i won't have ani of these problems.
but i noe i can't do tad.
i can't. i have my reasons.
and when i'm feeling down, i will tend to spend alot of money.
i dunno y.
when i spend alot of money, i will feel much better.
but after tad when i wake up, i will regret.
cos i will spend too much until i'm broke.
spending money=my way of relieving stress?
tis definitely is not gd.
and tis wk, i'm realli reali broke.
i've spent finish all of my tis wk allowance.
normally, i dun do tad.
i tend to save up quite alot.
i can save up to $40-$50.
but now, my wallet dun haf ani money.
not even a few cents.
i dun haf ani extra cash wif mi too.
i'm realli realli totally broke.
all because of it.
i hate my life now.

rained @ 11:39 PM