since young, i've always tot tad i can let go of things easily.
i've met alot of diff obstacles.
i've met mani diff problems too.
overcoming all these haven proven tad i indeed can let go things easily.
so 1 characteristic of mi is tad..
i take things easily.
i dun take things hard, so i can let go of em easily.

but den coming to sa have proven mi wrong.
i realised tad it does not apply to all things.
there r juz some things tad i can nv let it go.
even though i appear to b happi, i actually juz can't let it go.
deep down, i kept thinking abt it.
i tried not to think abt it.
but i juz can't.
maybe in d past, d things r not important to mi.
and now.
sometimes, i juz cannot accept it.
but there's nth i can do.
d things i desire, i can nv get it.
sometimes i realli wonder or rather i doubt myself.
i doubt my abilities.
i doubt my characeristics.
i doubt everything of myself.

well, coming to sa have made mi realise alot of things.
sometimes, i reali doubt my decision.
i nv regret coming to sa.
i onli wonder whether coming to sa is a right decision anot.
i've realli met alot of problems tad i've nv meet b4.
i'm veri confused.

from young to sec 4, all ppl i noe of like mi.
or rather i noe tad they dun dislike mi.
or maybe some ppl dislike mi juz tad i dunno.
i've realli nv meet someone hu dun like mi.
so when someone dun like mi, i won't noe how to handle.
i'm not saying someone in sa dun like mi.
aiya. i also dunno la.
it's hard to put it in words.
i think maybe i'm thinkin too much.
but honestly speaking, i'm feeling veri much better now.
all these doesn't realli affect mi now.
dun b mistaken ah.
i juz wan to put my past feelings in words.
my mood now is neutral.
dun b mistaken tad i'm sad now or smth.

i know tad i have alot of gd frenz.
i'm veri thankful for all these gd frenz.
jieying. my godsis cum gd fren in unity.
jialing. my best fren.
seok han. my gd fren in unity.
annabel & lena. my gd frenz in sa.
joyce. my godsis cum gd fren in unity
jannah. my gd fren in sa.
jason. my gd 'sister' in unity.
kokyong. my nicest fren in sa.
yong hui. my gd 'sister' too in sa.
well, i wan to thank all of u for being there for mi including those whose names r not here.
i love you all!
dun b sad if i nv mention ur name. =X

rained @ 11:03 PM