actually i dun intend to blog tis.
but i can't stand it animore.
i'm feeling damn terrible now.
but yet, there's nth i can do.
i can't say out.
i can't do anithing to help myself either.
i'm going to be stuck wif tis for dunno how long.
1 yr? or maybe more than tad.
i realli haf no idea.
i feel like quitting.
but i can't quit.
i feel like sharing wif other ppl.
but i can't.
cos maybe it's b cos i'm too sensitive or smth.
wad if i misunderstood?
i seriously dunno.
n i dunno wad i shld do.

i'm actually feeling happi.
yet i have tis sudden mood swing.
imagine i've to keep tis within myself for a yr?
my god.
i can't imagine wad will happen to mi.
or maybe i can juz keep tis aside.
i can try to ignore tis.
i can try to pretend like i noe nth.
i can try to act innocent.
but wif my character, i doubt i can do all tis.
i realli can't.
i cannot ignore tis juz like tad.
it'll somehow affects my life.
i'm vexed.
i'm confused.
it's complicated.
god, help mi please.
help mi to resolve tis problem.

rained @ 1:33 AM