today is teachers' day eve.
so i hereby wish every teachers....
a HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!

today sa had teachers' day celebration.
first we had aces day dance.
d dance was choreograph by our own dance society.
nice dance. nice song.
after tad it's d concert.
it's quite nice but there's some boring parts too.
i love "myself" dance.
they dance damn damn well.
esp. chuan kai and john.
they r pro dancers.

sc dance was ok la.
i dunno y but jannah looks retard when she dance.
oops. =X
guess it's her first time so she's nervous.
but well, overall i enjoyed myself.


after sa celebration, i took a cab back to my sec sch.
i feel so popular when i stepped into unity.
i'm pratically saying hi to everyone.
my beloved juniors.
my seniors.
my beloved classmates & friends.
and of cos my teachers!!
i juz miss unity.
i miss everything there.
i miss everyone there.
i got damn high when i reached unity.

saw my juniors. my di and meis.
one of my juniors is so respectful to mi by calling mi madam.
but d next line he said was 'u're still as short as before'.
wad the hell.
crap a little wif my dear kenneth junior cum di.

saw my 2/8 gang.
saw my 4/5 gang.
saw other class gang.
saw a few of my previous teachers.
i practically hug everyone i see la.
except for guys.
and now, i'm missing em again.


after tad, mi n d 2/8 girls went k box.
we're all damn high la.
starting we were alreadi standing on d seats n jumping.
we squeezed here squeezed there.
we juz had alot of fun together.
though it's been a long time since we went k box together,
d feeling is still d same.
i juz love the girls alot!!!

as usual, we seem to b catching other ppl's attention.
cos we're always making alot of noise.
screaming here n there.
talking veri loudly.
no matter where we are. in sch or public places.
we'll juz play and play like it's our own heaven.
we're d playful girls gang. =)
2/8 ROX.





though i had alot of fun together,
my mind seems to b floating to somewhere else.
my mind is constantly thinking of smth else.
esp. when i'm singing those sad songs.
alot of feelings came rushing into my mind.
fast flow of thoughts too.
i couldn't control myself.
a reflex reaction.

today i'm hurt by u.
i try to talk to u.
but to no avail.
i dun understand y u dun wanna talk to mi.
maybe u're shy or smth.
or maybe............
u didn't even bother to look at mi.
tad's wad i feel la.
or maybe i think too much.

today had a convo wif joyceey.
it makes mi think abt alot of things.
regarding u.
a boundary between u n mi.
or rather it's a psychological obstacle within mi.
it's hard to overcome.
or rather it can nv be overcomed.
i myself dunno either.
it will juz create mani implications.
y match 2 different ppl together?
there won't be ani happiness within em.
and there's bound to b alot of friction.

it's realli impossible.
it can never be happening.
i've to stop all these now.
like wad joyceey did.
to stop is d best solution.
i dun wan to get involved in u.
i dun wan to get myself involved in anything tad got to do wif u.
i wan to lead my own life.
i wan my happiness back to mi again.
i dun wan myself to b so sad.
i'm seriously hurt.

我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂

我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答......

rained @ 10:53 PM