wed had a chem lecture test.
it's crap.
it's rubbish.
i sure fail one la.

yesterday was supposed to b one of d shorter days.
but now, every thurs got chem extra lesson.
so it becomes a longer day for us.
and yesterday after sch, i went bpp.
cos ping and vien were there.
so i went to have dinner wif em.
veri long nv c em alreadi.
miss em lots.
love em lots!
had a lot of fun together.
ping is still as blur as before.
her encounters were all damn funni la.

aniway, i will b seeing em again next thurs.
cos next thurs is teachers' day celebration.
so we'll meet up wif d rest of sec sch frenz.
our class gathering i guess.

today after sch, i had no where to go.
everyone is practically saying i'm slack.
i'm too free la.
wad the hell.
it's so not true can.
i have my own stuff to do.
but well, i admit i have more free time than d rest.
they all said cos i dun haf a cca. -.-
i have a cca. I HAVE.
wadever.

so today after sch, slack around in cafe.
had a conversation wif ally and yonghui.
were talking abt alot of stuff.
also had a conversation wif bel, lena and chiewyong.
seldom have d chance to have a conversation wif em.
mama today is MEAN.
he's mean to mi.
beat abt d bush juz to tell mi smth so obvious.
was the hell.

wanted to go back sec sch today.
but there's no red cross training today.
ALL THE BEST to those participating in tml first aid competition.
TRY TO WIN!!!
i'll gif u all moral support. HAHA.

in d end, i met up wif ying.
went to eat together and chat.
there's too much things for us to catch up.
endless talking.
we went to take neoprint.
as long as i'm around, neoprint is definitely a MUST.
miss ying alot alot alot.
i juz simply love her ALOT ALOT!!!!
my dear god sis cum gd frenz.
we rock!!!

after tad, went to shop a while at bpp wif my mum.
oh. i'm such a filial girl.
HAHA. wad the hell.
once in a while la.
another purpose is cos i wan to buy smth.
so i juz go shopping wif my mum lor.

i'm feeling veri tired now.
eyelids r heavy.
closing soon.
sleeping time soon.
oh gosh, i'm sick.
i'm not feeling well.
crap.




i'm in a dilemma.
don't ask mi it's true.
i won't ans.
i dun even haf a ans in my mind.
it's all crap.
it shouldn't have started.
all thanks to mi.
my wrong move.
and now, i'm suffering like hell.
crap.
there's nth much i can do abt it.
i dun want to do anithing abt it.
nor do i want anithing tad got to do wif it.

crap. wad can i say.
wad's holding mi back.
i dun wish.
i dun wan.
i wan to maintain it d same old way.
it's better tad way.
better for mi.
go for it.
go for smth i dun wan.
go for smth i dun wish.
go for smth i dun like.
crap.
i will never do tad.

i dun wish to lie to myself.
but neither do i wan to deceive others.
all i can say now is.
i seriously dun like all these.
i seriously dun haf an ans.
i also dun wan to haf ani ans.
i seriously like my life in tis way.
i dun wan to haf ani changes.
everything will b well in tis way.
nth more.
nth less.
juz nice.
perfect.

crap.
wad d hell m i talking.
i'm in a confused state of mind.
my mind has stop functioning.
my heart has stopped to rest.
my world has stopped spinning.
eh. crap.
there's smth wrong wif mi today.
saying all these weird things.

rained @ 11:32 PM