class bbq today.
supposedly.
class bbq wif ppl from other class.
wad kind of class bbq is tis.
class bbq for em.
but not for me.
nothing for me.
so much for being as a class.
so much for 7 mths.
so much for everything.
and all these have juz been washed down d drain.
NOTHING AT ALL.
all these r juz nothing.

maybe i shouldn't be in sa.
i should have gone to poly instead.
y would i choose sa?
wad a wrong decision.

was chatting wif my mum juz now.
complaining abt going to sch next wk for make up lessons.
leave so far yet have to come back.
wan to pon but can't pon.
she said: tad time asked u go poly u don't wan.
she: u chose sa yourself one and u complain so much.
she: u said ur frenz asked u stay in sa.
well. maybe my mum is right.
if onli i had listened to her, maybe all these wouldn't have happened.
maybe poly would have been a veri much better choice for me.
poly. poly. poly.
can i go for poly now?
i'm seriously sick of sch now.

in d first place, y would all these have happened?
i dunno.
i really dunno.
to them, we're over-reacting.
to them, we might even be unreasonable.
but to us, we're not.
to us, they're juz being too insensitive.
to us, it's normal.
we're girls.

i tried so much not to think abt it.
but i juz can't.
there's 1 more yr.
we tolerate their nonsense.
we tolerate their childish behaviour.
we tolerate their bad attitudes.
we even played along.
but in d first place, we shouldn't have tolerated.
a guy asked mi: y u all tolerate.
he: u all should have rebut.
all this have happened.
wad u expect mi to do now?

tml going out.
hopefully can enjoy myself.

mon sch.
i wish i can fall veri sick on tad day.
no point to go to sch now.
i wan to transfer sch!!!!!
transferring school is d only way.
tad's d only way to save myself.
to save myself from all these sufferings.
to change my life.

rained @ 12:15 AM