thurs. still not talking to d guys.
boring sch life.
oh ya. i'm sick today.
think ansley passed it to mi ah.
i got flu. abit sore throat.
and some eye problem.

saw tere inside mrt train.
so shocked.
still as nice looking as before.
but it's obvious we've drifted apart.

after sch, went vivo.
mi, jannah, danny, yonghui, weng san, jermyn and weiliang.
such a nice & new combination.
had alot of fun.

went banquet to have our lunch first.
den we walked around.
i brought them to d top.
too hot.
after tad, we went playground.
nv realli play.
cos veri embarrassing.
took alot of photos at d fountain there.
mi and danny ran through d fountain.
haha. FUN!!!!!
attracted alot of ppl's attention.

vivo is juz so nice la.
wif such a fun group.
lame jokes.
playing around.
taking photos.
nice memories.
happi memories.



thurs. still not talking to d guys.
don't even want to look at em.
nobody taking d first move.
we're being unreasonable?
we're over reacting?
fine.
wanted to change our mind.
we making d first move.
but u don't appreciate.
it's ok if u don't appreciate.
y muz u say those hurting words?
y can't u guys be more sensitive towards girls?
all along, we tolerate u guys' childish behaviour.
it's ok if u all bully us.
u all not being sensitive. fine.
we played along.

but now. u had to say those words.
to girls, it's veri hurting.
VERY hurting.
and i dunno wad got into mi.
after hearing tad, i juz cried.
instantaneously.
i juz cried.
i dunno y.
i juz can't hold back my tears.
i realli dunno wad to say.
i'm juz simply disappointed.

not worth crying.
i noe. it's not worth it at all.
but i juz can't control.
d words r juz too hurting.
i didn't expect u to say such a thing.
i'm realli veri disappointed wif d guys.
looks like these few mths of getting along is nth.
NOTHING at all.

forget it den.
y should i even bother when u all don't even bother?
i heck alreadi la.
juz hope tad time can fly real fast.
i can't wait to end my JC life.
i lost all my interest now.
i lost my interest in coming to sch.
i feel so invisible.
my existence is nothing.
nobody cares.
den y bother to talk to mi when i don't even exist?

i seriously hate everything now.
i'm sick of life.
sick of everything.
i wan to drop sch.
i wan to end my life now.
if i can.
isn't better?
i wonder how will life be in heaven...
interesting i think.

rained @ 12:20 AM