suddenly i don't feel confident getting an A.
cos of wad jason told mi.
he said: his teacher is an invigilator at RJ.
my first tot: RJ? how can tad be possible?
my second tot: i tot all raffles ppl take higher chinese?
how come they also taking h1 chi?

i'm confident previously is cos i tot all d gd sch won't be taking wif us.
now i noe RJ also taking, i feel so demoralised.
wth.
to RJ, this paper is of cos damn damn easy la.
now paper 1 plays a veri critical role.
if i perform like d usual mi, it won't be a problem.
but if i don't, i can say bye bye to my A.

i won't say i'm scared or smth la.
it's juz tad i'm not tad confident anymore.
so i better pray hard tad i can get an A.
if not ah, i will juz die la.
cos tad stupid joel will laugh at mi.
i will be disappointed in myself.
my mom will be disappointed too.
my teachers will be disappointed too.
crap. i hate this.

AAAAAAAAA.
pls come to mi.
i need you.
i can't live without u.



today. sat.
slacking d whole day.
did nth as usual.
i've been doing nth since d start of the holidays.
seriously, NOTHING.
i will slp for like 12 hours.
rest of d time is being spent on watching tv, bathing, eating.
i will nv ever touch any other stuff.

i suddenly feel like i've wasted alot of my time.
but i enjoy tis kind of life.
slacking life.
no work.
i can do wadever i want.
how i wish my life can continue like this.
if only i can drop out of sch now....

i'm dreaming again.

rained @ 12:39 AM