these few days i've been thinking alot.
though i shldn't be thinking so much, i juz can't help me.
it's me.
since tad match, alot of things struck me.
since a conversation wif my fren, i've been thinking alot too.
everything is starting to change.
drastic change.
it's so sudden.
i'm not mentally prepared at all.
and i feel kinda weird.

my life is no better after i left unity.
it has never been better.
in fact, it's worst.
unity is my happi memories.
all my happi memories.
my happiest period of my life.

in jc, it's so much different.
sometimes, i really can't take it anymore.
life in jc is so fast-paced tad sometimes, u won't realise tad smth had occurred.
and wait till u realised & try to accept it, most ppl had alreadi gotten over it.
initially, everything looks so nice and all.
but things do change.
no change, slight change, drastic change.

it onli takes a while for something to change
BUT it takes very long for someone to adapt to d changes.

in jc, maybe it would be best if one is ignorant to d things around him.
u won't need to care.
u won't think so much.
u can focus on something better.
u won't be so distracted.
ignorant is bliss.

xiaowei is trying very hard.
she is trying very hard not to think so much.
she is trying very hard to face d reality.
she is trying very hard to accept everything.
she is trying very hard to be happy.
she is trying very hard not to show her true feelings.
she is trying very hard to put on a brave front.
she is trying very hard to force herself to study.
she is trying very hard to continue her jc life.
she is trying very hard to do her very best.
she is trying very hard to enjoy her life.
she is trying very hard to adapt to changes.
she is trying very hard to be ignorant at some times.
she is trying very hard to do wad she can.
she is trying very hard to persevere.
she is really trying very hard....

rained @ 2:11 AM