studies. studies. studies.
smth tad i've also wished for.
yet smth tad i've not yet achieve.
why?
cos of my laziness.

since young, i've always wished for gd results.
my definition of gd results would be like 240 for psle.
L1R5 of 10 points for o level.
but yet, every yr i didn't achieve.
it's kinda rather sad.
cos i always tell myself to be more diligent.
but i can't seem to do so.
i love slacking.
can't be blamed.
tad's my character.

so in d end, i'll sure end up slacking.
in my sec sch days, i rmb i worked very hard in sec 1 & 2.
these 2 yrs, i worked very very hard.
and of cos i reaped what i sowed.
but for d next 2 yrs, i dunno y.
i kinda lost my momentum.
and i begin to slack.
initially my results were still of abt d same standard.
but after tad, it started to drop.

it's sad to think abt it now.
i worked for so hard.
and in d last critical yr, i kinda give up.
cos of my laziness.
and tis yr, it's another critical yr.
i've not fulfill my wish for d previous 2 critical yrs.
will it be d same for tis yr?
history repeating itself?
or will there be a change?

nobody noe.
not even mi.
i can't predict if i will be more diligent.
i seriously dunno.

somebody asked mi to study hard.
somebody wished mi gd luck.
will i study harder because of tad somebody?
is tad somebody of some influence to me?
i dunno abt it yet.
a mixed feeling tad i'm having now.
so happy when....
yet so sad when...
kinda complicated eh.
juz now, i was really so sad to d bottom.
wad's happening to me???

rained @ 12:28 AM