last wk. i was saying till thurs.
thurs nite something happened.
had an argument with someone.
why we would quarrel over such a small thing?
character clash i think.
had a serious argument.
had moments of awkward silence.
tried to salvage the situation but...
it takes 2 hands to clap.
juz one side trying to give in is useless.
wad can i do.
wad can i say.

it kinda affected my mood greatly.
fri woke up.
supposed to attend my colleague's party.
in d end, i last min decided to back out.
cos i seriously had no mood at all.
and it was raining heavily.
so i decided not to go.
nice & delicious food waiting for mi.
yet i choose not to go.
stayed at home and eat maggie mee.
such a 'nice' good friday.

later in the day.
had another party.
my fren's 21st bdae party.
i almost dont wanna go too.
but in d end, i still went.
kor drive car.
took mi, desmond and yilong.

reached there 7 plus.
saw d bdae boy.
but didn't say anything to him.
saw irene and harry.
den went to chat with em.
hang around with em.
cos i dunno ani other ppl there.
his frenz 1 grp of table.
mi, harry, irene, kor another table.
a few will join us occassionally.
like yilong, desmond, candance.

sometimes, we had veri nice chat.
everyone laughing happily.
sometimes, moments of silence.
sometimes, i felt so sian.
sometimes, i felt so off from the place.
sometimes, i felt so awkward.
all kinds of mixed feelings.
the better part would be near the end of d party.
where i'm slowly to get better with my newly made frenz.

everyone took photo.
except for mi and irene.
cos we're not one of his gang.
and we felt so off.
so we 2 juz stood there quietly.
cut cake.
played with the poppers.

after tad, a grp of his frenz left.
left with those ppl tad i'm more familiar with.
kor, harry, irene, derrick, desmond, yilong, candance.
sitting down. chatting.
and ended up eating prawns.
the whole tray of leftover prawns.
candance is so nice.
help us remove d shells and feed us.
yilong also. but he onli d initial part.

after tad, yl showed mi a magic trick.
d 1st time he failed. HAHA.
but subsequently, he managed to do it.
but i couldn't figure it out.
and he taught mi.
i tot it's some amazing trick.
but it wasn't.

we chat abt alot of stuff.
funni stuff.
certainly had stuff with them.
and we waited for quite some time for them to pack up and go.
mi and irene kena suan by harry.
so irritating.
as usual, 2 of us juz hit him like siao.
he's so mean.

after tad, irene and harry took bdae boy's car.
mi, candance, des and yl took kor's car.
took alot of crap.
and i taught em new stuff.
clutch.
guys nv seem to noe wad's a clutch.
sent candance home.
den sent yl home.
den sent des home.
mi, kor and derrick met up to take a cab down to white bar.

3 of us arrived and waited for quite a while for d other 3 to arrive.
den each of us tossed a drink to d bdae boy.
so he had to drink 5 cups in a row.
the 4 guys juz kept drinking.
drink alot.
and on tad day, i drink veri little.
i need to stay awake to take care of the drunkards.
played mass game - zhong ju mi ma.
soon, d bdae boy got tipsy.
haha.

later, his cousin and his cousin's frenz joined us for a while.
and they odered martell.
2 bottles of wine.
they finished it.
all 4 guys drink alot.
i tried to stop but to no avail.
expected la.
and all of em were like tipsy.
but wad can i do.

stayed there till 4 plus i think.
after tad went mac.
d boss of white bar treated us for mac breakfast.
it's so nice of him to do so.
and we all got to noe a new waiter there.
had breakfast with him.
2 other ppl were supposed to join us too.
but smth happened.

den we stayed till 5 plus.
and we walked to central to take bus home.
cos there were 5 of us.
saw brian at d bus stop.
my pri sch fren.
kinda shocked and surprised to see him there.
saw him d other time at nus open hse.
didn't expect to see him there.
cos it's a weird timing of about 6am in the morning.
and of all places, saw him at d bus stop.

had a short chat with him.
den board d bus.
all 4 of us sat at a place each.
den i sit down there alone.
lonely.
den went to sit beside harry.
chat with him abt personal stuff.
kinda nice chatting with him.

den on d bus, saw another 2 pri sch frenz.
grant and jason.
they went to watch midnite movie.
kinda weird ah.
but well, it's nice bumping into frenz whom i seldom see.
can catch up with them a little.

on sat, i wasn't feeling well.
didn't go for work.
stayed at home and think abt courses to go.
wanted to apply but couldn't make up my mind.
stayed at home d whole day.
so guai of mi to do tad.

on sun, i stayed at home d whole day too.
applied for smu and ntu.
wanted to apply for nus
but i haven got d time to do so.
i took too long to decided.

rained @ 11:19 PM