okay. a veri short update abt my current life.
life is realli unpredictable.
nobody will noe wad will happen next.
who can predict d future?
future lies in the hands of god i guess.
tis is wad i've always believe in.
i'm a fatalist.
a veri extreme fatalist.
i belive tad fate is controlled by d god.
life of humans is controlled by gods.
nobody will be able to change tad fact.
tis is my belief.

first wk of sch for mi has ended.
it's just lectures and lectures.
no tutorials yet.
kinda lucky. still can slack around.
and d 1st wk is realli damn slack.
lecture is basically introduction.
and all d lectures ended earlier.
cos it's onli introduction.
how long could an intro be?
can't possily be 2 hrs long rite.
and my free day is thurs.
hopefully it can remain tad case.

and i'm driving to sch almost everyday.
it's kinda cool.
and so much easier and convenient.
i dont have to wake up earlier.
i can leave hse later.
i dont have to take crowded buses.
and i dont have to worry abt traffic jam.
my life is so much easier with a car.
it realli makes my life much more convenient and easier and better!
it's realli great.
though petrol prices ain't cheap.
though parking fees ain't cheap.
but well, i go to sch for short hours onli.
so it's still affordable.


tis wkend i'm veri veri veri busi.
busi with my grandfather's funeral.
he died on wed nite.
i wasn't there when he died.
when my mum called mi to inform mi, i didn't have ani reaction.
but when i'm abt to tell my bro d bad news,
i was abt to cry.
but i controlled.
so these few days, i'm busi with d funeral.
yet i have to worry abt my tutorial balloting.

need to do alot of stuff.
serve the guests.
do some praying.
there's some ritual too.
and it's realli veri busi with so mani ppl.
cleaning up. preparing for stuff.
everything we have to do.
esp. d last nite.
damn busi la.
ritual is veri long.
and we still have to serve d guests in between our breaks.

something happened during funeral.
something unpredictable.
wad can we children do?
it's all between d adults.
and on sun, another thing happened again.
and it's something veri serious.
d 'band' was actually late.
not 10mins late.
but DAMN late.
nearly an hour.
to be exactly, they're late by 53mins.
wtf, tis kind of thing how can ppl be late.

and den it suddenly rained.
we started praying for d best.
some started crying.
some making a scene.
ah. dunno why so mani things happened.
but luckily, d rain stopped.
and everything is fine.

i tot i wont cry.
i tot i can tolerate.
but i'm veri wrong.
at the place where they're going to burn d corpse,
everyone got so emo.
shouting for my grandpa.
everyone cried.
and of cos, i cried too.
though i'm not veri close to him, there's bound to be feelings still.
afterall, he's my grandfather.
how can i be unfeeling.
i cried. i'm sad.

everything is over alr.
it's a fact tad my grandfather is gone.
i hope my mum will get over it soon.
cos i can tell tad she loves her dad alot.
i dunno how to go abt comforting her.
i dunno how.
i feel sad too. typing all tis out.
recalling all d stuff tad once happened.
i'm actually veri sad now.
tears filled my eyes.
trying hard not to let it roll down.
i wished all these didn't happen in d first place.

rained @ 12:46 AM