F***!
wtf.
i'm damn pissed now.
damn irritated.
u (somebody) shldn't have initiated a convo with mi in msn.
i'm so irritated.
and i can never ever get over with wad u've done previously.
it's a fact tad u and tad someone have hurt mi.
it's a fact and it can never be changed.
and cos of u, my life has been affected vastly.
okay. maybe not vastly.
i dont wanna say until u're like some important person.
u've affected my life.
and changed some of d things in my life.

u give mi hopes.
yet u're d one who destroyed all my hopes.
and all the lies tad u and tad someone told mi.
how can i not be hurt.
cos of u, i've gained some things.
but i've also lost some things.
and i believe wad i've lost is more than wad i've gained.
so mani years.
and it's destroyed just like tad.
i just can't take it.
i just hate it.
why why why.

i took some time to forget abt it.
i took some time to recover.
and i've nv think abt it animore.
but why muz u come and talk to mi online.
it's not tad i'm still hurt.
i've got over it.
but i still hate tad incident.
how i wish it had never ever happened before.
it started all because of mi.
i shldn't have brought tad someone to tad place.
i shouldn't have done tad.
i regretted.

though i've got over it, it doesn't mean i've forgiven d 2 of u.
i still hate it.
why muz d 2 of u lie to mi.
why can't u 2 just tell mi honestly.
den maybe things wont turn out tis way.
even after u 2 lied to mi, u 2 did nth to salvage d situation.
wad a fren.
i dont realli mind talking to u online.
it's abt d things u asked mi.
things tad u said to mi.
wtf.

i just hate u.
u took away some of my stuff.
my important stuff.
stuff tad i've built over d yrs.
and they're just destroyed in less than 1 mth??
wtf.
dont always think u're veri gd.
cos i'm such there're much much better ones out there.
and i'm glad tad u're not part of my life anymore.
tad incident will always be in my mind.
i shall treat it as a lesson learnt.
and not to repeat d same mistakes animore.

i shld be more smart.
or maybe it's not tad i'm dumb.
is i trust u 2 too much alr.
and it's wrong.
i hate it.
never trust someone too easily.
and never trust someone completely.
never. never.

because of tad, i've to act strong.
i've been avoiding.
which i also dunno y.
cos it's not exactly my fault.
yet i chose to avoid u 2.
F***.
i hate it la.
i hate everything.


i hate myself scolding vulgarities.
i dont like vulgarities.
tis shall be d last time i scold vulgarities because of them.
i will never scold vulgarities because of them animore.
everything is over.
and has been over for quite some time alr.
wad jason said is right.
i shldn't be too bothered by them.
cos they're not worth it at all.
my best brother, jason . =D

rained @ 1:26 AM