this wk was kinda busy but i still manage to find days to slack around.
so wed was the critical day for votes! haha.
reached sch kinda early.
cos no jam at all.
met up with sarah and ruth.
den went to d tut class.
on d way saw dione.
so we went in and starting chatting.
chat abt alot of stuff.
abt holidays!

emily and me so want to go overseas la.
but sarah got summer programme.
and she wants to work.
so how to go.
ruth also want to work.
looks like alot of ppl are intending to work.
except for mi and emily.
hahha.
we're the slackers.
work is so sian la.
no overseas trip.
so local trip lor. chalet! =D
so looking forward.

den we got kailing to vote.
and she voted for me.
dione also voted for mi.
so d result is 6:3
i won!
hahaha.
oh well, it's just voting.
doesn't matter much also.


on thurs, went to sch for a lect.
lect got veri boring.
left when showing a video.
mi, emily and ruth.
we went to discuss our project stuff.
after tad, i made my way to the cathay to meet cas and cheryl.
and so coincidental lor.
d bag tad cheryl brought is d same as mi and cassie.
but we not using d bag tad day.
mi and cassie bought tgt one.
but cheryl buy it herself.
and we 3 got different colours.
no wonder we're cousins.

accompany cassie to go smu to submit some stuff.
and we made our way back to the cathay again.
went to eat astons.
so it's recommended by me.
and it's so nice lor.
and as usual, we 3 of us will start our gossips.
hahaha.
*** and ***
some secret codes tad onli selected ppl will noe.
so better not say it out here.
if not more ppl will noe abt it.
but we got talk abt other stuff also la.

after a heavy lunch, we went shopping.
went to daiso to get some stuff for myself.
and we walked down to the heeren to shop around.
wanted to buy some stuff.
but i didn't manage to buy any.
after tad, we went cine.
went to take neoprints.
cos we nv take before.
and we 3 damn long nv take alr.
took neoprints.
and took photos with my cam too.

after tad, went to d foodcourt to have some drinks.
and we saw adam (zhang jin quan).
kinda shocked.
and cheryl likes him.
i okay okay onli.
wanted to take photo with him but we 2 veri shy.
saw him talking to somebody so we didn't approach him.
and whenever we want to approach him, he'll end up calling.
he like damn busy la.
so we also didn't approach him.
cos not veri nice to approach him when he's on the phone rite.
den he walked away and we kinda follow him.
and he went to find his fren.

his fren is another mediacorp artiste.
i dunno her name.
she's quite a newbie.
but she acted in quite a few shows.
d most recent would be 'the dreamcatchers'
her name inside tad show is xiaowei.
she looks veri pretty in real person.
and she's quite tall also.
so both of them walked off.
and we followed them.
but adam all along was on d phone.
so we dunno how to approach him.

den he went into d lift.
and we didn't follow him.
so we didn't manage to take photos with him.
kinda sad.
cheryl was kinda disappointed too.
but can see him in real person is also good enough.
if he's nat ho, i will sure approach him.
hahaha.
and i saw nat ho in real person twice before.
kinda lucky.

after tad, sat around for a while.
and we went off.
2 of them kept psycho mi not to go for meeting.
so i realli ended up taking bus home.
but in d end, i still went for meeting.
went home.
rested for a while.
den drove to sch.
it's wasn't a veri meaningful meeting.
it's more of a data entry meeting.
ended up typing some cca stuff.
oh well.


fri. favourite day for this sem.
as usual.
print notes.
den go for lect.
den lunch time.
and we went techno edge again.
tis time i didn't eat indo food.
i ate bar chor mee.
it's quite nice leh.
hahaha.
talk abt guys again.
but it's not gossiping hor.
just talk abt our past and future.

after tad, we went to d bazaar at central forum.
but there wasn't much stuff la.
and sarah ended up playing d basketball machine.
not bad la.
just tad after a while, she got tired.
haha.
den went up the lift.
and we help our fren with her project experiment.
saw samuel.

went lect.
and we start drawing one another's notes.
hahaha.
damn funni.
cos i realli realli damn bad at drawing!
hahahahahahahahaha.
dont laugh at me okay.
art not veri good onli ma.
and i also dont like art.

after lect, we had a project meeting.
abt 2219.
wa. damn sian leh.
discuss until wan to faint.
all d stupid politics.
i hate politics stuff.
and during our discussion, we will tend to digress.
like mi and sarah.
suddenly talk abt other stuff.
den got tis time, we all started singing.
and benji suggested going to ktv.
but fri nite veri ex.
so he said go ktv pub.
and we damn on la.
so last min but we still decided to go.

so we chop chop finish our discussion so we can faster go sing.
we ended around 8.
den still have to wait for bus and stuff.
bought some food and stuff.
need change train also.
in d end, we reached boat quay around 9plus.
so i decided to bring them to d pub i used to go veri often.
cos i also noe d ppl there.
but it's was damn packed la.
so we decided to change venue.
and i saw harry and his gf there.
omg. damn qiao la.
realli realli realli didn't expect to see them there.
so saw them and i also kinda expect to see d others later.

but well, it can be a good thing too.
cos i will have company home.
dont need take nr home.
so it's kinda good too.
so we went to this pub near white bar.
there wasn't much ppl.
so we faster chose d songs we want to sing.
den there's tis guy at d counter.
i'm like kinda helpless cos we all dunno how to use.
so he came and helped us.
and he looked damn young la.
he looked kinda cute too.
HAHA.

we ordered heinken.
a bucket of heinken.
and we started singing.
taking photos.
chatting.
cheering to all d stuff.
cheers to singlehood (mi and sarah).
cheers to we noe each other (gaia and me).
cheers to karma gang (mi, sarah, gaia).
cheers to meimin (mi, sarah, gaia and benji).
HAHAHAHA.
kinda fun ah.

and we played some cards also.
and time flies.
and sarah had to go home.
she left around 11pm.
after tad, more ppl were coming.
and soon, d place was damn packed.
and we had to wait for damn long for our songs to come.
so sian of waiting.
muz sing non stop den more shuang.
haha.
played cards while waiting.
played pokers, a few rounds of finger guessing with benji.
we also listened to other ppl singing too.

den i went over to find my cousin and his frenz.
his frenz also my frenz la.
haha.
talked with them for a while.
took d chance to drink their drinks too.
haha.
den i went back again.
there's some technical error i think.
cos we realli waited for damn long before our songs come.

so there's tis time we decided to delete some of our songs.
cos we realli had alot of songs in d waiting list.
so mi and gaia walked to d counter.
i saw d guy.
he was at d counter and alr wanted to walk away from d counter.
den he saw mi walking over to d counter.
so he walked back to d counter.
and he asked mi wad i wan.
so i told him we wanted to delete some songs lor.
and he helped us.
all d while when we were there, he nv look at gaia at all lor.
he just looked at me onli.
den smile at mi.
HAHAHHAA.

tad's just some stupid stuff tad i wan to say.
i nv think too much hor.
it's true lor.
and he smiled to mi alot of times when i was at d pub lor.
while waiting for our songs, i went to find my cousin again.
went there.
and played dice game with harry.
den drank quite alot.
stayed there for quite some time.
den they got this sofa seat.
so i went back to ask gaia and benji if they wanna go over and join them.
but they didn't.

cos wanted to wait for our songs.
tot will be our turn soon.
but it wasn't.
so gaia abit sian of waiting.
and she decided to go home.
it was around 1plus.
so d 2 of them took cab home.
den i went over to find my frenz lor.
kor, derrick, harry, irene, siliang and spencer.
played games.
sang songs.
drank.
chatted.
played pool.

and i realised d last time i went to white bar was last yr.
cos i was chatting with irene.
and time realli flies.
so fast 1 yr alr.
cos d last time i went white bar was also d last time i went out with them.
1 yr alr leh.
so fast lor.
and tad day realli damn qiao tad i saw them there.
if not i wont be drinking with them ba.
so we started playing this kinda stupid game.
i wondered how invented it.
kinda "fun" in some ways la.

i didnt lost much.
hahah.
kinda lucky tad day.
lost twice i think.
but it's okay.
i love to drink.
sang a song with harry.
another duet song with kor.
and a song i sang alone.
didn't sing much.
i'm suddenly so into singing again.

and when i'm singing, stupid harry kept pushing my head.
made mi kiss d mike a few times.
irritating.
but i still can sing.
didn't stop singing.
haha.
as usual, mi and harry like to disturb one another.
our friendship is still like d same as previous.
it's good.
no change.
but i told him he became fatter.
HAHA. opps.
and he sure suan mi back one lor.
say i become shorter.

so we just continue hanging around.
till we finish d whole bottle of liquor.
and they also waited for mi and irene songs.
while waiting, they played games to try to finish up d mixer.
coke and green tea.
think derrick and harry drank d most ba.
and there's tis round i took over derrick and played.
and i lost.
felt damn guilty la.
cos i wanted to drink.
but derrick dont let mi drink.
so he just helped mi drink.

den he let mi play pool.
when he's competing with sl.
but i didn't hit d ball in.
so i feel kinda bad also.
cos he wanted to beat him.
but he nv blame mi la.
but i still feel gulity lor.
so we hang around and left around 4 i think.
i reached home nearly 5.

same old place.
with same grp of frenz.
with some old memories.
yet a totally different feeling that i had.
a different experience.
different attitudes.
everything just feel so different.
how things realli change just within a yr.
y isit that things just can't remain constant forever?
why muz it change?
i can't help but kept thinking of the old memories.
it makes mi so distracted.
i hate it.

i hate distraction.
i hate thinking back.
i hate tad thing.
tad thing i dread most.
it suddenly comes back to me again.
and it's affecting mi again.
i hate it.
i realli hate it.
fate is just so unpredictable.
fate likes to play around with ppl.
sometimes, i just hate fate.
good fate?
bad fate?

d way u look at me.
eyes to eyes.
d way u talk to me.
u initiate convo and will talk more stuff to mi.
d way u treat mi.
your attitude.
d way u touch mi.
u touched my hair and some physical interaction.
your body language.
everything.
compare it with d oldest memories we had.
but tis time it seems so much better.

but it's kinda late to say all this.
but there's so much things inside mi.
i dunno.
but i have tis mixed feeling.
i so wan to explain d stuff to u tad happened previously.
but it's so long alr.
tad time was kinda bad.
and i think there's some misunderstanding.
i so wan to tell u.
but i noe i wont.
i wonder.
if there's no misunderstanding, would things turn out better?

when i was sitting next to u, i so feel like talking more to u.
but i didn't.
i so want to hold u.
but i didn't.
cos i noe things are different now.
not like previously.
i so want to sing with u.
gave u chance. but u didnt.
u wanted mi to sit beside u.
but i didnt.
but after tad, we still did sit with each other.
and tad's d time i so want to hold u.
i so wan to lean on your shoulders.
but i dont dare though i noe u wouldn't mind.
i so wish there's more interaction.
but we didn't.
i so wanted to sms u.
but i didn't.

all these are just empty talk.
i suddenly realli wish d misunderstanding didn't occur.
at tad time, cos of tad misunderstanding, we drifted.
i can tell from your body language.
tad time i sat beside u, but u deliberately left a gap between us.
u didnt realli talk to mi.
but u were still so nice to mi.
still so gentleman.
i suddenly feel so bad now.
shit. i can't stop thinking abt it.
i shld stop talking abt it.
i shld slp.

i reached home nearly 5.
slept at 5plus.
shld slp all d way to late afternoon on sat.
but surprisingly, i didn't.
i dunno why.
i didn't slp well at all.
i also didn't slp much.
i woke up at around 10.
i dunno why.
usually, i will just keep slping and slping.
after i woke up, i still try to slp.
but i didnt manage to fall asleep.
i dunno why.
all i noe is alot of things just keep running through my mind.
i shall try to slp well later.

rained @ 2:19 AM