i've lost my confidence.
wait. do i even have confidence in d first place?
HAHAHA.
i've lost all my goals and motivation.
my energy has been drained out.
i dunno if i can still continue anot.
sometimes, i realli hate life.
or rather, i hate uni life.
i realli felt so cheated.

ppl said the hurdles in jc are the toughest.
once u managed to conquer it, u'll be fine in uni.
but tad doesn't seem to be d case.
i feel tad uni isn't as easy as they said it was.
it's not easy as all.
it's not easier than jc.
at least, i feel that i'm better in my jc.
i reap wad i sow.
i have d motivation to study.
i noe who i can look to if i have qns/doubts.
i noe who i can look for to study tgt.
but now, i'm just in total confusion.
arts subjects. how to study.

i still prefer sci.
i'm all along a veri sci person.
and i knew it.
i knew arts wasn't my cup of tea.
triple sci, i have no problem handling it.
maths, i have no problem handling it too.
and all As is definite.
but now, i'm so unsure.
i'm so not confident.
i miss studying sciences and maths.
my best subjects.

wkwsci would be a better choice for mi?
y would i reject their offer?
biz mgmt. why would i reject them too?
nth seems to be going smoothly for mi in uni.
all the hurdles that i'm going through or have undergone.
a period of bad luck + karma.
not getting wad i want.
having lots of regrets in my life.
brooding over lots of things that cannot be changed.
super sian!!!
can't wait for this wk to end.....

i'm falling....
falling into.......
deep shit? HAHA.

rained @ 2:04 AM