i'm like super busy now.

rushing through a report now that has to be sent to my other project mates by 3am.

but im just too tired & shag.

i just cant think.

im brain dead.

having writer block.

i have been super busy since the start of the sem i think.

tis sem is really my busiest sem so far.

previously, i could still slack around & do alot of my personal stuff.

but tis sem, i dont seem to have so much free time.

previously, i may be busy for a period of time.

after tad i could slack den busy for another period of time.

but tis sem is totally different.

whole sem is busy.

the work just kept coming in.

and the work tis sem r all kinda difficult.

cannot be completed very fast.

life is realli unfair uh.

not tad i wan to complain or smth.

but like wad one of my fren said,

"it sucks to get a lousy grade when u have put in a considerable time & effort into it"

if tad's d case, den y would we still wan to put so much effort & time.

we could have just anyhow complete it & tad's it.

in d end, we may even end up getting the same grade rite?

it's not abt being competitive or smth.

sometimes i juz felt a little disappointed.

or maybe upset with myself.

just totally hate the kind of feeling of getting a lousy grade when u indeed have put your time & effort into it.

for wad.

though quite a no. of ppl said, "the no. of As or your cap doesnt realli determine your future directions" or that "it doesnt realli matter how mani As u got or how high your cap is because the employers may not care".

isit realli true?

why would so mani ppl still fighting for the As and cap then?

why then would we need to study in the first place?

LOL. if only there r no exams.

we just need to study. but no exams.

how nice it will b rite.

disappointment. upset.

but there's nth much i can do.

sometimes i realli just feel like giving up.

though sometimes i do tell myself not to give up as there may still be certain chance, i just cant do it.

no motivation or wadever i guess.

or tad im just tired.

after so mani yrs of education.

im just tired.

i juz wan to quit studying soon.

but when u think abt work, u may wan to continue studying.

wad an irony.

mixed feelings again.

tough decision again.

im done ranting i guess.

back to my report.

sian ttm.