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sick.

2010-11-14T03:08:00.003+08:00

sometimes i reali hate to b sick.

being sick will showcase the weaker side of me.

shows how vulnerable i am.

and usually in times of tis, i may become kinda emo.

sometimes i wish i could have someone to take care of mi.

enduring through the times when i m very sick is very tough.

and tis sem i kept falling sick.

maybe cos there r too mani work to do.

and so i did not have enough slp.

my body is getting weaker.

and exams r coming soon.

i hope to recover soon.

but still, sometimes i will feel better with my frens' concern.

to me, frenz are still more impt.

all the best to all my frenz who r studying currently for the upcoming exams.

jiayou!

blogging a way of venting anger?

2010-11-05T01:10:00.002+08:00

blogging as a way of expressing my emotions?

i'm like super busy now.

rushing through a report now that has to be sent to my other project mates by 3am.

but im just too tired & shag.

i just cant think.

im brain dead.

having writer block.

i have been super busy since the start of the sem i think.

tis sem is really my busiest sem so far.

previously, i could still slack around & do alot of my personal stuff.

but tis sem, i dont seem to have so much free time.

previously, i may be busy for a period of time.

after tad i could slack den busy for another period of time.

but tis sem is totally different.

whole sem is busy.

the work just kept coming in.

and the work tis sem r all kinda difficult.

cannot be completed very fast.

life is realli unfair uh.

not tad i wan to complain or smth.

but like wad one of my fren said,

"it sucks to get a lousy grade when u have put in a considerable time & effort into it"

if tad's d case, den y would we still wan to put so much effort & time.

we could have just anyhow complete it & tad's it.

in d end, we may even end up getting the same grade rite?

it's not abt being competitive or smth.

sometimes i juz felt a little disappointed.

or maybe upset with myself.

just totally hate the kind of feeling of getting a lousy grade when u indeed have put your time & effort into it.

for wad.

though quite a no. of ppl said, "the no. of As or your cap doesnt realli determine your future directions" or that "it doesnt realli matter how mani As u got or how high your cap is because the employers may not care".

isit realli true?

why would so mani ppl still fighting for the As and cap then?

why then would we need to study in the first place?

LOL. if only there r no exams.

we just need to study. but no exams.

how nice it will b rite.

disappointment. upset.

but there's nth much i can do.

sometimes i realli just feel like giving up.

though sometimes i do tell myself not to give up as there may still be certain chance, i just cant do it.

no motivation or wadever i guess.

or tad im just tired.

after so mani yrs of education.

im just tired.

i juz wan to quit studying soon.

but when u think abt work, u may wan to continue studying.

wad an irony.

mixed feelings again.

tough decision again.

im done ranting i guess.

back to my report.

sian ttm.

back from HK

2010-08-17T01:13:00.003+08:00

i haven been updating for more than 2 mths!

aniway, im back from hk!

it has been a realli reali fun & fruitful 6 wks summer prog in hk.

i realli miss hk alot!

i've made alot of new frenz be it they're from singapore, hk or even other countries like the US.

i've realli made full use of my time in hk.

i play everyday. go out everyday. eat nice food everyday. shop everyday.

i explored lots of different parts in hk.

it's realli fun!

i love it!

cheap shopping, great company, delicious food!

everything is just so nice & perfect.

i dont have to care abt anything in sg.

wadever happened doesnt affect mi much.

i live a life on my own.

just myself.

an independent life.

but i do enjoy it.

it's realli a super carefree life in hk.

i reali dont regret coming to hk.

in fact, i wish i could stay longer in hk.

i miss the hostel life.

i can visit my frenz everyday.

chit chat in their room everyday till late.

it's just so fun.

we took lots of nice photos tgt.

explore hk tgt.

conversed with the locals using my lousy canto.

or conversed with my frenz in other languages like mandarin, english, hokkien, bahasa indo, malay.

i buy things without much consideration.

i play like crazy.

i watch hk drama on tvb.com.

i saw hk artistes.

i tried alot of new stuff in hk. stuff tad cant b found in sg.

lots of different modes of public transportation in hk.

electric tram, mtr, mini bus, city bus, light rail, ferry.

it's just too fun.

everything can be conveyed through my photos i guess.

my photos r like the trails i've left in hk.

i realli realli realli miss hk alot.

i wish im in hk now.

so happy & carefree.

the lessons i took in hk r so slack.

i dont have to spend too much time studying.

i love it.

haha.

FRIENDSHIP is my biggest gain.

sometimes, i do miss him.

thinking of the things tad happened between both of us.

though it's nth much actually.

how we actually met.

how we actually became frenz.

how we feel towards each other.

im always wondering wad will exactly happen to us if i were to stay longer in hk.

wad will happen if one of us take the initiative.

wad will happen if it realli started.

wad will happen to our future.

i always wonder.

though i noe i will nv be able to get any answer out of it.

a perfect phrase for us - you yuan wu fen.

it's all fated i guess.

tad's our fate. & i have to accept it.

or rather i have alr accepted it.

actually i knew from the start tad nth is going to come out from it.

but i still jumped into it.

it's a nice experience though.

i shall & will always rmb him.

a unique experience for me.

i miss him but nobody's taking any initiative now.

i noe i shouldnt.

tad's y i didnt.

other frenz have been telling mi to do so.

i want to.

but my rational mind tells mi not to.

i shld just stop.

everything has stopped ever since i left hk.

wadever happened in hk shall stay in hk.

it shouldnt be brought over to sg.

everything has ended the moment i stepped into the departure gate.

and tad's it.

i shall & will give up.

but the memories will forever be part of me.

lastly, i miss you alot alot.

give up?

2010-05-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

i am thinking of giving up tis blog.
it's so dead now.
cos i seldom update.
and why dont i update frequently?
1 word ans: LAZY!!!!
hahaha.
i'm just plain lazy to update my blog.
i can do alot of things other than updating my blog.
i'm just lazy to type chunks and chunks of words.
okay, u may say tad i can just upload my photos rite?
but i dont find the need to. and i think it's rather pointless.
cos i upload all my photos on fb.
why do i have to upload my photos again?

kinda troublesome & waste of time?
or u also can say tad i'm lazy. LOL!
in any case, i'm realli too lazy to update my blog regularly.
sometimes i update is cos i suddenly have d urge to do so.
otherwise, i would not update at all.
and such urge dont come tad often.
so i MAY give up tis blog.
i shall see how things go den.
maybe i will update my blog when i'm in hk?

when u're out of sg, u may tend to develop more emotions?
and when tis happens, either u tell someone or u will write it down somewhere i supposed.
or i may wan to blog abt the happy things that happen in hk?
i'm kinda looking forward to the hk trip.
but i'm also kinda worried abt it.
going overseas for 6 wks is a totally new experience.
and hk is such a fun place cos i've been to hk before.

BUT..
i have to be in a foreign place for 6 wks.
it's 6 WKS!
more than a month.
imagine i have to do everything by myself.
i have to take care of myself.
and being in a foreign place, i may tend to worry alot.
cos nobody will noe wad's going to happen.
and i'm worried tad i cant get used to.
if tis realli happens, i cant come back to sg.
i have to force myself to stay in hk.
den it wont be fun animore.

oh well, let nature takes its course i guess.
there's nth i can do actually.
d onli thing i can do is to get myself prepared mentally.
that's why.
aniway, i'm going there with my fren.
so i shldnt worry that much.
i'm sure my fren & I will enjoy ourselves tgt! =D
tomato head & potato!!!
hahahhahaha!

last wk of sch

2010-04-14T03:54:00.003+08:00

it's been more than 1 mth since i last updated.
it's been a realli busy term for me.
with lots of work as usual.
tests, assignments, projects.
tis term is kinda challenging cos i have to do design-related stuff.
for those who realli noe mi, will noe y it's a challenge.
cos i'm kinda bad at art.
super bad at drawing.
can come out with ideas but definitely very bad at presenting d ideas.
oh well.
but it's coming to an end soon.
i'm doing quite okay i guess.
at least i'm satisfied with my works so far.

now doing a major part.
totally feel like giving up.
no more strength to continue.
i need more strength and motivation.
i'm so afraid of not being able to meet my ultimate goal.
and tis goal hasnt been much of an obstacle for me.
i had no problem achieving tad goal previously.
but i have to say i'm having problems now.
where has tad old me gone to??

and these few days alot of things happened.
things tad r totally unexpected & unbelievable.
till now, whenever i tot of it, i still cant believe tad actually happened on me.
smth muz be super super wrong with mi tad nite.
9th april, fri nite will be a super "memorable" nite for me in my lifetime.
and i shall not let tad happen to me again unless i realli super upset?
do not try to guess wad happened to me.
cos i think most ppl would not be able to guess it correctly.
and i dont realli wan to talk abt it animore.
wad happened during tad nite at tad particular place shall remain there.
i realli hate myself.
sometimes, i realli hate myself.

on a happier note,
i will be going to HK for 6 wks during my summer hols.
totally cant wait.
but i'm alr having some complicated feelings.
i do wan to go hk alot.
can shop & play till mad.
but i have to stay out away from home for 6 wks.
i dunno if i can adapt.
imagine i have to cook my own food, wash my own clothes, do my own cleaning.
i do tidy my own stuff but not all these cleaning & washing at home.
i think i will miss my mum alot.
and my irritating bro & dad.
and not forgetting, my BAI BAI!
i so wan to bring my bb over to hk. HAHA!

it's getting late.
i'm going to slp soon.
hopefully i can wake up earlier to start my work.
i always tend to slp till very late when i have no sch.
and my very late is realli very late to most ppl.
i will wake up at around 2plus?
hopefully i can be more diligent from now on.
exactly 2 wks & 1 more day, everything will be over.
in another words, my exams would have ended & the term is officially over.
i would not be yr 2 animore.
time realli flies.
cant believe i'm going to become undergraduate yr 3.
and very soon, i'll be moving on to the workforce.
lots of sian-ness.
nite nite!

busy CNY

2010-02-28T03:39:00.002+08:00

haven been updating my blog.
cos too busy with sch work.
lots of assignments, projects and other work.
last fri just handed in 2 assignments.
and last thurs i had a presentation.
super busy wk.
have to prepare for presentation and the 2 assignments.
not forgetting mid-terms.
before tad, busy with cny.
need shop for cny stuff.
den lots of cny gathering.

so i think i'm super slack during the recess wk.
went out alot of times.
when i stayed at home and try to study, i couldnt study much too.
too distracted.
i dont like to study during cny period.
super sian feeling.
so i wasted alot of my time.
so i have to chiong my assignments and projects.
now have to chiong my readings.
super super super lag behind.
all the best to me.
and still got lots of work waiting for mi!

and today i watched titanic cos it was showed on channel.
not tad i nv watch before, but i just feel like watching.
cos it's just so nice and touching.
titanic is just so heart-wrenching.
no matter how mani times i've watched before.
when i was watching it today, i kept thinking...
"such thing realli happened before. it's just so unbelievable.
i realli cant imagine. super sad tad so mani ppl died."

enough of tad.
on a happier note, let's talk abt cny.
how's your cny tis yr??
before cny, i dont realli have d cny mood.
previously, i would be so excited.
but tis yr, i wasnt.
but when cny realli came, d mood is back again.
how great.
it's still abt d same as all the other yr previously.
nth much.
visiting houses and getting angbaos.
but the no. of angbaos seem to be getting lesser.
tis yr i took alot of photos. a greater achievement.
hahaha. took with all my cousins.

and i realised smth when i saw d photos on fb taken by others.
other ppl may have family photos.
group family photos.
or photos taken with all the uncles & aunties.
but i dont have.
the older ppl in my family dont seem to like to take photo???
or isit cos nobody initiate?
if i were to initiate, would they reject??
i noe my mum certainly would.
always reject taking photos.
have to force her de.
a few of my younger cousins also dont like to take photos.
den have to force them too.
if not, u would have seen some backview photos in my fb.

taking photos is gd wad.
memories!
should take all the good memories so tad we can reminisce next time.
and i watched little big soldier on 1st day of cny.
not a very gd movie.
i fell asleep for a while.
maybe cos i was too tired.
out d whole day from morning till midnite.

2nd day went visiting again.
cassie didnt go!
but was okay la.
not tad boring as i tot.
at least i did talk to ah turn.
long car journey to pasir ris.
den even went to the lorong temple.
in d end, too mani ppl were there.
so didnt pray in the formal way.
den went all d way back to woodlands.
some ppl werent there.
so kinda quiet.
luckily got tis cousin whom i can get along with.
and he starting showing mi his chivas collection.
he even wanted to open the chivas 21 specially for mi to drink.
but i rejected cos it's still in d day & i'm going out after tad so cannot drink alot.
in d end, we drank black label.
and he gave mi d whole bottle.

talking abt alcohol, tis yr i drank alot.
1st day of cny, i drak fruit wine & red wine after dinner.
den when i was with my cousin, i drank black label mixed with beer.
i even drank taiwan "gao liang jiu".
i drank a little onli. cos i wanted to try.
i heard tad it's kinda strong.
and it's indeed quite strong.
i also drank s'pore sling.
and it tasted like some sweet medicine.

after tad, met up with des at yew tee.
den drove to clementi to pick jason up.
from there, he requested mi to drive his car.
so i drove.
drove to tiong bahru to meet ernest to watch movie.
his car is realli kinda nice to drive.
firstly, definitely has more power than my car.
2ndly, d steering wheel is damn light.
initially, i was kinda worried cos i nv drive his car before.
but due to my experiences of driving different cars before, i get my hands on it quite fast i guess.
not tad i've super long experience (1yr+ onli), but i drove different cars before.
cos i like to try new stuff.
my greatest achievement is tad i drove a BMW before!
though it's just a veri short distance.

and tad day was d first time i drove wearing high heels.
usually, i will drive with slippers and change into my heels after i've arrived at my destination.
and i not used to driving bare-footed.
so tis time i drove with my heels.
i have to say tad i've rather gd control cos sometimes it may not be easy to control your amount of force esp. if the shoes have a very thick base.
tad's y when u're learning to drive, most instructors would recommend to wear shoes with very thin base.

aniway, we went to watch vday.
super nice movie!
i enjoyed it.
but there's tis girl sitting behind mi kicking my chair.
super irritating.
i even "oi" her but she still continue to kick my chair.
so irritating.
sometimes, i wish i can be like my fren.
i have tis guy fren who's veri direct.
he told mi tad if someone was to kick his chair, he would definitely turn back & asked d person not to kick his chair animore.
if d person stops, everything's fine.
if d person doesnt, he would dare to scold d person.
but i just dont have d courage.
i'm such a timid person.

after movie, went for supper at bukit timah kap.
and home sweet home.
another long day.
tiring yet fun! =D

had steamboat with bizcom on thurs.
d steamboat was not too bad.
d food is kinda nice.
and we ordered alot of rounds of food.
and d food finished damn fast.
maybe cos alot of guys.
5 guys, 2 girls.
and d guys all can eat alot.
after tad, went to chill at starbucks.
hahaha. wanted to blue jazz.
but it was closed.
so went starbucks.

sat was a super busy day.
went to bai nian with 4/5.
first we went to desmond's hse.
den went to jason's hse.
followed by ernest's hse.
around 7, i had to leave for my family gathering for ah ma's bdae.
so went back to bp.
after dinner, went to cwp to meet 2/8 for movie.
travel to so mani places within just 1 day.
but it was fun.

bai nian so means gambling time too.
somehow i dont have any luck.
initially, i was winning.
i won abt 2bucks i think.
cos i play very small.
after tad, i kept losing.
so i stopped playing.
no luck esp. since sl was the banker.
he always win our money de.
so when i played with him being d banker, i would play very small.
but if it's other ppl, i dont mind playing with bigger bets.
but it was fun.
cos everyone was playing against him.
did alot of funni stunts so as to prevent him from winning too much.

when we went ernest's hse, we went for dinner first.
den they started playing mahjong.
but i had to leave, so i didnt play.
i dont have mahjong luck too.
family gathering was great with lots of nice food.
we even "lau yu sheng".
i just lau-ed. i didnt eat cos i dont realli like.
web-camed with kor kor too.
but i left in quite a rush.
cos i have to reach cwp by 9.15.
watched percy jackson.
jason told mi it was a super bad movie.
he described till it was a super super super bad movie.
but i dont think it's tad bad.
some parts were funni.
and i think tad d male lead was not bad looking. hahahah!

time check: 4.20 am
i have to go back studying for a little more before i can go to slp.
will update soon.
things to do:
2 projects
2 midterms
assignments (i have no idea how mani, definitely more than 1)
readings for 5 mods (think every mods readings r at wk 1/2)
and tis wk is wk 6.
it's going to be wk 7 soon.
i shld stop slacking!

first wk of the sem

2010-01-17T05:23:00.002+08:00

first wk of this sem has passed.
but it has been a happening wk i guess.
went out with my bestie (JL) on wed for lunch.
went to sg flyer for popeye's den to udders.
nice time spent tgt.
within just 3 hrs, we took 120 pics!
hahahaha. how pro rite.
i wanted to upload on thurs nite.
but i was too tired on thurs.
so i didnt manage to upload.

on fri nite, went out to supper with my sec sch frenz.
damn long nv see them alr.
and most of them r botak now!
hahhaha. totally not used to it.
but i will get used to it soon.
as usual, guys like to talk abt their ns stuff.
but jeenson wasnt on their side.
he's more on mi & vien's side.
cos he didnt go through wadever d other guys did.
hahhhaha.
nice food, nice company, nice catching up.

sat nite.
went old sch timbre with S11.
mr fong went too!
super long nv see my fong alr.
had a super nice chat with him.
and the rest of the class too.
cos past few outings i didnt manage to go.
so tis time realli catched up with alot of them.
cos i haven seen them for more than 1 yr?
but i didnt stayed for long.
i went there for abt 1hr plus.
den i went off to meet 2/8 ppl.

went dempsey with the 2/8 ppl.
went wine company.
drank a rather nice red wine.
it was quite strong.
though i drive, i still drank.
hang around there till 12plus.
den went to bukit timah.
on d way, i saw road block.
i was like shit.
but luckily, they didnt stop my car.
cos it was still quite early i think.
there was still quite some traffic.
so they just let all the cars go.
lucky!

den went bukit timah for supper.
hang around there & chit chat.
after tad, sent brandon & norvin home.
den went vien's hse.
and we 2 stayed in my car to chit chat.
we talked abt 1hr plus.
had a realli nice chat.
cos some stuff cannot mentioned in front of the guys.
hahhaa.

i didnt wan to update at tis hr.
time check: 5.32 am.
but i want to say smth very badly.
so i decided to come here.
i saw someone at the supper place tgt.
such a small world.
and when i saw tad person, i immediately called sarah!
hahhhaa. super excited to tell her abt it.
first wk of the sch has passed, but i didnt see tad person in sch.
yet i saw tad person today.
so does it still consider fate?
though i dunno the person, the person dunno me too, i think both of us deep down in the heart noe who we are.
but we dont realli noe each other.
so when i walked passed the person, we looked at each other but we didnt say anything or express anything.
we just merely looked.
tad's all.
no smile, nth at all.
i have to say i'm realli realli shocked.
cos i didnt see the person outside of sch before.
not even once.
tis is the first time after so long.
and tis sem, somehow, i didnt see d person in sch too.
previously, i saw the person in sch quite often.
so fated or not fated???
just some random thoughts.
i'm not trying to imply anything.
i also dont mean anything.
so dont think too much.
oh well, mr fate? LOL!
who cares rite.
i'm off to slp now.

preparation for sch

2010-01-10T03:02:00.002+08:00

1 last day before sch starts.
sian! holidays always pass damn fast.
another sem is going to start.
so it will mean busy busy days ahead of me.
tutorials, assignments, projects, readings etc etc.
i'm so going to hate the busy life of me.
and tis sem is going to be a tough one.
a few hrs before, i was sorta preparing myself for sch.
so went to look at all the mods i'm taking & stuff.
and i realised they're realli not going to be easy.
esp. since i'm taking 2 core lvl 3000.
all the best to me man.

quite worried for one of my mod.
it's abt design & stuff i think.
i saw photoshop & dreamweaver.
den i'm like STUNNED.
cos i'm like super noob in those 2.
i rmb attending dreamweaver workshop in sec sch.
but it's SEC SCH.
so long alr, i've alr forgotten everything.
and i dont think i paid attention to it.
photoshop is like another troublesome thing.
super not easy to learn.
shit shit shit.
all the best to me.

tis sem sch stuff is quite cocked up for me.
i wonder why.
i tot it's quite a lucky yr for mi cos since the start of tis yr, i've been encountering some lucky stuff.
first, it was the modules bidding.
but i've got all my mods alr.
next, it's the exams date.
my first paper will start on 26th april.
and my last paper will end on 29th april.
how great ah.
i realli dunno if i shld be happy or wad.
cos my exams have nv been so packed before.
and it's 4 papers in 4 days.
of which 2 papers fall on the same day.
tis is the worse thing.
2 PAPERS ON THE SAME DAY!
god bless me.

oh well, i noe it's my choice.
but d thing is i dont have much choice.
i told my mum abt it.
but there's nth much she can do either.
she was quite shocked i'm going to end so early.
cos previously i always end quite late.
cos i prefer exams to be spread out.
oh well. it's fated?

and the 3rd thing, if i can get all the tut slots i wan, i will have 3 days work wk.
3 days work wk.
i also dunno if i shld be happy or not.
i've been having 4 days work wk.
cos 3 days work wk may mean some days will be super packed.
i didnt realli wan it.
but somemore, d tut seems to fall on the same day.
not much choice either.
i cant possibly place just 1 of my tut on wed itself.
den i will have to go sch for just tad 1 hr tut.
isnt it dumb?
go sch for 1 hr. kinda waste time rite.
so if i can get wadever i've planned, it will be a 3 days work wk.
and my tues will be super packed.
but d other 2 days r kinda fine.

oh well, all the best to me.
tis is the very first sem so far tad i've encountered so much problems.
smth tad wasnt realli wad i wan/plan.
yet other aspects of my life seem to be fine.
super super worried for tis sem.
hope everything will be fine.

and there's my cca stuff.
well, i realli wanted to join certain projects.
but i couldnt.
cos i hope to go for summer programme.
and it will mean tad i wont be in sg for 1 mth during june to july tad period.
so cant realli join those projects.
it also means tad i cannot attend those projects.
i so wan to go union camp again.
but i would wan to go summer programme more.
hope tad i can get it.

preparing for sch is so sian.
need to start printing all the notes and stuff.
need to buy textbooks and stuff.
money money money.
sometimes i wish i had a secretary.
so tad she can do all those minor admin stuff for me.
hahahahah!
i now noe the importance of a secretary.
haha. lol.
and i still need to do my timetable planning.
sian sian sian. so mani things to do.
i wan a secretary!!!!

abt 1 more mth to cny.
i'm not exactly looking forward to it.
tis yr i dont seem to have any cny mood.
maybe not yet? cos still early.
though i've been shopping during the hols, i haven manage to find any clothes for my cny.
i did bought new clothes for myself.
but i've also started wearing those new clothes.
hahahhaa.
i still have not yet decide on my cny theme.
HAHA!
cant seem to find any special clothes for cny.
and i wonder if i have d time to shop when sch starts.
i need to buy my cny stuff soon or else i wont have enough time.

oh. and on thurs, i watched the vampire's assistant.
on fri, i watched did u hear abt the morgans.
both movies r quite nice.
and there's a cute guy in the vampire's assistant.
hahaha. =P
and i have to start slping early.
i noe it's kinda too late alr.
cos it's alr sun.
to change my slping habits is too late.
haha. i still have 2 more wks before tut starts.
so shld be fine i guess.
totally dont have the sch mood.
i wonder how it would be on mon.
all the best for the coming sem!!!

bidding was terrible.

2010-01-07T03:41:00.002+08:00

the last time i blogged wad 2009.
and it's now 2010.
it's damn fast la.
tis yr it's gonna be the yr which i will turn into 21.
omg. super old.
can try to watch some R21 movies? LOL!

tis yr countdown was great i guess.
better than last yr.
cos tis yr we were more high.
watched the treasure hunter movie.
i wasnt veri interested.
but no other movies to watch.
the rest of the 4/5 ppl wanted to watch avatar or sherlock holmes.
but i've watched both.
so too bad. hahahaha!

we had dinner at the asian kitchen.
it was quite a nice dinner.
then we went to join in the fun at vivo countdown by channel 8.
saw alot of local artistes. on the big TV screen at vivo.
and everyone got damn high when patricia mok came out & sang a song.
hahahaha. everyone around my area were like cheering for her?
hahahahha! super LOL!
and i commented alot on the AT.
and everyone was kinda high when we started countdown.
it was great!
jason was like jumping up & down.
hahahhaa.

after tad, we made our way to demphsey rd.
i dunno how to spell.
aniway, wanted to eat ben & jerry's.
but it was closed.
des got lost on his way.
he was supposed to follow my car.
but i kept changing lane. hahahah!
opps. =X
den we went to kap mac.
& home sweet home.

the next day. new yr.
met up with my pri sch peeps.
we ate ALOT!
i think we ate alot.
4 ppl @ pizza hut.
we ate hut's platter, 9" pizza, 10" pizza, pasta, 2 garlic bread.
tad's like alot rite?
after tad, mi & eileen were like super super full alr.
but qiwen & andrea still can eat somemore.
went starbucks.
qiwen ate her dessert & andrea drank coffee.
& we sat down there & chit chat till 12plus.
super long chat.
it's kinda nice to still be able to be in contact with my pri sch frenz.

i saw xm there.
one of my nus tutor.
better not mention his name.
he was with his gf.
how nice rite.
hahahhaha.
and i saw cassie too.
such a small world.
and i shouted her name quite loud.
yes, in the public.
across some distance.

few days before the new yr had a no. of outings.
a day after the x'mas party, i went clubbing.
went clubbing with 0806.
to st james power station.
it's a realli great experience.
considering it has been a super long time since i went clubbing.
everyone was high.
i was high too.
so we were like dancing happily in the club.
but it's like super packed.
expected?
since it was a sat.
it was realli nice la.
love it! =D

after tad, went out the club to rest.
super tired.
hahaha.
den some went to mac.
d rest went back to the club to have more fun.
since we wont be clubbing anytime soon.
so have fun while we can!
went to another club.
saw alot of older ppl.
we were like the youngest.
hahhaa.

after tad, we had to walk a super long distance to the mac.
cos the shopping mall were closed.
it was a long walk.
den sat down in mac & chit chat.
till around 5plus nearing 6?
den walked to the mrt & realised tad it wasnt open yet.
so we decided to cab home.
hahaha.
by the time i went to slp was alr around 7.
and i had to wake up at around 1130.
cos i'm going shopping with my cousins.
super tiring day.
but it's nice to make full use of my time.

went bugis to shop.
bought a vest for myself.
den we went jp to buy scarf for kor kor.
and went to ah mas hse for family gathering.
it's like a farewell party for kor kor.
cos he's leaving sg soon for US.
and he will be there for 2 yrs!
such a long time rite.
so we had a farewell dinner.
took lots of photos of him & our family.
the following day, mi, cassie & sl went to watch sherlock holmes.
den went to meet kor & his gf for dinner.
at some italian restaurant.
quite nice ambience.
and i saw tis nus fren there.
i dont realli noe him.
but i do see him in sch quite often.

it was 1 for 1 dinner.
and i ate some prawn, crayfish pasta.
veri nice!
and we even had red wine for free.
i had alcoholic drinks on sat.
sun at ah ma's hse had red wine too.
and i had red wine on mon too.
consecutive 3 days.
and i even drove on mon.
opps. =X
and we had tiramisu.
it's an award winning tiramisu.
of cos it's nice.

on wed, i went ikea shoppin with cassie.
there's free parking if u spent $20 & above at ikea.
which is quite an easy task?
hahhaa.
and went to the cafe to eat.
it's veri nice!
we're so going back there again someday tis month.
hahaha.

a couple of days back, i went to the airport to send kor kor off.
he has left sg.
i wonder wad is he doing now.
at the airport, i took alot of random photos.
will upload the photos soon.
hope kor kor will be fine in US.
he will be there for 2 yrs.
and he onli can come back 2 times in 2 yrs.
how pathetic rite.
dunno when he will be back.
haven receive any news abt him yet.
haven see him online or at fb yet.
maybe soon?
cos he needs time to settle in.

going to miss his treats.
miss his jokes.
cny is coming but he cant join us.
he cant cook for us.
he cant peel the prawn shells for us.
he wont be able to drive us around.
but i'm sure he'll be back soon.
cos time flies!
he'll be back in a yr with our presents?
HAHAH!

and next wk, i have to send another person off.
HASAN!
he's going to US too.
for sep.
how nice rite.
will going to miss his jokes. hahha.

on top of all these, i wan to complain.
past few sems, i've been getting wadever mods i wan.
but tis sem, i dont!
dunno wad happened.
all d mods i wan r so popular.
so didnt get it during mpe.
so have to bid for it.
onli got 1 during mpe.
when i bid for 2, i got 1 onli.
the winning bid for the 1 i didnt get it is 748.
and i bidded for 747!
WTF!
my first reaction when i saw the results.
super suay.

i tot tis would be a better yr.
but when i saw tis, i dont think it's gonna be a better yr animore.
now i'm feeling so vexed.
i found the mods tad i can take.
but there's some problems with the exams date.
so im not sure if i wan to take it.
past few sems, my exams r super spread out.
i like it cos i will have more time to study.
but tis time, it's super packed.
i can finish my 4 papers in 4 days.
of which 2 papers r on the same day.
sian!
i hate it when there're 2 papers on same day.
super taxing.
shld i go for it or shld i not?
i'm afraid i wont be able to cope with it.
shit shit shit.
i have to decide later today before 3pm.
wad shld i do?

x'mas time!

2009-12-26T02:33:00.002+08:00

before i wrote abt x'mas stuff.
just want to have a HTHT with my tis blog.
sometimes i feel really mad at myself.
for certain stuff of cos.
i'm mad at myself for my bad habits.
i'm mad at myself for the things i've done.
i'm mad at myself for not doing the things i'm supposed to.
i'm mad at myself for not getting the things i'm supposed to.
i'm mad at myself for making the wrong choice.
i'm mad at myself for being indecisive sometimes.
i'm mad at myself for all the regrets.
i'm mad at myself for regretting things.
i'm mad at myself for lots of things.
i'm mad at myself for not doings things i've promised myself.
i'm just mad at myself.
sometimes, i've realli feel like doing some things.
but when i'm in the process of doing, i feel like giving up.
i'm mad at myself for being like tis.
i'm mad at myself for being lazy.
i'm mad at myself for being such a slacker sometimes.
i'm mad at myself for not having any ambitions/goals.
i'm mad at myself for losing my fighting spirit that was once strong in me.
i'm mad at myself for thinking some things at the wrong point of time.
i'm mad at myself for being too sensitive sometimes.
i'm mad at myself for thinking too much.
there's just too many things.
i'm just mad at myself.
but i just can't change.
well, it's in borne. it's my character.
i just hope things will get better next yr.
tis yr is definitely not a gd yr for me.
just few more days to 2010.
i realli hoped it would be a better yr for me.

on a happier note, let's talk abt my x'mas celebration!
my first pre x'mas celebration was with ling's family.
went to ling's aunt hse.
had a great feast.
lots of food.
and we cant finish.
and we had x'mas gift exchange!
and i damn unlucky to get seng's present.
i was praying not to get his present.
haha.
but it waas fun.

next was schizo's turn.
went to k box in the afternoon for a singing session.
it was great.
2nd singing session we had.
with different people each time.
and i realised all these people can sing quite well.
so it means most of our schizo ppl can sing quite well.
i have nth more to say.
hahaha.
after tad, went for grocery shopping.
bought snacks & drinks back to justin's hse.

justin's hse is nice.
fully air conditioned.
damn clean and neat.
there's even a pool table.
oh. and a bar counter.
he even had mahjong table.
didnt went to the 2nd storey.
so dunno how it looks like.
but it was realli nice.
just tad the sofa abit hard.
hahaha.

played guitar hero.
bdae cake surprise for shawn.
x'mas gift exchange.
played cards.
played mahjong.
watched ice age 2.
drank a little martell.
i didnt get to play the pool.
and chit chat.
it was fun.
and we stayed in his hse till next day around 8am.
super shag when i reached home.
luckily i drove there.

and on x'mas eve.
went to watch avatar with bizcom peeps.
and faith just rushed off straight after the movie without saying anything.
oh well.
den d rest of us went to have lunch tgt.
den hasan drove all of us to the west side (clementi).
his parking cost was like $10!
damn ex.
tis is y i nv drive.
drove brent to vivo.
den went to clementi.
zy went off.
den was slacking around with derrick and hasan.

cos the very nice guy des offered to come and pick mi up at clementi.
den went to my hse to grab some clothes.
before going to yew tee to pick jason and jiahui up.
and we had to go yishun to pick jieming up.
den went to amk to pick toylyn up.
and we went to bridport ave.
it was serangoon's area.
and we kinda got lost a little.
all thanks to jieming.
hahhah.

and we finally reached zhi xuan's hse.
oh ya. forget to mention abt smth.
tis is actually jason's jc class xmas celebration.
and he invited mi and des to join.
tad's y we went.
jason insisted tad i have to go. HAHA!
and just so happened sarah cant make it for the karma gang stayover.
so we cancelled it.
and tad's y i could join.

when i reached there, they were alr in the process of bbq.
den jason was like introducing everyone to me.
den we played card games.
and i realised jason dunno how to play bridge.
and we counted down to x'mas.
had some sparkling juice.
it's juice not wine.
hahahha.
heard tad their class quite guai one.
den had x'mas gift exchange.
i didnt participate.
cos i last min den decided to join them.
so i didnt have time to prepare any gifts.

and we started playing mass games.
first we played charades.
kinda funni.
and jason & hock kiat were damn pro la.
so the girls were kinda losing.
and jieming damn gd at acting.
it was a girls vs guys game.
and there were more guys.
after tad, we played mafia.
and somehow i kept playing the role of mafia for a few rounds.
it was nice.
cos if it's the civilian, it will be quite boring.
hahaha.

den we played a different kind of heart attack.
it's similar to the heart attack where we have to pass the cards to d person beside us.
but if u win, u can choose to play your hands anywhere.
can be on other ppl body parts.
so it was damn funni.
and we created quite a din.
cos there was tis old man who came and scolded us for being too noisy.
so we changed another game.
played the game where we have to pass a msg.
but it's through actions.
and most of them were damn shag by then.
cos it's alr around 5 i think.

so went to zx's room to slack around.
watched some random videos.
and it kinda became OTOT.
some were slping.
some were stoning.
then d girls decided to cook some food.
den mi and some others were chatting.
den i found an entertainment.
i went to play jm's phone.
it's N97 MINI leh.
damn cool phone.
but i think the white one is nicer.

we went off around 7am.
everyone was shag by then.
but i wasnt tad tired la.
cos i'm kinda used to slping late alr.
it was fun.
getting to noe more ppl.
and playing games tad i've not played with other grps of ppl.
cos uni grp games usually r those games tad got to do with alcohol.
more of drinking games.
but tis time, it's more of using the brain game and acting games.
so kinda fun too!
and thanks des for driving mi home.
it's such a nice day tad day cos i dont have to be the driver.
first, hasan drove mi to clementi.
from there, des drove mi back to my hse and to zx's hse.
den from there, drove mi back home again.
it's realli nice not being the driver.
it realli nice being driven around. hahahah!
tis realli shows i've been driving around quite often ah.
and driving ppl around quite often too.

it's sat alr.
clubbing later tonite???
when's the last time i went clubbing?
i totally cant remember.
and it realli shows how long i haven been clubbing.
i've lost the clubbing mood long ago.
i'm no longer into it anymore.
even if i do go next time, it would be cos of the company and not tad i wan to go.
i would rather go pub/bar.
cos i like drinking more i guess.
nice atmosphere to chill too unlike clubbing.
loud music, packed dancing floor.
and i dislike crowded places.
to go or not to go?

shopping!

2009-12-15T02:07:00.002+08:00

recently, i've been shopping quite alot.
it's kinda nice initially.
cos i haven been shopping for the past few months.
but sg is such a small place.
i shopped for a few times onli and i feel quite sian alr.
cos there's not much places to shop.
all the places i've went alr.
town, bugis, cityhall (citylink, suntec, marina square).
where else can i go to??

even if there're other shopping centres around in sg.
the shops are so common.
so even if there're different places, the stuff sold are more or less abt the same.
if a particular style is in the hype, i will keep seeing the same style of clothes in most of the shops.
and i dont realli quite like common things.
cos it'll be damn awkward if i see someone wearing the same clothes as mi.
if still frenz, still okay.
but if they're strangers, den it'll be damn awkward & paiseh.
i hate tad kind of feeling.
so i ended up feeling damn sian of shopping.
cos i keep seeing the same kind of clothes.
and tad kind of clothes may not be smth i like.
it could be smth totally not my style.
den how m i going to buy the clothes rite.

i've been walking around, trying to look out for cny clothes.
yes, it may sound damn early.
but cos i always take veri long to buy.
so it's better for mi to source the clothes i want earlier.
rush min shopping is so not enjoying.
and may end up buying smth tad i dont realli like.
so it's still better to buy the clothes earlier.
though everytime i would have the urge to wear the clothes first before cny.
and i have to control myself not to wear the new clothes.
hahaha.
i'm having such feeling currently.

abt a wk ago, i went shopping with cassie.
and i bought a top and blazor!
so happy.
finally found a blazor for myself.
den went shopping with yee chian.
i nv buy anything for myself.
but i did bought some stuff. but it's for my fren.
the onli thing i bought for myself is masks.
hahahhaa. LOL.
den i went shopping with melissa & xina.
haven been trying to buy alot of stuff.
but each time i onli bought a couple of things.
but it's still better than didnt buy anything at all.

so tad day, i bought a bag and a pair of shoes. or rather heels.
to be more exact, it's platform shoes or wedges.
very happy.
and i used the new bag today.
i love using new stuff.
hahaaha.
and the shoes!
totally damn tempting to wear it out.
but i have to control.
cos i take damn damn long to buy shoes.
i have high expectations for shoes i guess.
i'm the kind tad i have to love the shoes at first sight.
and recently the shoes all look very normal to me.
none can attract my attention at all.

so i'm so happy to buy a pair of shoes for myself.
i cannot wear it out now.
cos wad if i cant find another shoes for cny?
den die la.
so i have to control until i found another pair of shoes for cny.
actually i have alot of shoes.
i think i have around 20 pairs of shoes?
mostly slipper and heels.
fyi, i dont wear track/sports shoes and i dont like sandals.
so i ended up buying heels, slippers, or flats.

and i'm going shopping later today AGAIN.
i hope i can buy some stuff later.
hopefully, clothes.
cos i wan more clothes!
and i need to get presents too.

oh ya, i went to trim my hair today.
trim. so it also means not much difference.
just shorter, less thick.
i'm going to dye my hair next month.
i've decided to dye another colour.
so tis current colour is supposed to be a different colour from my previous colour.
but somehow it ended up looking quite similar.
just tad the previous hair is 2 colours.
current hair is 1 colour.
so next time i'm going to change my colour.
hahaha. so excited.
wan to see my new hair??
wait till cny period!
hahahhaha.

sometimes, i realli detest taking public transport.
when i take public transport, i miss driving.
but when i drive, i feel so sian of driving.
partly cos i'm always the driver.
i dont have much chance for ppl to drive mi around.
cos most of my frenz dont have a car.
so sad.
and sometimes i realli hate taking public transport esp. when it's damn crowded.
den i will look at all the cars on the road.
and i will start thinking abt tis.......
i have a car yet i dont wan to drive.
i chose to take a bus and squeeze with so many ppl.
so dumb of mi to do tad.
looking at those ppl who're driving, it's so shiok.
dont need to squeeze with ppl.
can reach home faster.
and have much more space.
1 word. COMFORTABLE.

anyway, i also cant drive.
cos sg parking is damn damn damn damn damn ex....
sian!
y so ex!
but sometimes i dont mind taking public transport.
and tad's when i can sit down and there aren't tad mani ppl on the bus.
den i listen to my songs.
and start to think abt alot alot of things.
cos last time when i take public transport, i always think of alot alot of things.
but since i started driving, i dont have tad chance to think of so mani things.
cos muz be focused when driving.
and i dont have other chances to be thinking.
at home, i will be occupied with tv or laptop.
outside, i will be with frenz.
the onli time i have is before slping.
but tad's onli a veri short period of time.

oh well, just some of my random thoughts.
later today going out.
and public transport again.
hope tad there wont be alot of ppl.
damn tired cos i've been going out the past few days.
and i will shop for almost the whole day.
so it's super tiring.
i shall rest early today so i have more energy for tml shopping!
so excited.
and i can see seok han!
can chat with her again.
and we like to HTHT.
i love HTHT. =D

i love holidays!

2009-12-12T02:07:00.002+08:00

holidays have been so good.
totally enjoying it.
totally loving it.
it's great to slack at home the whole day.
it's great to meet up with frenz.
it's great to shop around & buying lots of things.
it's great chit chatting with frenz.
in short, everything abt holidays is great!

so far, i've been going out with frenz.
shopping, watching movie, chit chatting, eating lunch/dinner etc.
if not i would be at home slacking!
watching tv the whole day.
slping till late afternoon.
being a couch potato.
hahahaha.
oh. how nice rite.
sometimes i realli hate studying.
cos i feel so sian of studying.
but thinking of having to work in the future, i noe i wouldnt like it either.
cos there's too mani advantages of studying.

1) i can plan my timetable. i can choose to go sch later or leave sch earlier.
2) the timetable can be quite slack. i dont have to work from 9-5pm. i can juz go to sch for a few hrs. and i onli have 4 days sch wk. but work will be at least 5 days work wk and there's OT or have to work during wkends. how sad rite.
3) i can skip lectures when i dont feel like it. but i cannot skip work.
4) i dont have to take public transport to sch. i can go to sch during non-peak hours. but if i'm working, i have to take public transport with lots of ppl, squeezing with them durin the peak hrs. super not nice.
5) students have abt 3-4mths of holidays each yr. working adults onli have public holidays & it's onli 12-14 days each yr.
6) when studying, we can talk to frenz during tut or lectures. but we definitely cannot talk when working.
7) there's work politics but no studies politics.
8) i have to dress formally to work everyday (depends on the work itself) but i can anyhow dress to sch.
9) work will be much more stressful. have to face with lots of competition, retrenchment, scolding from superiors, work politics, scheming colleagues etc.. frenz r different. we can choose not to befriend with those not nice ppl. we wont be retrenched, no scolding too.
10) students have the chance of going overseas too. sep, summer programmer, noc, etc etc. and it'll mean more playing than studying. but working, there wont be much time for playing.

so mani pros abt studying.
working is such a chore.
oh well, still have to face with it.
if nth goes wrong, den i'll be in the workforce abt 2 yrs from now?
unless i decided to rest first den work.
just 2 yrs.
i noe it will come soon.
cos time seem to pass so fast in uni.
i wonder why.
every sem seems to come & end super fast.

shall stop talking abt studying.
back to holidays topic.
so i've been enjoying myself.
there'll be lots of things coming up soon.
outings with lots of ppl.
my sec sch frenz, jc frenz, uni frenz.
every wk seems to be packed with activities.
and there's some clashes too.
a thing tad i hate most.
i hate other activities clash with my plans.
and i have to make a choice.
it can be hard sometimes.

totally can't wait for schizo stayover.
can't wait for karma gang stayover too.
and can't wait for the x'mas party.
can't wait to meet up with some ppl too.
how i wish holidays will nv end.
haha.
fruitful holidays it shall be!

aniway, on thurs, went out with yeechian.
went shopping.
den we went to watch couples retreat.
quite a not bad movie.
it's more of like entertainment, just for laugh kinda movie.
it's realli funni.
hahhaa.
though there're some disgusting scenes.

oh. and i received a belated present from hasan and faith today!
they gave mi a treat & a pooh bear.
den i was carrying the pooh bear around in holland v.
hahahha.
and i saw k gang at starbucks.
so shocked to see them there.
super long nv see them alr.
great day.
had lots of fun & laughter chatting with hasan, faith & youshen.
we shall go out again soon!!!

oh ya. another thing.
there's a camp next wk.
i'm still contemplating to go or not.
going means have to suffer abit cos they'll be playing alot of adventure stuff.
stuff which i dont quite dare to play.
so dont quite dare to go.
if i dont go, den i may miss out all the fun.
and the 3 of them kept asking mi to go.
but i'm afraid tad even if i go, there's no point also.
cos we all may be splitted into different grps.
shld i go anot?
shld i enjoy myself or shld i go suffer a bit?
it's the HOLIDAYS leh.
i realli cant decide.
give mi some comments...

end of exams

2009-12-05T02:40:00.002+08:00

a super good news.
exams have finally ended!!
so it means that it's playing time!
i shall and i will enjoy myself and play like mad during the holidays.
i realli love the holidays.
can slack around, doing nothing.
i can slp for long hours.
and spend my time doing nth or just watching tv.
i've finished watching the whole of The Four.
in case some ppl who dunno wad's The Four,
it's actually a HK drama tad is currently shown on scv.

and now, i'm watching another show.
it's 海派甜心 (my sweetheart).
it's a taiwan idol drama.
it's quite nice.
can be veri funni, can be veri touching.
such shows usually i onli watch for fun.
cos it's idol drama and i noe tad such stuff will not ever happen in reality.
so dont get too obsessed over it.
it's just for entertainment purpose.
haha. LOL.

another good news.
i'm going shopping tml!
after so long!
haven been shopping for quite long time.
cos sch term would be so busy with sch work.
no time to go shopping.
even if go out with frenz, most of the time we would choose to go watch movies or lunch/dinner.
usually, we wont go shopping cos we dont have the whole day to shop.
i've been wanting to go shopping for a long time alr.
just tad i cant.
so i've been kinda supressing my urge.
hahahha.
and now, i can finally release myself and shop!
i just hope tad i wont spend too much money or buy unnecessary stuff.
hahhaa.

totally can't wait to shop.
oh, another thing.
i can finally have a proper outing.
so it means i can dress up.
not like i will wear super nice.
but i will wear smth nice than wad i will usually wear.
usually i will go to sch onli, so i wont wear until veri nice.
or rather i will wear quite casual to sch.
go to sch to study, y bother dressing up?
i find it a hassle, waste of time and pointless.
cos it will mean having to wake up earlier.
i rather spend the time on slping.
hahahaha.
so now, i can wear my nice clothes.

so ppl, if u always see mi wearing my causal wear,
dont think tad i'm a person who dont dress up.
i onli dress up if it's necessary.
so it all depends on wad occassion.
hahaha.
though i do admit i can realli be quite casual.
tee and shorts.
but it's just going to sch.
so for wad rite.
hahhaa.

there'll be lots of more outings later tis month.
have to go catch up with all my frenz.
feeling so excited.
hahahha.
oh ya, and i heard from the news today tad,
30mins before we slp, we shld not use com.
but my habit is tad i will just go slp immediately after using my laptop.
haha. so it's not a healthy habit.
i shall TRY not to use my laptop 30mins before i slp.
but i cant guarantee tad i can do it.
oh well,
i'm off to slp now.
it's late and i cannot wait till 30mins later den slp.
hahaha. cos i need to wake up earlier tml to prepare myself.
shall update again soon.
take care, people! =D

result-conscious ppl.

2009-11-29T02:12:00.003+08:00

here's a post dedicated to ppl who r results-conscious.
wad makes mi wan to write tis is all b'cos of tis anonymous person (name) who has been tagging in my blog.

i just wan to say tad results is not everything.
y be so results-conscious?
even if u're in the top sch & having the best results, it may just mean tad u can study hard.
it doesnt mean u're smart or street smart.
and once u get into the workforce, u'll definitely have a gd starting point.
i dont disagree with it.
yes, u'll have a gd starting point with the interviewees having better first impression.
and cos of your sch & grade, u may get a not-bad job.
but all this is just the start.
if u're not street smart, u dunno how to do your job well, u'll just be stuck in tad position forever.
or maybe u'll be demoted?

on the other hand,
ppl with not so gd grades may not be able to get a high position initially.
but if the person is capable and have the determine to work hard and put in effort,
i believe this person can still eventually make his mark in his work.
grades doesnt mean everything.
some ppl r just born so. they just cant study well.
but they may succeed in their career.
so does it matter in the end whether u have gd grades anot?

yes, gd grades may mean u'll have a higher salary.
but so wad?
money isnt everything either.
having a lower salary doesnt mean he/she cannot get higher salary in the future.

and let mi ask u a qns.
how mani ppl who graduate actually go into the profession tad he/she majors in?
actually the percentage is not large.
sometimes, u study cos u have to study.
u need to study.
u have no choice.
yes, u may study smth u have interest in.
but it doesnt mean u'll be working in a place tad has smth to do with your major.
so in the end, u kinda wasted all your time studying?
cos u dont have the chance to apply wad u've learnt?
and sometimes wad we learnt r all theories.
and these theories r just useless when it comes to the practical thing.
so is getting into a gd sch and getting gd grades tad important?

i wouldnt say its veri important.
but i wouldnt say it's not important too.
the best thing to get out of education is to really learn.
learn and understand and apply.
it's of no use if u ended up memorising all the theories, get gd grades and forget everything in the end.
as long as the grades r decent, i would think it's fine.
cos too poor grades may give a bad first impression.
and it definitely wont help in the promotion and getting higher positions.

to the anonymous person (NAME):
do not insult other sch.
dont think u're smart just b'cos u're in a better sch.
dont be such a noob to say surface stuff like "u're not smart cos your sch is lousy".
it's such a sweeping statement.
by being in a lousy sch, everyone is not smart???
tad's such a low statement tad onli kids who dont understand will say tad.
so dont give ppl the impression u're a noob or a person who looks at things so artifically.
it doesnt do any good to u.
well, if u dont agree to wadever i say, den i would say tad's too bad.
just dont make negative comments in my tagboard anymore.
and if u're tad smart, y not use your real name?

digressing away from tis topic.
i just wan to say i'm done with my 3 papers.
just left with 1 more.
and it's like 4 days away from now.
such a long waiting time.
i realli dont have the mood to study animore.
but i'll still force myself to study.
i hope the papers so far are fine.
and i went out today after my paper.
went to imm swensens with sarah.
eat ice cream & fries!
after tad, went lot 1 to meet faith.
and we went to watch twilight 2.

faith was like super attracted by the movie.
she totally loves it.
haaha.
i find the movie not too bad.
kinda nice.
but like alot of focus on the werewolf.
they definitely r scary.
i got a shock when the wolf suddenly roars during 1 part of the movie.
hahahhaa.
i've slacked for the whole of today.
will try to start studying tml.
all the best to mi and other ppl who still have papers next wk.
and faith have ended her exams!
super gd!!

totally cant wait for holidays to come.
have alr told a no. of ppl tad i'll be going out with them.
just tad i haven confirm a date.
so i will start planning my holidays schedule soon!
too mani outings, limited money.
if only i have more money...
hahahaha.

3 more papers to go.

2009-11-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

okay. i'm done with my first exam paper.
1 down, so 3 more to go.
i'm really glad tad my papers r quite spread out.
from the 1st sem till now, my papers have always been quite spread out.
though it means tad i will end later, i think it's alright.
cos i have more time to study.
esp. since i like to dilly-dally.
so it's good to have more time.
by 28th nov, 2 more papers would end.
and by den, i would have onli 1 more paper left.

for the upcoming exams,
there's tis paper i feel damn damn damn worried for.
tis is like the first time i'm feeling so worried for my exam paper.
in the past, i dont feel worried for exams at all.
i dont think i feel worried before.
not even once.
i will just feel nervous when i'm about to enter the exam hall.
cos i would study for my exams.
and i noe i noe my stuff.
so i wont feel worried.
i would onli feel worried after i've sat for the paper cos i would be worried abt the results.

but tis time, it's different.
it's totally different.
i feel worried.
i feel damn worried.
i totally have no confidence at all.
i noe d things taught.
i understand it.
but doing it is another different thing.
i dunno y.
but i'm like super super super worried for tad paper.
i realli hope nth will go wrong.
if not i sure die one.

i feel so sian of exams.
been taking exams every yr since the age of 4?
so it's like 16yrs alr.
so sian of exams.
from the start of being super scared of exams, till now being quite calm abt exams.
everything takes time?
sometimes i realli wonder why ppl can be so smart.
i'm always envious of those smart ppl.
not tad i'm stupid (HAHHAHA), just tad sometimes they can be realli super smart.
i'm not tad stupid.
but i'm not tad smart too.
i still rmb, everyone in sec sch would say i'm smart.
they would say things like...
'it's xiao wei leh. she wouldnt get lousy grades de'.
something like tad?
hahhaha. lol.

i'm known to be smart in sec sch.
in pri sch, i cant realli rmb.
but my frenz sort of noe i'm those who will get not bad grades i think.
in jc, i wont say my frenz think i'm smart.
cos there's alot of smarter ppl in my class.
but i'm considered not bad alr.
all these were contributed by my fast learning ability i think.
i'm a fast learner.
realli a fast learner.
i have to say i learn things veri fast.
i can understand and learn it veri fast.
though my memory were gd, i nv memorise stuff.
cos it's a dumb way of learning things.
i dislike ppl who memorise stuff.
understanding is so much a better way of learing stuff.

but things seem to be so much different in uni.
maybe cos i went to a arts faculty.
i've been a veri sci person since sec sch.
in pri sch, i rmb i dislike sci.
but when i got to my sec sch, somehow, i kinda like sci.
i enjoy doing sci.
and i can excel in sci.
i kinda like maths too.
and i can excel in maths too.
nth seem to be difficult for mi to handle.
as long as i did study, everything is okay.
the onli problem i have is to make myself study.
tad's y i've nv been to those prestigous sch.
cos i will study. but i dont study hard.
and i slack off veri fast.
so my results would be not bad but not so gd till i can go to those super gd sch.
hahahahhahaha.
but it's true though.

den when i go to uni, i went to arts faculty.
not tad i wanted.
it's cos i have no choice.
d course i wanted is under arts.
though i like sci & maths and i kinda noe i can do not bad in it, i dont wan to go into engin or sci.
cos i noe it'll be super boring to do it for 3-4 yrs.
biz is not smth i wanted to.
so i'm onli left with tad course and it's under arts.
maybe things would be different if i were to accept the ntu comm studies offer.
but it's too late.
and i nv want to think abt it anymore.
so in arts, things r veri different.
not similar to sci definitely.
tis may explain why i dont have tad confidence anymore.
it's all abt readings.
and even if u read through everything, it doesnt mean anything.
cos i wont noe if i did noe my stuff anot.

not like sci/maths where there's a definite ans.
it's all abt readings and understanding the readings.
and i hate to read.
hahaha.
okay, i think i'm digressing too much.
my point is tad, for tis upcoming exam, i feel super worried.
a feeling tad i've nv had before.
worried way before the exam is not my style.
and i dunno wad i shld do.
i'm just worried.
i realli pray hard and hope tad everything will be well for mi.
if not, GG.
god bless me pls.

okay. going back to study for my other papers.
all the best to the rest of the papers! =D
jiayou, xiao wei.
3 more papers only.

reading week

2009-11-16T03:03:00.002+08:00

tis wk is the reading week.
and my first paper is damn early.
21st.
which means i onli have abt 5 days from now.
god bless me.

like the previous 2 sems, i'm encountering the same problems again.
no mood to study.
somehow, i seem to lose all my studying spirit.
i can no longer study like how i used to in the past.
in the past, though i also wont have the studying mood, i will force myself.
somehow or another, i noe i have to do it.
and i will eventually do it.
but tis time, it's so so different.
i noe i have to do it.
but i just cant do it no matter how hard i force myself to.
totally no mood and no motivation.
and i hate myself for keep falling asleep while reading.
hahaha.
i just cannot help it.

i noe i'm so dead.
hopefully, i can find back my studying spirit.
maybe another thing is tad, i've lost all my morale.
i've lost all my targets and goals.
i cant seem to find any targets/goals for myself animore.
i dunno y.
i just keep telling myself tad "there're more things in tis world than just studying".
and i think tis statement realli influences mi alot?
i just find no point in studying?
and i just lost all my morale.
stupid statement.
i hate it.

in the past, i've nv had such low morale feeling.
to me, studying is not a problem at all.
my grades have been quite gd all d way.
well, except for some exceptional cases.
the only lousy grades i've gotten is J1.
the time when i played alot.
partly cos of sajc influence.
ppl just keep playing alot.
they onli study for promo.
so my grades totally suck for my common test.
promo wasnt veri ideal too.
it's onli started improving when i'm in j2.
and my grades just kept getting better and better.

but now, i dont have tad kind of confidence anymore.
i just feel tad i dont have the ability and energy to be able to do as well as before.
i have no idea why.
i just hope tis kind of feeling will go away soon.
cos it realli demoralises mi alot.
sometimes, i realli wonder alot.
is uni reali tad gd at all?
y so mani ppl wan to get into uni?
i dont quite understand.
and when ppl get into uni, they start complaining.
like totally wth rite?
for my case, it's different.
cos i'm from jc and i have to go uni.
i dont have a choice.

i totally have a super bad feeling tis time.
i have no idea why.
like just now when i'm studying, i will suddenly stop cos a bad feeling suddenly comes.
i wonder why.
tis bad feeling realli makes mi super worried.
i hope i wont do badly tis time.
i hope my instinct wont be accurate tis time.
i hope everything will go well for mi.
i haven been getting much good karma recently.
hahaha.
opps. =X
god bless mi.

new blogskin

2009-11-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

i've just changed my blogskin.
not tad i'm too free or anything.
in fact, i'm sick now.
but i have no choice but to change it cos the previous one is no longer in use.
so have to change it to the current one.
dont have much time to look for a super super nice one.
so just make do with this one.
but it looks nice also.
simple & nice i guess.

just simple updates.
i'm sick.
at this point of the time.
it realli sucks.
cos exams are in about a wk's time.
and i'm sick now.
how m i going to study.
sian.

today just cleared 1 module.
cos no final exam for tad module.
but i think i kinda screwed it up.
partly cos i'm sick.
somehow, i went into the exam room.
and my mind is in total blank.
SIAN!
i screwed it up.
i hope i wont do too badly.
i just hope i can recover soon!

by now, most ppl would have alr started mugging and stuff.
but i havent!
cos 1 presentation just ended today too.
oh. the presentation was gd i guess. most ppl laughed at our videos.
so it's a gd thing!
anyway, past few weeks been busy on projects and stuff.
totally no time to study.
and u think i can start studying now?
NOOOOOOOOOOOO.
cos i still have an assignment.
like totally wad the hell rite.
tml last day of sch alr and i still have an assignment to do?
blame the lecturer not the students.
tad is wad the lecturer had planned.
wad stupid plan is it.
totally no brain.

initially, she even wanted us to hand in the assignment on the exam day itself.
but we students of cos protest la.
in the midst of exams, who would bother abt d assignment rite.
BUT it's like 15% of our ca.
so cannot totally heck care also.
deadline is 23rd nov.
but i just wan to get it done asap.
hopefully i can finish by tis wkend.
BUT i have another problem.
i have no idea wad the assignment is about though i've alr read through it.

why.
cos lecturer sucks.
cannot teach at all.
cant understand her & her lousy english & poor pronunciation of words.
and during tutorial, i always end up on fb and stuff.
nv realli listen.
and the tutor is not veri gd either.
kena all the bad ones.
sian.
so now, i have no idea how to go abt doing it.
and how m i able to finish by tis wkend.
i'm so dead.
i need lots of help....

still contemplating to go sch tml anot.
cos i'm still quite sick.
hopefully i will be much better tml.
if not i'll just pon sch.
oh well.
actually, i alr have the ponning sch mood now.
hahaha.
totally cant wait for holidays to come!
all the best for the exams! jiayou!!! =D

super packed wks.

2009-10-17T01:20:00.002+08:00

i'm like super busy recently.
i have no idea why.
or maybe i noe why.
recently, there's 4 ongoing projects.
so super busi.
lots of project meetings.
but i've managed to chiong finish 2 of my projects.
so left with 2 more.
the 2 tad i finished r the easier ones.
the other 2 is more xiong with lots of work to do.
by the end of next wk, i would have finished another 1.
den left with 1 more which is my biggest project so far. (40% leh!)

so i'm like super busi.
still got other assignments leh.
and some other stuff to settle.
super packed wk.
even my free day has to be taken up by all the work.
went back to sch for project meetings.
den next wed is also taken up by another project.
sian.
and next wk will be super busi too.
cos got 1 presentation.
so i guess there's alot of preparation work to do.
SIAN.
2 presentations on fri. -.-
all the best.

tis wkend and the next 2 wkends are all packed!
can u all imagine.
next 2 wkends all packed leh.
means 3 consecutive wkends i wont be staying at home.
both sat and sun leh.
so mani stuff!
sian. sometimes staying at home is so gd.
can slp till super late.
watch tv till i shuang.
do wadever i want.
and to be a potato couch!
so relaxing.
i miss the days where i'm at home.

usually every wed i also can stay at home since it's my free day.
but last wk i couldnt, tis wk i couldnt, next wk also cannot!
3 consecutive wed cannot stay at home too!
super sian!!!
y so busy?
but i guess after 23rd oct, some of my stuff would have been settled.
so maybe my wkday wont be tad packed?
MAYBE. maybe smth happened, so may have to take up my free day.
super hard to say de.

and my fri.
usually i would go home straight after lesson on fri cos i will be super tired.
but today i couldnt.
stayed in sch till 7plus for project meeting.
den met up with fren to do some stuff.
next fri also cannot.
have to stay till 8plus in sch.
sian!
someone save mi pls.
pls dont take away all my free & slacking time.
i want them.
and i have no idea why i'm having headache now.
super bad headache.
splitting headache.
i rarely kena headache.
and tis time, i kena & it's super pain.
it's killing mi.
i think i shld slp soon.

to have a rest is to allow mi to travel further distance.
and i feel like i'm falling sick too.
but i better not.
cos next wk i reali realli need lots of energy.
gd luck & jiayou!!! =D

bdae updates

2009-10-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

let me update abt my bdae first.
karma gang planned alot of surprises for mi la.
first, they purposely make mi have the sianzation feeling.
d day itself lied to mi tad one of them overslept den have to delay the meeting time.
den suddenly showed up at my doorsteps.
with a mooncake.
cos it's d mooncake festival.
i totally got a shock.
stunned for damn long.
den went to my room and gave mi my presents.
alot leh. 5 presents in total.
so have to slowly one by one open.
hahaha.

den they saw the cui side of mi.
my cui home clothes.
hahaha. after tad, we took dione's car to town.
went to e2max to open a room.
grace showed up with tis veri big cookie from famous amos.
damn nice! =D
watched tis veri funni yet dirty movie.
hahaha.
gaia came.
den took photos before dione left.
den walked all d way to ion orchard.
took some funni photos there.

walked there for a while to kill time first.
before we go to d hotel for buffet!
den they wanted to give mi another surprise.
they wanted to put a notebook inside my bag.
but i caught them in d act of wanting to put d notebook in my bag!
HAHHAHAHA.
damn funni.
aniway, the dinner was nice.
love the seafood.
crabs, prawns.
love the dessert.
ice cream, cakes.
though i dont have a sweet tooth, d dessert was nice la.
i had an enjoyable day.
photos are all up in my fb alr.
still waiting for belated presents/celebrations from other ppl.

aniway, today i went out with faith, hasan and chris.
we went to catch the ugly truth.
i noe it's like damn long alr.
but i so wanted to watch just tad i had no time.
so we watched today.
i think it was nice.
super funni.
though it's super dirty too.
ahahhaha.

den went for dinner tgt.
den went to mac to find d bizcom guys.
since they so happened to be there.
another 2 more were at town too.
just tad they were at ion orchard shopping, enjoying themselves.
hahahha.
all of us didnt want to be light bulbs.

tis fri, i'm going for a dinner.
nussu appreciation dinner.
dress code: formal.
but their formal is not those super formal kind.
not like those gown kind.
since d place is somewhere in sch.
and i have a veri big problem.
wad dress shld i wear????
another big problem: shld i go home first after my lesson which ends at 4?
it's troublesome to go home though i will have to wait in sch for 2hrs+ if i dont go home.
d thing is if i dont go home, it means i have to put on make up early in d morning like 10am?
cos my lesson starts at 10am.
changing in sch is also veri troublesome for me.
some ppl may noe why esp. cassie.
she will noe why it is troublesome for mi to change or put make up outside.
hahaha.

how how how????
i only have a day to decide.
so vexed.
sian.

my bdae day.

2009-09-23T02:42:00.004+08:00

just a short one before i go to slp.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!!
i'm now officially 20!
dunno if it's a gd thing anot.
i feel so old now.
20 leh!
no longer a 'teen'.
after tad, i'll continue to age at a very fast rate.
but luckily, i dont look like my age.
so ppl cant tell i'm 20. HAHAHHA.

aniway, i'm going out with my karma gang later.
so looking forward to it.
esp. since we're going to eat hotel buffet!!!
so excited.
i'm not one who eat buffet.
in fact i kinda hate eating buffet.
but tis is different.
it's a HOTEL buffet.
so i guess i will love it.

going to slp now.
have to wake up earlier to dress myself up.
hahhaha.
will update soon!
once again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, XIAO WEI!!!! =D

first day of recess wk

2009-09-21T01:54:00.002+08:00

sat was an enjoyable day.
first met up with faith and audrey to study in sch.
after tad, i drove to town to meet 4/5 peeps.
went for dinner tgt at waraku.
we kinda veri long nv go out tgt le.
den went to play pool for a while.
after tad, i left to meet faith since she's in town also.
den we went to vivo to meet the rest of the bizcom peeps.
had super fun chat.
all the shit-stirring.
it's fun stirring other ppl shit.
hahahhaa.

recess wk is going to be a busi wk for me.
so mani stuff to do.
somemore it's my bdae.
if celebrate alot of days, i'll feel bad.
but if i dont celebrate, i'm like letting myself down.
hahah.
so i shld make full use of all my time so tad when i play, i can enjoy myself!
yeah. gd plan.
aniway, confirm eating hotel buffet on wed!
yeah!!
initially i was veri excited.
until smth happened on sun.

smth happened on sun.
and tis realli kinda spoils my mood.
it just had to happen a few days before my bdae.
how can i be happy.
though everything is over now, i cant realli stop thinking abt it.
and tis time seems to be one of the most serious incidents.
i hate it.
not tad i hate her.
sometimes i do hate myself.
i feel useless sometimes.
i hate myself for doing some stuff too.
but i just cant help it.
i hate myself from being so timid too.
y am i like so super scared of cats.
i hate myself from being so timid and always have to ask my parents for help when there's a cat near/under my car.
but it's just some minor stuff.

today it's different.
not exactly minor stuff.
but not exactly major stuff too.
i have my own principles and character.
and wad happened today clashed with my principles and character.
and plus tad thing i guess.
so kinda cant realli control my temper.
but i still insist it's not exactly my fault.
she likes to assume things.
and cos of her wrong assumption, it triggers the start of d whole incident.
so another fugly her came into d pic.
i dont realli wan to say wad exactly happened.
but i just hate it.
i dislike her for always putting all the blame on me.
whenever there's an issue between mi & fugly her, she likes to blame me.
blame mi for everything.
blame mi for starting d whole thing.
her own assumption.
she dont even bother to find out.
she would naturally think i'm at fault when i'm not.
i feel so hurt.
but there's nth i can do either.

and i dunno wad happened to me today.
i cried during the incident. of cos la.
but usually after tad, i'll try to be strong and get over it.
tis time, i just cant.
i just cant.
i have no idea why.
i cried during my shower.
cos i started to think abt alot of stuff.
how she's so disappointed when i nv meet her expectation.
psle is the first incident.
but after tad, i do work hard not to disappoint her animore.
not performing as good as everyone including myself expects.
i feel even more upset.
afterall it's my own issue.
after tad, there's no such issue animore.
when i get good results, u maybe happy.
but u dont seem super happy.
i have nv want to disappoint her.
i felt so discouraged.
previously, i have high hopes on myself.
i set my own targets, goals, aspirations.
but there's tis point when it reached the peak and has been dropping.
i'm not longer tad ambitious.
i have no idea why.
i cant find back the same motivation to set my own target, goals and aspiration.
i think i may even reach the point where i realli find most of the things i'm doing currently meaningless.
so meaningless.

after my shower, i tot everything would be fine.
but i was wrong.
i have no idea why.
i cant seem to control my tears.
it just filled my eyes.
and it happened quite a no. of times.
tears filled my eyes.
it rolled down my cheeks.
alot of times today.
till i lost count.
and it happened whenever i heard voices of them.
why why why why why.
i hate all tis tad happened.
i envy others.
why cant i be like the others....

recess wk is here again.

2009-09-17T00:39:00.003+08:00

so sian of sch.
so many things to do.
no time to update my blog at all.
though i'm busy, i still find time here and there to go out with frenz after lessons.
hahha.
muz learn how to relax, work & play at d same time.
i also dont have time to upload my photos.
there's like so mani photos waiting for mi to be uploaded.
around 6 different albums i think.
will upload soon during tis wkend.
cos next wk is recess wk!
like FINALLY.

holidays is here again.
so means my bdae is coming veri soon!
starting to count down.
6 more days from now.
excited?
happy?
excited yet sad.
excited cos i love celebrating my bdae.
sad cos it means i'm going to be 20 veri soon.
so old!
and my bdae is always during recess wk.
gd & bad la.
good cos it's holidays.
bad cos there'll be assignments, projects & exams!
how to enjoy rite.

but still, i'm looking forward.
maybe eating hotel buffet with karma gang!
so happy. hahaha.
though i dont realli like to eat buffet.
but hotel buffet is different!
and hotel food is nice. =D
another thing abt bdae is tad i can receive presents!
i love presents.
receiving lots of presents and open them is such a happy thing to do.
i rmb last time in my sec sch, i received lots of presents every yr.
so mani till i canno carry it home myself.
so my mum has to come and drive me home.
hahhaa.

after tad, i nv receive tad many presents animore.
cos ppl tend to share 1 big present.
and big present doesnt mean literally big.
it can be small but expensive.
d next time i received alot of presents was during my 18th bdae party.
i'm so looking forward to my 21st bdae party.
it'll be fun?
with lots of ppl with lots of presents with lots of nice food?
hahahaha.

aniway, i'm here updating my blog cos i'm just too bored.
there's a mid term exam later today.
i studied till veri sian.
so i decided to take a break and write smth on my blog.
all the best for my exam.
though i'm quite done with my revision, somehow i dont feel veri prepared at all.
i dunno y.
hopefully nth goes wrong tml.
hopefully i can ans most of d qns.
all the best to me!!!
*back to studying*

short update

2009-09-09T01:07:00.003+08:00

okay. i noe i super super super long nv update my blog alr.
hahaaha.
i think my blog is dying.
sometimes i'm just too lazy to update.
now that sch has started, i've no time to update.
sian sian sian sian sian.
so mani things to do.
lots of assignments.
a couple of projects. 1 of them is quite a big project.
on top of assignment, i still have weekly tutorials.
den i still have my cca stuff.
so mani things to do.
tis sem super stress and busy la.

tis sem modules' workload is kinda heavy.
so sian la.
so mani stuff to do.
realli not enough time.
luckily i onli have 2 mid terms.
but i need to use my recess wk to catch up all my readings.
i'm like seriously lagging behind alr.
so sian!

1 good yet bad news.
good news is that one of my mid terms is before the recess wk.
tis is gd cos i onli need to concentrate in studying for 1 exam only.
bad news is that the exam is next wk.
and i haven started studying yet.
HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW?????
KILL ME!

and i have to do so mani stuff within these 2 wks before d recess wk start.
i so unlucky la.
kena an assignment to be handed in next wk also.
so have to rush through d assigment and study for my exam.
i still have my cca stuff to do also.
sooooooooo sian........
i noe i shouldnt slack during first 2 wks.
but i just cant help it.
after not studying for 3 mths.
who can get into the studying mood so fast?
let's not talk abt those muggers/nerds.

2 projects tis sem.
1 is quite a big project.
d other is not veri big but require alot of work and effort.
both euqally taxing.
sian sian sian.
i'm now taking a break from my work la.
hahaha.

aniway, i have doubts.
i have doubts towards my future.
i so wanted to be a public relations officer or smth.
but now i have second thoughts towards tad.
it's not tad i dont wan.
i still do want.
just tad i think i may not be up to the job.
i just cant fulfil some of the requirements for tad job.
i think i cant.
maybe hard work would be able to save me?
i dunno.
but i think it's realli difficult.
and it's just so happened one of my weakest area.
wad to do?
and tad aspect is a veri veri veri impt part of public relations.
i think i realli not up to tad job in tad particular aspect.
i better start looking for alternatives now.

but i'm doing public relations for my cca.
and for the big project, i'm sorta the public relations too.
hopefully can get some experience.
aniway, i will update again soon!
in d meantime, i muz work hard!
btw, the proposal is quite a nice movie.
i do enjoy it.
kinda sweet too.
and i also watched final destination not long ago.
omg. super bloody and gross la.
it was okay except for d ending.
ending was super lame. hahhaa.
i'm off~~~~
JIAYOU!!!!

OH YA! 1 LAST THING.
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING VERI SOON!!!
i dunno if i shld be excited & happy abt it anot.
cos once my bdae comes, i would be 20!
omg. 20 is like so old la.
i dont wan my age to start with '2'.
i'm still 19.
and i'm happy with it.
once i become 20, i'll get old veri fast. =(
treasure my last few moments of being a 19 yr old girl.

a colour test

2009-08-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

a test result tad i took....

the first time i took it....

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

eh. i dont find it tad accurate. haha.

the 2nd time i took it....

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

eh. seems like 2nd one is a little more accurate? haha.

super busy.

2009-07-28T01:55:00.009+08:00

haven realli been updating my blog.
cos i've been realli busy with lots of stuff.
cca stuff, outings and stuff.
i wanted to update abt my union camp.
but haven had d chance to do so.
but tad camp is like 3wks ago?
hahaha.
i had a draft post on tad.
but i haven finish updating yet.
so cannot post yet.
let me update on my other stuff first.

after tad busi with outings.
tues met up with my dear angelyn.
after so long.
we've been trying to meet up since d start of our hols.
went for lunch and a short window shopping.
went to the new shopping centre-iluma.
but tad place wasnt veri place.
very big with alot of empty space.

after tad she need to leave.
while i went to meet my cousin.
went to accompany her to do some insurance thingy.
tad person who served her was her bf's cousin de gf.
so we ended up chatting for quite some time.
family stuff.
some joke stuff.
den i was sitting there looking around.
so i kept looking at her colleagues lor.
den started to discuss abt her colleagues.
cos her colleagues had a no. of not bad looking guys leh!
hahha. but too bad, they're too old for me.

and i saw xiao han when we were chatting.
after tad, we went shopping for a while first.
cos kinda late alr.
so we decided to shop around first den go for dinner.
but shopped until a little sian.
so we went dinner.
dinner went pastamania.
but i wasnt hungry so i just ate garlic bread.

after tad, i brought her to iluma.
saw cecilia on d way there.
den we just walked around in iluma.
but there wasn't much stuff.
and most shops were closing alr.
after tad, we walked to d stop before bugis.
and we took bus home.

wed outing with sexy four cos alison is finally back.
but we met up for dinner onli.
cos jannah had class before tad.
so we went north point.
i was the last to arrive.
hahhaa.
after tad, we went swensens.
mi and jannah decided to eat their dessert again.
so we ordered 4 side dishes.
2 chickens, 1 fries and 1 butterfly prawns.
and we both still like d chicken more.

took some photos.
chatted alot.
cos 4 of us realli veri long nv go out tgt alr.
miss our jc times.
and i realli love the sticky chewy chocolate.
super nice!
hahaha. love it.
after dinner, we went to walk around for a while.
den we headed home.
i sent jannah home cos i drove.

sat went back to sch for bizcom general meeting.
i tot i'm like kinda late alr.
but when i reached, i'm like the 4th person.
hahah. totally wth.
waited for quite some time before we decided to start d meeting.
and we ordered 6 large pizzas but there was onli 10+ ppl.
so each of us had to eat 4 slices.
alot la.
i onli ate 2 slices. hahhaa.

meeting was supposed to be from 1-3pm.
but we started around 2pm.
and we ended at 3plus i think.
after tad, we all just hang around the lt till nearly 6pm.
did alot of stuff.
talked crap.
talked abt uc stuff.
went to look at photos.
went to disturb a girl from raptor.
watched some funni videos.
hahaha.

after tad, most of them went for rag dinner.
den i drove to bukit timah plaza to meet jason they all.
there were des, nel & his gf, teck soon and ernest.
they were playing pool for some time alr.
so i went there to meet them.
but i didnt play until the end.
had to settle og outing stuff.
msg alot of ppl.
organise a big outing is tiring.
hahaha.

after pool, they decided to eat subway.
just nice i had craving for tad.
so we went to d one at rail way mall.
ate subway meltz.
jason didnt realli like subway.
same as mi la cos i dont like bread.
but subway meltz is realli nice.
so i intro tad to jason.
but he joker leh.
told d person he wanted all sauces.
but des stopped him.
too mani sauces got weird taste leh.

and jason said it wasn't nice at all.
he ate until super unhappy like tad.
but we all told him tad's d best alr.
if he dont like tad, den he sure wont like d rest.
and so one of the guy let him ate the tuna one.
den he finally understand y subway meltz is the best one.
hahhaa.

tot tad after tad we'll be going home.
but nope.
we decided to go watch movie.
watch some late nite movie lor.
but had to go all d way to town.
aniway, me and nel drove tad day.
so from bukit timah, we drove to plaza sing.
had a few choices.
harry potter, ice age and transformers.
some alr watched.
but they dont mind watching again.
so we decided to watch transformers.

it was a rather late movie.
around 12plus.
and d movie was long too.
so it ended kinda late.
but d movie is nice.
at least i didnt fell asleep.
hahaa.
after tad, i sent jason and des home.
den i went home.
long and tiring day.

sun is schizo first outing!
organised by me.
attendance was quite gd.
more than half turned out.
a few came and left.
a few came later.
so we met at the cathay first.
tad time only had a few ppl.
mi, justin, khai yu, jason, stella and kat.
den we went to mind cafe first.
there shld be around 14 ppl.
so ppl just come 1 by 1.

we played quite a lot of games.
and has to play those reaction games so tad it'll be more exciting.
hahah.
and khai yu cant play tad kind of games.
cos he has slow reaction.
everytime we played tad.
he's usually the loser.
hahhaa. so sad.
we played alot of games till 6pm.
khai yu and jason left halfway.
den we went to the cathay de ri ben chun for dinner.
xina and guoan joined us there.
sushi for dinner.

after dinner, some went to buy mixer and snacks.
i went to buy some stuff.
guoan went to buy some shirt.
after tad, a few took harvi's car.
d rest of us took mrt to huixue's hse.
his hse is kinda nice.
explored his hse.
den played guitar hero while waiting for d rest to come.
after tad, we played mass games.
played kings.
i took alot of videos.
hahaha.
photos not nice.
videos nicer rite.

i wasnt exactly tad unlucky.
i didnt kena alot of times.
even if i kena, i kena quite okay ones.
so it was alright.
think samuel kena quite alot.
wil also kena quite alot.
and i was the king for quite a no. of times.
it's tiring to come up with forfeits to do.
can realli run out of ideas.
hahaha.
and all of them were saying my ideas always veri disgusting.
ahhaha.
isn't tad d point?
it's either disgusting or some sexciting stuff.
which would u prefer?

xina left quite early.
cos next day she got chess camp.
we made use of the food too.
after tad game, we played water game.
tad's when i got to drink alot of alcohol.
hahhaa.
there's vodka, chivas and whiskey.
nice nice.
so i just took d whole bottle of chivas and placed it near me.
it was abt half full.
and at d end of the game, onli a little was left.
veri little.
main drinkers for d chivas were mi and junfu.

1-6 had to drink.
red had to drink ourselves.
black can ask someone to drink for u.
7 had to stand up.
8 was to set a new rule.
9 was rhyme
10 was category
Jack dare
Queen truth
King just pour your drink into the cup in d centre and the 4th king had to drink it up and d game would end.
Ace is the toilet card.

tis game is kinda interesting.
but if u nv kena toilet card can be quite bad.
esp. me.
cos i drank alot.
cos there's 1 rule is to say a english singer name before u drink.
so either i forget to say or i cant think of any.
so in d end i drank alot.
it was veri fun la.
cos alot of funni rules tad came up.
hahaha.

and whenever someone picked the dare card, they just had to dare mi.
so in d end, i think i did more forfeit in d 2nd game than in d 1st game.
i dunno y they sabo mi also.
sian.
did alot of funni things.
hahaha.
after d game, we went to watch dvd.
some horror movie.
watched for a while den most of them wanted to leave alr.
it was around 2plus 3plus like tad.
so onli left mi, eugene, samuel and xue.

so we watched d horror movie.
most of d part i didnt watch.
cos it's horror movie.
so i just closed my eyes lor.
hahhaa.
2nd movie was nicer.
it's freaky friday.
a comedy movie.
veri funni.
after tad, eugene went to slp.
sam alr fell asleep.
i didnt wan to slp.
so i continue watching movie.
i watched dodge ball.

watched till 7plus.
it's d morning alr.
so just chit chat with xue.
den went to check out d guys.
den eugene also woke up.
so we just hang around chit chatting.
ended up xue fell asleep.
so mi and eugene just chat and watched tv.

left huixue's hse around 930.
cos tad's when it's off peak.
after tad, mi, samuel and eugene took cab home.
all of us were veri tired.
can tell la.
and we were kinda quiet in d cab also.
and i dunno wad's wrong with d cab driver.
totally POOR skills leh.
he cant drive straight.
omg.
the car just kept moving right and left.
he cant keep d car moving staight.
and he sometimes cant even keep d car inside d lane.

omg. such a bad cab driver.
how did he even get his license?
totally bad ride.
i was super scared lor.
scared tad later he knocked onto other cars or smth.
super dangerous ride.
reached home nearly 10.
went to bathe and stuff and slp.
super tired alr.
and when i woke up, i try to talk but to no avail.
no voice came out.
i lost my voice!
i dunno y also.

previously, i ton 1 nite also nv lose my voice.
dunno y tis time lose my voice.
maybe cos i had been having sore throat for d past 1 wk after uc.
den tad day maybe abit high also.
shout and stuff.
den i lost my voice lor.
i cant talk for a day.
i felt so terrible la.
cos i'm a talkative person yet i cant talk.
super bad experience.

den my mum made mi drink liang teh.
i hate it la.
i totally hate d taste.
so bitter.
and i hate bitter stuff.
i took veri long to finish tad bottle.
den had to eat medicine too.
eat medicine still okay.
it's d liang teh tad almost killed mi.
i wonder why some ppl like.
hahhaa.

tues were supposed to go back to sch.
but i couldnt go.
stayed at home d next few days to rest and recuperate.
to get back my voice asap.
on tues, i could talk a little.
at least there was voice coming out la.
but it's super deep voice.
hahahaa.
i sound veri funni.
cos my voice is deeper than my bro's.

thurs i went back sch to help d booth decoration.
went bpp to print photos first den went to sch.
for each person i saw, they would ask mi wad happen to my voice.
hahaha. den i have to tell everyone tad i lost my voice.
even though my voice was back alr, it wasnt my original voice.
it's the coarse kind of voice.
deeper voice.
we decorated for veri long.
we stayed in sch till around 8.
after tad, i had to drive zhenyu to zouk to get his bag.
den went back to clementi again to meet d rest for dinner.
hahhaa.
dinner till 10plus.
another long and tiring day.

fri was first day of matric fair.
and i had to talk alot.
cos need to explain to the freshies.
and i kept hearing my deep voice.
abit irritating. hahaha.
cos i dont like my deep voice.
i wonder if some ppl got think why my voice so deep anot.
hahaha.
saw some of my freshies too.
so just talked to them and made them register.
hahaha.

so our job is to stand there and get ppl to join.
at d same time, give out flyers and vouchers for ppl who signed up.
it's okay la.
but tired cos i had to stand the whole day.
lunch was subway.
and cos huiying saw her booza freshies.
so 2 of us joined her booza freshies for lunch at subway.
and i get to noe alot of secrets from booza.
hahaha.

bizcom outing at nite.
23rd MC to 31st MC.
didnt wanted to go at first.
cos kinda tired alr.
and im going out during d wkends.
but in d end, mi and faith did went.
with derrick, heng and zhenyu.
kenny joined us when we finished eating.
we ate at some thai buffet at liang court.
it's kinda nice leh.
first time eating thai buffet.

after dinner, d rest of them were going drinking.
but all of us didnt go.
i was driving, so might as well dont go.
d rest of us shld be veri tired alr.
need go home rest early.
so we just left after dinner.
tiring day.

sat was cassie's 21st bdae party.
i didnt go there early to help out.
initially, i wanted to watch movies with my frenz in d afternoon.
but in d end, i didnt go.
cos i was too tired.
hahaha.
so i just slept in and went to the party at nite.
i went around 7plus.
i drove there myself.
reached there and most ppl were there alr.
normal party.
ate dinner.
took photos.
chit chat.

sun was schizo 2nd outing.
had to meet at kovan at 11.
super early for mi.
somemore kovan super far.
at 11, i was still at home.
hahaha.
luckily, my mum offered mi a ride.
so she drove mi to potong pasir and i took mrt from there.
it's veri fast.
if not, i think i wont be able to reach so early.

waited at the hawker centre for a few others to come.
den weiliang drove all of us to huixue's hse.
cos harvi and justin parked their cars there.
den from there, i took justin's car to weiliang's hse.
first time sitting his car!
super nice car.
i like it cos the light in his car is blue colour!
my fav. colour. hahahha.
super random stuff.

plan was to go huixue's hse.
but somehow they decided to go weiliang's hse instead.
since both of them also live in kovan.
went weiliang's hse and played games.
played wii, played card games.
when more ppl came, we played mass games.
1 grp were playing mahjong.
den d other grp were playing kings. AGAIN.
hahaha.
alot of funni forfeits la.
and wil is just unlucky.
always kena him.
sam also.
and yuling was super lucky.
nv kena her at all. until the very end.
den kena her once.

left at around 4plus.
some left.
some need go do some stuff.
d remaining of us went amk hub.
and of cos i took justin's car.
some took harvi's car.
went there.
wanted to catch a movie.
but no movie.
and we ended up playing in the arcade.
hahaha. super long nv play arcade alr.

after tad, we went for dinner at chomp chomp.
ordered quite a no. of stuff.
but we all managed to finish everything.
super nice dinner.
after dinner, we went harbour front.
went mac to sit down and chit chat.
hahaha.
and we chatted till they closed.
and it's around 1am.
super late alr.
luckily weiliang was nice enough to send us home.

mon supposed to go matric fair.
but was informed not to go.
so i just stayed at home & rest since i reached home kinda late d day before.
den was wondering how m i going to wake up very early.

next 2 days (tues & wed) had to go matric fair.
but it's fun in some ways actually.
get to see freshies.
talk to them.
occasionally seeing some old frenz.
or some of my uc og freshies.
it's kinda nice in a way la.
den seeing we mc members working hard tgt.
it's kinda nice.

wed after matric fair was schizo 2.5 outing.
hahhaa.
justin's slot was the last one.
den he kinda waited for mi for like an hr.
cos i need to settle some stuff.
den packed up the booth and stuff.
after tad, met up with him to slack around in sch.
cos it's still kinda early.
they meeting 8 at city hall.
and there will bound to be ppl who will be late.
so we went munchie monkey's to slack.

ate their brownie.
cos their brownie is nice.
den 2 of us just hang around and chit chat till around 730.
den went kent vale to pick up our cars.
den went to kent ridge terminal to pick kat.
den went to petrol station cos i need to top up my petrol.
and i just followed justin's car all the way.
cos i dunno d way there.
when we reached timbre, we were told no seats.
so had to change venue.

den drove to central to park our cars.
den went brewerks.
but had to wait.
den some ppl were quite hungry alr.
so we walked back to central for dinner.
den went back to tad place again.
drank beer.
played pool.
chit chat.
took photos.

at around 11, some went off.
den d rest of us went to clarke quay area.
some wanted to go mambo.
and peck hwang nv go club before.
since wed is ladies nite, we girls decided to bring her in to see how was it.
so we just went in walk around for a while.
den we went out to find the guys.
they were at clinic.
and they ordered some alcoholic drinks.
veri nice!
hahaha. i love it.

after tad, they decided to go mambo.
but mi, justin and mich didnt go.
cos mi and justin drove.
and justin and mich werent exactly into clubbing.
so 3 of us went macs instead.
sat down and bought food.
and we chit chat from around 12 to 3.
a long chat.
chat abt alot of interesting stuff.
hahahaha.
and we went home after tad.

thurs went to meet my pri sch frenz.
and i overslept!
i felt so bad.
luckily, we're onli having lunch at bpp.
and not some other place.
so i just chop chop wash up and stuff and meet them.
lunch at mos burger at around 2pm.
and we sat there till nearly 7pm.
we definitely had a long chat.
chat abt current lives.
den chat abt our pri sch frenz.
den chat abt our pri sch life.
alot of memories.

we also talked abt some of our pri sch frenz.
cos some of them were in d same sch.
and most lived in d same area.
so we would see them sometimes.
so chat abt their current lives and stuff.
realli realli realli chat alot.
pri sch days were the innocent days.
trouble-free.
stress-free.

fri finally had d time to rest and stay at home.
after going out for mani consecutive days.
it's veri tiring to go out for mani consecutive days.
so took d chance to stay at home and rest.

mon was karma gang outing.
after not meeting up for so long.
and it was gaia's bdae tad day.
they came my hse first to plan our timetable.
sat down and planned our timetable.
after tad, i drove to town.
so i drove all of them to town to meet emily.
but grace had to leave.
so left 4 of us.
we were at ion orchard.
walked around to see see.
basement had alot of ppl.
but when u go further up, the no. of ppl gets lesser and lesser.
cos it's the high end shops.

we took veri long to decide where to eat.
in d end, we went shokudo at heeren.
ordered some main courses so we all can share.
den we ate the mango snow ice dessert.
super nice!
i totally love it.
hahaha.
after dinner, we walked to taka.
den had to try all ways to distract gaia.
cos we need to buy her present.
hahhaha.

after tad, we went to shaw towers.
so tad we can get a cake for her and celebrate.
went to canele.
and we bought a small cake for her.
and we ate their crepe.
super super nice dessert.
haha.
but she said she can tell we're going smth just now at taka.
so abit failed ah.
after tad, they need to leave.
cos of sarah's curfew.
if not we could stay later.
den mi and emily just stayed on for a while more.
chit chat and stuff.

sat until around 10.
den they need close shop alr.
den went to the carpark.
and somehow we ended up talking alot.
standing at emily's car and talked alot.
around 30mins i think.
hahaha.
too mani stuff to chat abt.

tues supposed to be guai lan girls outing.
but smth happened.
so we didnt go out.
aniway, i had to do alot of other stuff.
busi with bidding stuff and choosing modules.

thurs had to stay at home in d day to monitor d bidding stuff.
in d evening, emily came and picked mi up in her car.
den we went lot 1.
watched the hangover.
it's a super funni movie.
with some RA scenes.
hahhaa.
but it's veri nice.
i do enjoy it.
veri funni movie.

after movie, went to see wad we can eat.
so we saw a desert shop.
and we decided to eat there.
shared mango snow ice.
but it wasn't veri nice.
still like d one at ice monster and shokudo.
around 10pm, we were being asked to go.
cos they were closing shop alr.
so we went mac.
ate shaker fries den chit chat.
we just kept chatting and chatting.
until we were being told tad mac was closing.
den we realised it's alr 1am!

hahha. time realli does pass unknowingly.
and time always seem to pass faster during happy days.
after tad, emily drove mi back home.
it's nice to be driven.
after driving for long, it can be tiring.
and esp. when u had to drive other ppl, it's even more tiring.
i realli realli enjoyed when i'm being driven around.
it's so nice sitting in the front seat.
but not the right one.
it's d front left seat. =D

fri had a mini og gathering.
super mini. cos onli 3 ppl.
met up at bedok 85 for dinner.
and i drove there.
super long way there.
can't imagine if i'm taking mrt.
it'll be a super long journey.
which will take at least 1 hr?
hahaha.
i wasnt lost.
cos i followed d directions given by khai yu.

so we went to bedok 85 for dinner first.
the dinner was okay la.
was quite nice la.
first time eatin there.
hahhaa.
after dinner, i drove the 2 guys to tampines mall.
we're going to watch UP!
hahaha.
initially,i wasnt realli for it.
but i just go with the majority.
but it turned out to be nice!
i realli enjoyed it.
it's nice, funni and touching.

after movie, den we went home.
sent khai yu's home.
den wanted to send wl to potong pasir.
but in d end, we realised no exit.
so i sent him to toa payoh instead.
and he told mi d wrong directions.
supposed to be going towards tuas.
i ended up going to changi tad direction.
i didnt panick la.
cos i noe i wont get lost.
so i just exited at d next exit and U turned back.
nth happened.
and i reached home safely.

sat went out with jason and jieming.
went cwp.
went to buy tix.
we watched G.I Joe.
no other movies to watch le.
wanted to watch where got ghost.
but it was kinda late.
after tad, accompanied jason for his dinner.
hahhaa.

the movie was not bad leh.
at least i felt tad it wasnt tad bad.
kinda nice.
and i like the male lead inside.
veri gd looking.
hahahah.
after d movie, we just went home straight.
didnt watch the late night movie.
cos if we watched tad, den we would have to cab home.

heart aches.

2009-07-25T03:11:00.002+08:00

my heart aches.
for tad reason.
i dunno y i would do tad.
i dunno y it would happen in d first place.
i dunno wad's d meaning of tad.
i try not to think abt it.
but it just keeps flashing in my mind.
i wan to noe d reason.
i wan to noe d meaning.
but at d same time, i rather not know.
maybe things would be better tis way.
in any case, i just hope tad it wont affect anything.
it wont affect anything in d past.
it wont affect anything now.
it wont affect anything in d future.
it has happened and it's a fact.
i cant do anything to salvage.
i may regret doing tad.
but no point.
i shall get over it soon.
though my heart aches whenever i think of it.
or whenever i sees smth.
i do regret sometimes.
and i'm afraid tad thing will affect us.
nobody will noe abt it.
tis shall be my biggest secret of all.
everything will be fine rite???

bizcom mc last video shooting

2009-07-06T02:15:00.002+08:00

sat was the last video shooting day.
have to wear office attire.
not quite used to wearing so formal in sch.
cos i usually wear quite casual to sch.
haha.
i reached there around 15mins past 1.
went yih study room.
and apparently, alot of ppl have not come yet.
so still end up waiting for d rest to arrive.
but d turnout rate wasn't veri gd either.

around 230, we made our way to university hall.
first time going there.
and d scenery there was kinda nice.
haha.
first we had to wait for huiyang to come.
after tad, we realised d battery was gone.
so someone had to go back to look for it.
so d guys played open numbers.
and kenny had to go back.
hahaha.
poor kenny.

but he couldnt manage to find.
so he took another camera instead.
hahah.
so everything was delayed.
but d shooting didn't take long.
so first we took d dancing scene.
everyone wearing office attire dancing except for weishan.
cos she didnt have any office wear.
kinda funni.
a few looked kinda weird.
hahahhaa.
took quite a few shots.
can be quite tiring.

but it's fun.
and d last scene was a veri short dance.
hahahah.
u all shall see.
i think it's going to be nice yet funni.
tis was kinda fast.
i think we took 2-3 times onli.
cos d dance is relatively easy.
just a few steps onli.
so it's alright.
but everyone was like commenting on how weird kenny looks when he's dancing.
kinda funni. seriously.

and we called it a day.
ended around 3plus 4 i think.
kinda short but it was fun in a way.
after tad we went back.
upload d videos.
look at d videos and laughed.
look at some other funni videos too.
hang around for a while before we left.
decided to go holland v for dinner.
but my car was kinda small.
and there's 5 guys and me.
so obviously, my car cannot take all of them.
heng & hui yang took my car.
james, kaiwei and derrick took bus.

and of cos we reached holland v first.
went to d kopitiam to wait for them to come.
and we ended up eating there for dinner.
hasan came and joined us too.
same goes to kenny and zhenyu.
there was some dirty talks.
but i'm fine with it.
cos i'm like quite used to it alr.
hahaha.
talked abt some uc stuff.
den kena suan cos my og no og shirt.
hahaha.

after zhenyu & kenny came, we shifted places.
shift from kopitiam to a coffee shop beside it.
they wanna eat zi cha.
but abit bad.
cos like 9 ppl but onli 2 ppl eating.
haha.
abit out of place also.
wear so formal to kopitiam and coffee shop.
hahhaa.
some of them even drank beer.
looked kinda funni.

zhenyu also made fun of my og name lor.
hahha.
but i wasnt sad at all.
cos it's super funni.
hahhaha.
so we just hang around chit chat.
chat until 8plus.
den went off separately.
me being nice decided to send hasan home.
even though it's not realli on d way.
hahhaa.
but we had great chat in d car.
with some fun.
cos hasan randomly on the i-forgot-wad-it's-called.
it's for sweeping away d rain on d windscreen.
so he just randomly from d back seat moved forward.
push d button to let out some water.
and started "cleaning" my windscreen.

den started telling him d story of someone who messed with mi when i'm driving.
hahha.
talked abt alot of stuff la.
den went home after tad with james in my car.
from d carpark to my hse, i saw 2 cats.
terrible experience.
hahhaa.
such a tiring day.
i'm supposed to go for some bbq on tad nite.
but i decided not to go.
too tired.

sun was supposed to meet up with ling and grace.
but it suddenly rained.
and it was quite heavy.
so we decided to postpone it.
and so i stayed at home.
and had to settle some uc stuff also.
so mani things happened to my og.
super sad.
super sian.
hope everything will go well during d camp.

later today is day 0 of the camp.
for ogls & councillors only.
supposed to be staying over.
but most probably not stayin over.
tues to fri will be d camp.
so i'll be away for 4-5 days.
wont be seeing mi online.
but once i'm back, i think i may have alot of things to update.
and alot of photos to upload.
meanwhile, wait for mi to be back.
i hope i'll enjoy the camp.
cos i pack until super sian.
i hate packing for camp.
super troublesome.
but no choice.

and lastly, i will miss my pooh bear alot alot.
cannot play with it or hug it for so mani days.
and i scared some ppl will bully him.
my poor bai bai.
nth shld happen to u.
my mum kept wanting mi to throw it away.
but NO.
i will nv throw it away.
he shall be with mi forever.
hahhaa.
i love my pooh bai bai! =D

3 consecutive outings

2009-07-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

last fri was supposed to be shooting video day.
so i went down to my dad's office first.
to have my car wash.
hahhaa.
saw some uncles there & talk cock with them.
after tad, went to sch and was late for an hr.
i was walking up to find them den they suddenly appear in front of mi.
and onli heng, zhenyu & derrick was there.
so we had a change of plan.
tis time, heng drove.
so he drove us around to take zhenyu onli.
went around d sch to take.
and since there's onli 1 person, we finish it kinda fast.

we took around 2hrs plus i guess.
finish it at around 3plus.
den we decide to go zhenyu's hse since we had nth to do.
so went to his hse to play wii.
i didn't noe how to get to zhenyu's hse.
so have to tailgate heng's car.
hahhaa.

and we played wii rabbids.
super funni la.
cos we played different style.
tis time whoever is 2nd will have 0 point.
so it's kinda funni.
cos when u realise u're 2nd, u will tend to stop playing and try to be d 3rd or last.
and somehow zhenyu kept getting 2nd.
cos of derrick and heng.
derrick always try to let zhenyu be d 2nd.
either he win heng or he will purposely lose.
so it's super funni la.
den i always get d last.
hahahah.

not always la.
most of d time.
cos i noe there's tis time i got d first.
it was some bike racing game.
hahah.
we played alot of rounds.
play until sian.
den we stopped playing & went for dinner.
we went west coast plaza.
zhenyu sat in my car.
and he had to give mi directions.

and there's traffic jam.
so took quite some time to get there.
we lost heng quite early.
but luckily he noe how to get there.
so it's alright.
and we reached first.
den was looking around wad we can eat.
and we ate at tis west co'z restaurant.
kinda cheap.
set dinner $10nett.
and d portion was kinda big too.
couldn't manage to finish.

zhenyu ordered chicken chop.
and d meat wasn't fully done.
so he got another new plate.
and he ate my leftover chicken.
so he ate like 2.5 chicken.
i was quite shocked he can finish everything.
den we were kinda looking forward to d dessert.
and it was super disappointing.

d dessert was some fried banana with caramel & hot fudge on it.
it looks nice.
and just so happen, i dont eat banana.
zhenyu also dont eat banana.
heng dont realli like and it's warm.
so derrick was d onli one who do eat.
but zhenyu and heng both ate 1 cos there were 2 in a plate.
d rest & mine all gave to derrick.
and he also managed to finish everything.
no food was wasted.
except for my soup cos i didn't finish it.

a nice dinner.
after tad, went to buy scissors.
haha.
den we went off after tad.
i drove zhenyu back to sch.
den i went home.
a super tiring day.
though i didnt do much stuff.

last sat was my sec sch class 2/8 bbq.
initial plan was to go.
but in between alot of things happened.
some miscommunication between vien & justin i guess.
so in d end, mi and vien didnt go.
first, si liang called mi at around 8plus.
second, carol called mi at around 8plus also.
third, jie ying called mi. at around 10plus.
after jie ying called mi den i realise smth was wrong.
so i called vien.
den i called norvin.
and den, i got d whole picture.
kinda complicated.
so i wont be explanining.

but it was kinda late alr.
so vien didnt wan to go.
i tot quite some time before deciding to make my way there.
i decided to go at around 11.15pm.
den i went to prepare and stuff.
left hse at around 12midnite.
and i reached there around 12.20.
i drove there.
after i reached there a while, d guys came.
justin didnt went home cos he missed d last train.
so they all came back tgt.

went into d chalet and slack.
watched tv, played with d mahjong tiles.
took photos.
chit chat.
there wasn't any shows to watch.
ended up watching some cheena show.
super sian.
but it was funni in a way.
hahhaa.
ben took my camera and kept taking alot of random & candid photos.
some were realli funni.

so we just chit chat lor.
jiayi's bf (kristen) shared ghost stories with us.
kinda scary.
didn't realli dare to listen much.
cos i'm kinda timid.
hahhaa.
talked abt alot of stuff la.
after d cheena stuff, it was channel 8 old drama show.
i forget d show name.
but it was abt tis guy who was dead and he was living in d other world.
super nice and funni show.
tad show ended at 4.
so i left after tad.

i could reach home before 4 but had to drive d guys home.
justin, norvin, ben & weiliang.
and justin live in woodlands.
so it was kinda long journey.
so drove from PIE to BKE.
den i exited from BKE.
after i just exited from BKE & made a turn, i saw some blue & red lights.
and den i realised it was road block.
it's my first time seeing a real road block.
so i drove slowly there.
d car in front of mi dont need to stop for a check.
so i was hoping they wont check mi also.
but i was wrong.

i was being asked to stop for a check.
initially, i was kinda scared.
but i didn't do anything wrong la.
just scared cos they're police.
and it's my first time also.
tot maybe smth will happen.
they asked for my i/c & licence.
but i dont have i/c.
but it's okay.
so we ended up talking by d roadside.
cos d police checked for super long.
i also dunno y.

checked our i/c and stuff.
den still check my whole car.
i looked quite guai wad.
hahaha.
they realli checked kinda long.
i tot it would be quite fast.
but in d end, of cos nth happen la.
hahha.
kinda cool ah.
first time kena road block.

drove justin back home.
den drove ben to yew tee point cos he wanna eat mac.
hahhaa.
den drove weiliang home.
lastly, drove norvin home.
and by d time i reached home, it's alr 5plus.
but i still went online.
bathed, went online.
and i went to slp at around 630 am.
my mum just woke up. haha.
super funni.
she just woke up and i'm just abt to slp.

and i had to wake up at around 11.
cos i'm going out.
so i slept for less than 5hrs.
super tired la.
but it was my choice.
my mum was quite shocked i can wake up at 11 when she knew tad i slept so late.
initially, i had to meet xina.
but i was kinda slow.
and wasnt ready to meet her.
so i didn't meet her.
and i requested my parents to drive mi there.
and they agree.
so i was kinda happy.
hahaha.

and i wasn't d last to arrive.
enqi was d last among us.
but jason brought 2 of his frenz along.
and in fact, one of his frenz (hock kiat) was d last to arrive.
and he actually lived in yishun onli.
jie ming & hock kiat joined d 7 of us.
den we made our way to yishun safra by taking a bus.
it was party world.
and d way we seated was kinda funni.
cos all guys sat at 1 side.
and d girls sat at d other side.

and when there's duet song, 1 mike will be at tad side.
d other mike will be at d other side.
so see who wanna sing lor.
kinda funni.
another thing was there's 2 remote control.
so there will be times when 2 ppl were pressing.
first time was jie ming and xina.
xina was like wondering how come d screen will change when she didnt press anything.
hahaha.
2nd time was mi & jason.
but tad jason purposely one.
so i pressed to get to tis page.
den he will like purposely press back.

den i had to press to tad page again.
den he will press another thing.
so it's like super irritating.
cos i cannot get to d page tad i wanted.
super funni.
hahhaha.
and one of d guys' drink was spilled.
kena a wallet & handphone.
so we just sang songs.
took photos.
chit chat.
celebrate meishi's bdae.
but her bdae was a month ago.
and we took grp photo too.

when d time is up, we didn't leave.
we just sat around.
den jieming was playing songs from his handphone.
and he place d mike near his hp speaker.
hahha.
gd idea ah.
after tad, we went toilet.
and we girls were cam whoring inside.
haha.
it was still kinda early and everyone wasn't hungry yet.
so we decided to play pool.

but hock kiat had to leave.
so 8 of us.
8 of us to a table.
cos it wasnt very cheap.
and i reaslised d table was kinda low.
not realli a real game la.
cos we played in grps.
and some dont realli noe how to play.
so it's more of like playing for fun.
not realli a test of skills.

after pool, we made our way back to north point for dinner.
went xin wang for dinner.
but d food wasn't veri nice.
i couldn't finish even though d portion was quite alright.
i still like their iced milk tea.
took photos too.
i was sitting with d guys.
so were talking to them most of d time.
d other side was more of girls' talk.
and i kept kena suan lor.
jie ming & jason.
double attack.
realli suan mi alot sia.
bully me.

kept talking abt mi.
not gd stuff.
but bad stuff.
hahha.
luckily, i'm nice.
den we had to foot d bill.
and they took super long to count.
den meishi kept counting wrongly.
xina took over instead.
but in d end, they gave us back and said we paid more.
hahhaa.
from d start, i shld be d one counting instead.
cos i'm quite gd at mental calculation.

aniway, after tad, we went out of d restaurant.
and we started chatting there.
it was onli 9plus.
so we decided to walk around first.
but we realised most of d shops were closing alr.
cos it's nearly 10 alr.
went toilet.
and we took photos again.
after tad, we decided to go home.
splited into 2 grps.
mi, xina, meishi & regine took bus.
d rest took mrt.
and just so happened 4 took bus live in bp area.
d other 4 who took mrt live in yew tee area.

while waiting for d bus, mi & xina kept chatting abt our camp stuff.
den i noe there's tis guy standing beside mi kept listening to our convo.
he just turned and listened.
he did it veri openly.
after we board d bus, den mi and xina talked abt it.
tad guy super irritating lor.
listen to us for wad.
he looked so old alr.
y bother with our uni stuff.
so on our way back, we talked abt alot of camp stuff.

it was definitely a super fun day.
but it was super tiring.
cos i slept for less than 5 hrs tad nite.
and we went out for quite long.
did alot of stuff also.
so kinda tired.

mon just rest at home d whole day.
tues had to wake up early.
had to wake up at 9plus.
veri hard to make myself wake up.
hahha.
i always had hard time waking up early in d morning.
supposed to meet xina at bus stop at 1045.
but in d end, i still cannot manage to meet her at tad time.
so i met her 10mins later.

i reached d bus stop first.
den i saw 700.
luckily xina was a short distance away from d bus stop.
so she ran.
and we took 700 all d way to shenton way.
cos wilson was working there.
so mi, xina, wil & yuling met up to discuss abt out uc og stuff.
10 councillors but 2 backed out, so left 8.
out of d 8, onli 4 turned up.
had our lunch at han's.
but we couldn't finish discussing & were kinda being chased out.
so we went mac to discuss.

after tad, wil had to get back to work.
while we 3 girls went to buy our stuff.
we went bras basah.
on our way there, we saw cassandra.
chatted with her for a while.
den we continue walking.
den there's tis old lady who tapped xina's shoulder.
and she asked if we're foreigners.
den she told us tad there's tis angmoh guy who kept looking at us just now.
hahha. super funni.
and d old lady said tad ang moh was ti ko bei.
hahahhaha.

reached bras basah.
went art fren to check out prices.
den went popular.
i didn't noe d popular was so big.
shld be d biggest ba cos there's 5 levels.
we bought alot of stuff.
but still within d budget of $20.
not bad.
d stuff are with mi now except for a board.
and we didn't take veri long to buy.

after tad, we walked to bugis.
yuling went off from there.
while mi and xina just shopped around.
kinda tired alr.
so we went mos burger to have a drink & rest.
and we chit chat.
after tad we continue shopping.
saw a veri cute penguin tee.
so went to try.
but i didn't buy.
den went to look at shoes.
saw tis quite nice shoes.
and it's kinda comfortable also.
and i bought it.

so i have a new pair of shoes.
kinda happy.
hahha.
and it's a nice colour. brown.
i dont have any brown shoes.
i onli have a brown slippers.
and it's reali comfortable.
1 feature tad i like d most.
after buying tad shoes, we made our way back home.
somehow alot of ppl at tad shop.
so we waited for quite some time.

on d bus, i saw eileen, my pri sch fren.
but didn't chat with her for veri long.
d bus was veri packed.
but luckily, there's still seats for mi and xina.
but we weren't sitting tgt.
i was sitting in front of her.
super tiring day.
but i still wan to go for more shopping.
i still wanna buy alot of stuff.
hahhaa.

after i alighted and was walking back home,
i saw eileen again.
she moved her hse alr.
so she's now living a few blocks away from mi.
so we walked back tgt and we chat abt alot of stuff.
den we reached my void deck.
but we stood there and continue chatting for quite some time.
alot of things to chat abt.
cos we since pri sch nv realli chat with one another animore.
but we still can joke & play around.
hahhaa.
and we were saying to organise pri sch gathering.
haha. i wonder will we be able to do tad.

we talked abt our current life, sch.
to our frenz.
to some other random frenz.
to driving.
to alot of stuff la.
we seem to be able to chat abt alot of stuff.
another funni thing is when we were standing there chatting, we saw tis girl.
and we both noe she's from our pri sch also.
just tad maybe we dunno her.
but we were veri sure she's from bpps also.
and she live same block as me.
yet i nv see her before at all.

aniway, we realli had a nice chat.
and i realli hope we can have d chance to meet up someday before sch reopen.
and we almost can become course mates leh.
cos she's from smu biz mgmt.
so we almost become course mates.
but we didn't.
hahaha.

going out for 3 consecutive days can be realli tiring.
haha.
i think i'm realli getting older.
not much energy alr.
last time still can tahan.
now i will realli feel veri tired.
and i'm going for a camp next wk.
it's a 4days 3 nites camp.
such a long camp.
and it might become a 5days 4 nite camp.
i wonder if i can survive anot.
hahaha.
oh well, it's getting late.
i'm going to slp soon...
nite nite! =D

emo post.

2009-06-29T01:49:00.002+08:00

will update my life next time.
just wanna say smth.
was talking to a fren just now on d phone.
chatted for super long.
talked abt some sad stuff.
it kinda made mi think a little more?
think abt my past.
think abt my present.
think abt my future.

how can life be so unfair sometimes?
if we dont get smth, does it mean we dont deserve it?
but why other ppl can get it den?
if other ppl can, why can't i?
if some ppl can, why some other ppl can't?
unfair?

i have tis complicated feeling.
i dunno y.
sometimes i feel like i do.
sometimes i feel like i dont.
wad's wrong?
which exactly is true?
do i? or do i not?
i seriously have no idea.
i dunno wad to do.
i dunno how to sort out my feeling.
i dunno how to react/face.

d same thing seems to be happening again?
tad time it happened once.
and now, it's happening again.
isit cos of d same reason?
or it just some problem?

aniway, somehow, i dont like ppl to just reply mi with 'LOL'.
i also dunno y.
as in if i'm chatting online with someone let's say.
i will be kinda unhappy if they just reply mi LOL.
if they replied LOL den add some comments after tad, i'm fine with it.
but i just dont like ppl to reply mi with LOL and tad's it.
i also dunno y.
but i just dont like it.
i just hate it.
so if u happened to read tis, try not to just reply mi LOL.
at least say smth after tad la.
hahaha.
some random stuff..

shopping time.

2009-06-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

mon was shopping time for mi & cassie.
initial plan was to go bugis to shop.
but cos before tad, she went to bank to do some stuff,
so i decided to change venue.
decided to go jurong point cos i seldom go there.
so i waited for her at home till she's ready.
and her dad drove us there.
reached JP around 3plus.
and we decided to eat new york new york.

as usual, i will order the fries.
fries with cheese and sour cream.
veri nice and i realli love it.
den they had some promotions for sizzling plates.
so we ordered tad.
it's not tad bad la.
but not veri gd either.
hahaha.

after our lunch, it's shopping time!
had alot of stuff to buy.
my shopping list.
so we just shopped around.
time to time looking for d stuff tad i wanna buy also.
first item i bought is name card holder.
hahaa.
i was kinda looking for bag & shoes.
but couldn't find any tad i like.
den we went fox.
and somehow, mi and cassie started trying quite a no. of clothes.

in d end, we both bought a tee each.
but i also bought a dress.
and these 2 items cost mi around $70.
when i went m)phosis, i saw tis clutch tad i saw veri long ago.
tad time i do like it.
but i didnt buy.
tis time i went again, it's still there.
i still like it alot.
and i think for veri long.
in d end, i realli bought it.
and i bought a new comb.
tad's all i think
everything adds up cost mi more than $100.

and very last min, cassie suddenly ask mi wan go watch movie with sayleong.
930 movie at lot 1.
and d time she asked mi was 9.05pm.
i was like veri random and last min leh.
but she said tad's their style.
and we watched ghosts of d gf past.
so sayleong came and pick us up.
we reached cck a few mins past 930.
bought tix and some snacks & drinks in.
and d movie has alr started.

by d time d movie ended, it's alr 11plus.
reached home around 1130.
d movie was kinda nice.
funni at some parts.
touching at some parts.
i do enjoy it.
hahha.
and it's a fruitful day for mi.
though i still have quite a no. of stuff which i haven buy yet.
still wanna buy bag, shoes, more clothes (esp. bottom).
cos i realised i've been buying alot of tops but not bottom.
mostly cos some stuff i bought online.
and i dont quite wan to buy bottom online.
so in d end, i bought alot of tops.
so i wan buy more bottom now.

i've been spending alot.
even if i dont go out to shop, i still spend alot.
spend money on food, entertainment, presents.
so mani stuff.
so in d end, i still spent alot.
and my savings has been depleting and depleting.
no money has been going in.
it just keep coming out.
i need more money!!
and i need a BIGGER wardrobe.
did i say i like sliding wardrobe?
i dunno y but i love sliding wardrobe.
but too bad, i cant change cos my current on is kinda stick onto d wall.

so i have a wish when i grow up.
when i grow up, i wan a BIG sliding wardrobe.
wardrobe with different kinds of sections.
like 1 section for dresses.
1 section for tops.
1 section for bottoms.
1 section for shoes.
1 section for bags.
1 section for accessories.
1 section for belts.
and many many more.
it would definitely be neater.
and it would be easier for mi to find & match my stuff also.

i need a veri big wardrobe.
so tad d clothes would not be too squeezy.
it's veri hard for mi to find clothes currently cos my clothes are veri packed tgt.
hahhahaa.
oh ya. den mi and cassie were talking abt it.
den she were saying find someday to come my hse to help mi clear my wardrobe.
hahaha.
i did try clearing myself previously.
but still not much diff leh.
still alot of stuff.
and i realli think my wardrobe going to burst soon.
HAHHAA.
too mani stuff alr.

and whenever i opened my bro's wardrobe, i would think his clothes are pathetic la.
hahhaa.
realli not alot of clothes as compared to mine.
well, i think most guys wardrobe would be similar to his?
how i wish i can have another wardrobe.
if only tad freak & xxl move out soon..
talking abt xxl.
he's super irritating!
i think he's staying over tonight.
cos he just went to bathe in my hse not long ago.
well, he always bathe in my hse.
i hate it!
and today is not wkend yet he's staying over.
DAMN!

CASSIE, CHERYL!!!!!
WE SHOULD CARRY OUT OUR PLOT SOON!
I CANT STAND IT ANIMORE!!!!
i've been tolerating for d past 4-5 yrs.
if i continue tolerating, i think my life would be shortened by alot of yrs.
i may seem bad.
but i dont care animore le.
i wan to carry out d plot tad i've planned.
it's just super unfair to ME.
y am i d victim.
y doesn't my mum understand.
y is my mum so nice?
y doesn't my bro or my dad care?
sometimes, i realli realli realli wish my dad/mum to be stricter to us.
cos if tad's d case, xxl wld not have d chance to stayover.

terrible life i had.
horrible life i had.
unpleasant life i had.
imagine a stranger going to your hse EVERY SINGLE DAY.
NO FAIL unless my sis not at home.
imagine a stranger staying over in your hse once every wk.
how would u feel?
UNCOMFORTABLE rite.
shit.
i said i wont be complaining animore.
i shall stop complaining.
i shall carry out my plot soon.
i hope it will be successful.
or else, i would have to suffer for dunno how mani more yrs.

super sian wk.

2009-06-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

updates on last last sun first.
last sun had MC meeting.
and d venue was at zhenyu's hse.
first time going his hse.
and i was d last one to reach.
i think everyone was waiting for mi to start d meeting.
supposed to meet at 2.
but i reached at around 3.
but d rest were late also la.
i think they reached his hse around 2.45?

so we started our meeting at 3plus.
it was kinda long.
and d time seem to pass quite fast.
cos there's like alot of things to discuss.
d meeting ended around 4plus 5 ba.
den started to eat snacks.
cos hasan & james came & they bought donuts for us.
but too bad, i dont eat donut.
and zhenyu has chips for us.
and unique way of eating.
he added salsa sauce & cheddar cheese.
quite not bad la.
but i still prefer d original one. haha.

and there wasnt alot of ppl who came.
mi & huiying were d onli girls.
guys include zhenyu, heng, kenny, derrick, huiyang & wil.
and after d meeting, it's wii time!
started playing guitar hero first.
and zhenyu has 2 guitars.
cool~
i didnt reali play much of guitar hero.
cos d rest all seem to be quite pro.
hahhaah.
huiying, derrick & wil left earlier.

so i just took some photos here & there.
talk crap to hasan.
after tad, they changed d game to rabbid game.
4 ppl can play.
so mi, hasan, james & zhenyu played.
i was quite lost cos i nv play before.
and i just followed d instructions they tell mi lor.
and it turned out to be super fun!
cos 4 of us have to compete with one another.
and there's alot of different games to choose from.
super fun la.

some games were realli exciting lor.
den i rmb i kept shouting.
played until super high lor.
esp. got 1 game - d racing game.
somehow d racing game not easy sia.
it moves kinda slow.
1st round i was d last lor.
den everyone started to bet on mi.
but 2nd round, i got pro and i won.
and d 3rd round i also won.
hahahhaa.
super happy.

den in between will have some ads break one.
den have to do some action.
den see who's d fastest.
and i won one of it.
hahhaa.
and overall, i'm d third.
not tad bad la.
considering i first time playing.
zhenyu is d 1st lor follow by james.
hasan last.
hahahhaa.

oh ya. another game is d ball bouncing one.
super tiring cos have to keep shaking.
and d distance covered is quite long also.
but it's kinda fun knocking into one another.
hahaha.
after tad, we made our ways.
and d guys have to take my car.
cos kenny, heng & huiyang going cck.
and james going home.
and has to drive hasan to d mrt cos mrt not veri near zhenyu's hse.
so 4 guys have to squeeze at d back.
but onli for a short distance.
and smth just had to happen.

at some road, i drove out alr.
den james kinda shouted tad there's car.
he didn't saw d car signalling i think.
cos there 2 cars.
1 car behind d other.
and i noe they both were going to turn in cos they signalled alr.
tad's y i drove off.
but james didnt see it.
den he shouted.
den i got a bit shocked la.
and my car drove up d kerb a little.
first time sia.

den drove hasan to d mrt there & stopped d car for a while to check also.
luckily, nth happen.
my car is still okay.
hahha.
den drove d rest to cck.
and i went home.
enjoyed playing wii rabbids game.
shld play more next time.
hahhaa.

and on last sat, mc had to meet up to shoot a video.
kinda last min.
supposed to meet 1 in sch.
but i overslept a little.
and i was late for abt an hr.
i tot i was damn late so i super rush lor.
in d end, when i reached there, there was onli zhenyu, kenny, hui ying and eehuang.
alot of ppl still haven reach.
not alot of ppl came also.
derrick, heng wee, wil and weishan came.
d rest didnt come.
so we just hang around to wait for d rest.
and we shoot d last scene first cos eehuang has to leave.
think we started shooting nearly 3 lor.

so we shoot last scene, den went sci.
den went src.
luckily got zhenyu's car to drive us around.
and can u imagine a car seated with 8 ppl?
hahhaa.
super pro la.
luckily, it's just short distance.
den went src.
but d car was parked illegally.
so i volunteered to stay and look after d car.
and kenny accompanied me.
so both of us sat in d car enjoying d aircon cos d weather was super hot.

den we went central forum.
super funni lor.
cos we had alot of kinda stupid ideas.
so it was super funni.
esp. d lift part.
we were supposed to take d lift down and join zhenyu.
but when we took d lift up, there was alr a man waiting to take d lift.
an old man who looked kinda stern.
even without d old man, maybe we'll still find someone to take d lift down?
but it's just wad we wanted.
so it's super funni la.
but too bad it wasnt captured by d camera.
cos kenny stopped videoing when he saw it's not us.

den we made our way to the deck.
on d way, we stopped and started drinking water.
luckily d guys have quite alot of coins.
hahaha.
after d scene at d deck, i went off.
cos have to go vivo to meet my cousins for dinner.
kor kor, cassie, cheryl and their other half.
so it's 3 couples and me.
hahhaa.
i reached vivo wearing bizcom tee.
cos i didnt have d time to change.
after i met them den i went to change.

and we went sushi tei to eat.
ordered alot of food leh.
and cheryl ate alot of sushi.
she ate more than 10 plates of sushi and everything was prawn.
she's a prawn lover like me.
hahha. but i at least did eat other stuff other than prawn.
super funni lor.
had alot of jokes here and there la.
expected.
and d total bill adds up to $200plus.
and kor kor treated everyone.
hahahha.
it was supposed to be treat for mi, cassie and cheryl onli.

den wanted to watch movie, so went to check out d timings.
but all movies were kinda late.
and cheryl didnt wan to watch.
so we dropped d idea.
and we went town to shop.
but i dunno d way to town from vivo.
so i had to follow their cars.
there were 3 cars.
my car. kor drove his dad's car and sayleong drove his dad's car also.
so we met up at d meetin point and went off to town.
cheryl and yuqi took my car.
cos they have to help mi keep a lookout.
hahaha.

and of cos we did reach town safely.
but sayleong is totally fast and reckless driver.
hahha. he drove super fast la.
and he can disappear out of sight veri fast.
and d way he cut lane is totally dangerous lor.
super fast and not d safe way.
follow his car is a veri taxing thing.
cos he drove veri fast.
den he can suddenly change lane.
den i have to react very fast to keep up his pace.

so shopped around at town.
but we seemed more like just walking around.
from taka walked to wisma.
look at tis and tad.
and all of us didnt buy anything.
more like window shopping.
after tad, we decided to sit down and chat instead.
so we went to starbucks.
and tis time, we treated kor & his gf to their drinks and a slice of cake.
so just sit around and chit chat.
we talked abt all kinds of stuff.
random stuff, lame stuff, family stuff, army stuff, anything la.

and we left around 11.
they made their ways home while i made my way to teddy's hse at yew tee.
initially, it was supposed to be class bbq.
but some ppl last min didn't go.
cos it started to rain veri heavily at their area.
but there was no rain at town area.
so bbq was cancelled.
and they went to teddy's hse and he cooked for them to eat.
hahhaa.
so sad lor.
and less than 10 ppl went.

i reached there nearly 12.
and they said teddy wanna slp alr.
so we have to go another place to talk cock.
nearest place of cos would be yewtee point.
went yew tee mac.
there was 7 of us.
mi, meishi, jason, chris, des, sl & weimeng.
den we started playing truth or dare.
but it's more like truth.
cos nobody chose dare.
and somemore tad day, d pen will always turn to either des, jason or meishi.
sometimes we ask until dunno wad to ask.
and we realli did noe some of their inner secrets.
hahahha.

mac tad nite had some renovation so it was closed earlier.
so we went to d foodcourt instead.
and smth happened there.
dunno a fight or wad.
cos there was a broken glass bottle on d floor.
and we saw 3 policemen who came.
aniway, we continue our talk cock session until 2plus.
den we made our way home.
i sent jason and chris home when actually there's no need.
cos they live in yew tee area.
hahaha.

and i had to look for parking lots.
i was quite heng i guess.
cos there was 2 empty lots.
so i just parked at one of it.
reached home 2 plus still got space to park.
not bad leh.
cos it's sat nite i guess.
den my mum super funni lor.
when i woke up, she asked mi i so late reached home still got parking space ah.
cos she knew i veri late den reach hm.
and she didnt saw any note.
cos previously, i would leave a note for her to help mi park my car.
cos if there's no parking lots, i would park illegally.

so tis morning she was expecting to see a note.
but she didnt.
tad's y she asked mi.
there was 2 somemore lor.
and i think on sat, i realli used up alot of my energy.
cos i was super tired on sun.
slept for 10hrs i think.
went out for more than 12hrs.
and d nite before, i slept for less than 8hrs.
tad's y so tired ba.
luckily got car lor.
if not will be even more tired ba.

and somehow, my schedule for next wk kinda packed.
mon going shopping with cassie.
after planning for so long cos our timings just seem to clash.
den tues going out with karma gang.
either wed or thurs may be going out with someone.
den i think thurs maybe got nustyle dinner?
fri got video filming again.
sat got 2/8 bbq.
sun got singing session with 4/5.
super packed wk.

irritated & emo post.

2009-06-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

a super bad news.
super super super super bad news.
my 3 wks of happiness is gone!
sian sian sian.
previously, my sis went overseas for 3 wks.
and so her bf didn't come to my hse for 3 wks.
for d past 4 to 5 yrs, these 3 wks r my happiest stay-at-home days.
i nv stay at home everyday.
but if i were to stay at home, i will feel kinda happy.
i feel like it's a family of 4 only.
i feel so much happier.
i just hate tad there's a stranger in my hse.
i realli realli hate tad feeling.

so now she's back again.
and so he's back again. wtf.
and it's d wkends again.
and so he's staying over again. wtf.
everything is just bad to normal again.
wtf. i dunno how long i can tolerate tis.
i might have to start an objection team soon.
cos i hate his presence.
i hate him spending our money.
when they were gone, i believe we've saved much electricity.
cos when they're around, they would switch on their laptop d whole day.
even when they're not using it.
turning on laptop means turning on d internet.
so means alot of electricity is being wasted.

not tad i'm being selfish or wad.
i just dont understand why they muz turn on d whole day.
from morning till d nite.
wtf. it's alot of money can.
eat, slp everything at my hse.
electricity, water, food everything just use our money.
not a single time i saw my sis staying over at his hse.
NOT A SINGLE DAY.
i wonder y.
it's just unfair.
unfair to me & my family.
presence of a stranger in your hse EVERY SINGLE DAY.
how would u feel?
and when it's wkends, d stranger would STAY OVER.
how would u feel tad?

i just hate it!!!
hate everything.
past 3 wks, my hse is so peaceful & quiet.
full of laughter and my happiness.
no grumblings or complaints.
and now, i have to start complaining again.
he just stinks d whole place.
i duno y.
he has tis stench on him.
everytime i walked passed d room, there'll bound to be tis stench.
kinda strong.
and it pollutes d whole room.
i'm not being biased.
it's d TRUTH.
u can come & smell it. hahhaa.

aniway, i dont wanna spend my time & effort complaining all tis stuff animore.
i've complained alot.
and i've been complaining abt d same stuff over & over again.
so i shall stop complaining.
and if i were to mention things abt him again, u all shld noe wad i'm talking abt.
or if there's new things tad happen, i'll update again.
if not i wont want to mention abt it animore.
cos it's just not worth it.
not worth my blog space.
not worth my time.
not worth my effort.
not worth everything of me to complain abt him.
it's just worthless.

let's talk abt some happy stuff for now.
on thurs, i've finally met up with my dear jannah.
cos we've been planning to go out since after my exams.
and after so long of planning, we've finally met up.
cos both of us were busy with out stuff.
so didnt realli had d time to meet up.
but it's just a short dinner at bpp swensen after her sch tad day.

so we met up at around 4.
den went to get some stuff before going to swensen.
we shared 2 sides, fries & chicken.
and we each ordered a sundae.
our favourite sticky chewy chocolate.
both of us just love tad.
hahaha.
i dont usually like ice cream.
but i just love tad.
and we took lots of photo at swensens.
cam whore.

after dinner, we went to walk around at bpp.
trying to see wad stuff we can get.
but we didn't realli see ani stuff.
expected la.
bpp is kinda small and there's not much stuff to shop around also.
den we went to giordano.
for fun la.
and we saw tis tee tad writes "u give mi fever".
hahha.
so we went to try d tee.
but in d end, we also nv buy.
cos giordano tee is kinda common.

went toilet.
took some photos in it too.
somehow, both of us like to take mirror reflection photos.
so we took a few mirror reflection photos.
and we headed back home.
it's realli great meeting up with my dear jannah.
cos we talked abt alot of stuff.
from personal stuff to frenz and other random stuff.
all kinds of stuff.
and we definitely can share secrets with one another.
so i wont be afraid to tell her anything.
and indeed, i told her tis veri big secret of mine which nobody noes abt it.
and if time allows, we shall meet up again soon.
loves. =D

some random stuff......
conversation with jannah bound to include love life.
and i realised everyone around me is starting to get attached one by one?
even if not attached, there may be some potential ones?
tad one i dunno la.
but i got heard tad tis got attached, tad got attached.
well, everyone is around d age of 20.
suitable age of dating.
be it those tad were alr attached or those tad got attached not long ago,
all relationships seem to be kinda stable.
tis one i not veri sure. just my random guess.
i think slowly one by one will get realli stable.
and one by one will get attached soon.

and i guess some of my frenz/cousins are interested in my love life.
like they'll be asking mi when i'll get a bf.
and my ans would be i've nv found 1 yet.
hahhaa.
it's not i'm anxious to get 1 or smth.
is they're anxious to see who my future bf will be.
well, to me, it doesn't realli matter yet.
i do enjoy my singlehood.
but maybe not as much as before.
cos everyone is getting attached?
more or less, i'll be influenced in some ways?
aniway, tis is not d main point.
hahhaa.

ya. so mi and jannah were talking abt love.
and i was just telling her tad i veri long nv like someone alr.
and well, she does agree.
it's been a long time since i last like someone.
maybe around 3 yrs alr?
like doesnt include puppy love, infactuations, crush or wadever la.
tad's like veri long.
hahaha.
ya. so we were talking abt stuff like tad.
i'm not yearning for a bf or smth.
i'm fine with my singlehood.
i'm just waiting for d right one to appear.
i'm just letting fate to decide my life.
i'm a fatalist.

ya. so dont ask mi when i'm getting a bf.
hahahah.
cos it's all up to fate to decide.
when d time is ripe, d right one will appear.
i hope so la. hahhaa.
till den, i shall enjoy my singlehood & spend my time & effort on my studies instead.
it'll be better i guess.
talking abt tis suddenly rmb d bet i had with sarah.
more ppl voted for mi. voted for i'll get a bf first.
and so i owed sarah a dessert treat.
and i kept forgetting to treat her.
and if i realli get a bf first, i'll have to treat her to a meal.
hahah. such stupid bets.
so can tell how boring sch is rite.

so my love life is still a blank piece of paper.
and tis piece of paper has been thrown to 1 side; neglected.
and for my life in general.
i'm still slacking my life away.
either staying at home watching tv or doing wadever stuff.
if not i would go out with frenz & spending lots of money.
i'm enjoying my slacking & playing life.
how i wish tis kind of life will nv end.
i will not look forward to sch reopening.
for now, i shall enjoy my life for another 1 mth plus time.
i'm loving my life. =D

cca stuff tis wk.

2009-06-07T23:52:00.003+08:00

thurs was karma gang outing!
and i decided to drive.
so i drove to emily's hse to pick her up den we went marina square tgt.
when reaching marina square, we will pass by 1 ERP.
i had alr inserted my cashcard into my IU.
but i dunno wad happen.
it cannot detect & so no money was deducted from my cashcard!
die le lor. later kena fine how.
so unlucky!

den went marina square to meet d rest.
and we went k box to sing.
step couldn't join us at all.
ruth onli joining us for dinner.
and dione had to leave before dinner.
so went inside k box den we start picking our songs to sing.
sang all kinds of songs.
high songs. sad songs.
english songs. chinese songs.
and there's student special.
each person has a drink, a side & tidbits.
not bad leh. $14.50 nett.

so we sang, ate, drank.
took photos.
chit chat. laughed loudly.
talk abt alot of jokes.
got high & jump on d sofa.
trying to act high.
imitate d way gaia sings.
all kinds of stupid acts.
hahhaa.

sang from 2 to 6.
after tad, we went to toilet.
and i saw seok han in d toilet!
super shocked to see her there.
hahaha.
ruth also came & joined us.
we shopped at marina square for a while.
and we saw harris & daphne.
such a small world.
took a neh-neh grp photo.
went m)phosis too.

den we went timbre.
so all 6 of us had to squeeze into my small car.
hahhaa.
almost turned into d wrong way.
but we didnt.
but in d end, we still went d wrong way.
cos there's an intersection on d road.
and we chose d wrong one.
so we took quite a while to decide where to go from there.
and we went 1 big round.
and it's to avoid d ERP also.

and we did found our way.
luckily, i saw tis sign to timbre.
almost missed it.
no cars were behind.
so i reverse a bit & turn into it.
i kinda broke a few traffic rules.
first time i felt tad i'm a road hazard.
cos we weren't sure of d way.
still manage to reach there.

ordered half half pizza, seafood platter, buffalo wings & frozen lime margarita.
everything was not bad except for d seafood platter.
i dont find tad nice.
d rest were quite alright.
nice dinner & a chillout place.
except for some minor stuff.
there was an insect on my bag.
d tissues were wet.
waitress poured too much in d first cup tad it overspilled a little & kena my legs.
gaia they all asked for ice water & they took veri long to serve to us.
but other than tad, everything else was fine.
i do like d food.
and d atmosphere there.

d band came quite late.
around 10plus.
so we couldn't enjoy it for long.
but it was not bad.
music & lead singer was nice.
took some photos.
and we left nearly 11pm.
a veri fun day.
realli enjoyed myself alot.
tis time we nv realli talk abt gossips.
hahhaa.

after i played d whole day, of cos i got tired.
and i went to bed earlier. around 4.
but surprisingly, i woke up at 4.
i got a shock.
i slept for like 12hrs la.
den i had to rush.
bathing, eating & stuff.
cos i had to reach my dad's office before 6.
i'm bringing my car over to let his worker wash.
hahhaha.
my car is super dirty cos of d carpark renovation recently.
lots of dust & dirt.

supposed to reach sch at 6.
but in d end, i reached at 630.
xina reached on d same time too.
so went to meet d rest.
ended up just sitting down & slacking away.
hahaha.
around 7, proceed to another place for d standing comm meeting.
there's buffet prepared for us.
so it's dinner time first den meeting.
but i was veri full.
cos i woke up at 4 and i ate at around 5pm?
so i couldnt eat at all.

dinner lasted for abt an hr.
i sat down & drank.
den watched d others eat.
hahaha.
alot of jokes la.
super funni.
meeting as usual was boring.
mi & xina ended up talking secretly.
hahaha.

and our chairperson made all of us went to d front.
so he can intro his new MC to d rest of d standing comm.
so embarrassing leh.
cos i'm veri shy. HAHA.
after d meeting was over, we hang around.
talking crap.
took a big grp photo too.
and we decided to go for supper.
and there was 2 cars.
for 13 ppl.
one of d cars was mine.
but luckily d other one was bigger.

so we went holland V.
wanted to go to swensens.
but they didnt had seats for us.
so we went to essential brew instead.
1 bad thing is we had to take off our shoes.
and poor kenny was wearing his army uniform.
so he had to take off his boots.
hahahha.
most of us just ordered a drink.
hasan ordered a brownie.
and it's quite nice!

so we just hang around until 12plus.
me being nice decided to send hasan home.
and since i'm sending him home, i also sent wilson home.
den left mi, xina & james on my car.
and we kinda started gossiping.
gossip abt tis person.
but it's all confidential.
hahha.
and in less than 24hrs, all of us would see one another again.
cos there's uc dry run at sentosa.

i slept at 3plus.
but i dunno y, i couldnt fall asleep.
i think i most probably fell asleep around 4++ 5?
and i had to wake up at 9plus.
cos my og wanna meet earlier to settle some og stuff.
so i slept for less than 5 hrs.
super tired.
but no choice.
still had to pack clothes, toiletries & stuff.
even more tiring.

1 gd thing is my dad drove mi there.
save mi alot of time & effort.
hahaha.
supposed to meet at 10.
but i reached there nearly 12.
and my og onli had 7 ppl tad day.
so went to some coffee shop to meet d rest.
waited for weiyang to come.
and waited for them to eat their lunch.
den we made our way to sentosa.
i was super tired.

when we reached sentosa, it was super hot.
d sun is glaring.
sian. i hate d sun.
so started to apply my sunblock lotion.
and we slowly walk to d pavilion.
and our og was d last to arrive. hhahha.
VIP leh.
our og also like super lost.
dunno wad to do & stuff.
den we took veri long to decide our name & settle d money payment.
every now & then, there'll be a couple of ppl missing from my og.

mi and wilson went to be d station master.
i did tad cos i didnt wan to play games.
but station master is super sian.
stand there & do nth.
everyone looks abit sian also.
hahhaa.
and there's tis time they were calling for all ogl.
and our 2 ogl were missing.
they went strolling.
so mi weiyang had to walk veri far to ask them to come back.
such a lost & disperse og.
hahaha.

so we jus slack around & waited for d games to start.
and after tad, d whole afternoon is spent on standing & watching.
standing & waiting for og to come.
watching ppl playing our game.
listening to feedbacks and stuff.
super sian.
nth much to do.
around 5plus, mi, xina & yuling went off to bathe.
and there's alot of ppl in d toilet la.
we queued for nearly an hr.
and tis is d first time i bathe so fast la.

d guys waited for us for veri long i guess.
by d time we went out, d rest were alr dispersed.
hahhaa.
so my og just made our way back to vivo to have dinner tgt.
d whole day i didn't take any photos also.
cos i dont wanna dirty my cam.
cos there's sunblock lotion over my whole body.
manage to take og photo.
hahha. and i didn't get darker.

back at vivo, we all decided to eat at d kopitiam.
quite crowded.
but still manage to find seats.
i was super thirsty.
so quickly went off to buy a drink first before buying my food.
while eating, i saw alot of frenz.
all from uc one.
frenz from raptors & booza.
after dinner, guoan suggested watching terminator salvation.
so we went to d look at d movie timings.

weiyang alr watched.
and yu ling is not interested.
so onli left mi, wil, jason & guoan.
didn't realli wanna watch.
but in d end, i still watched with them.
time passed kinda fast.
we didn't realli wait veri long for d movie to start.
while waiting, we also accompanied yu ling to go buy her stuff at topshop.

and before i knew it, it's alr almost time to watch d movie.
so went to buy drinks.
and it's movie time.
i fell asleep a little at d beginning.
i guess i was too tired.
d movie is at 930 and it ended around 1140.
long movie.
after movie, guoan & jason realli chiong lor.
mi and wil walked veri fast.
but d 2 of them ran.
so we lost them veri fast.

wanted to take bus.
but it was too late alr.
so i had no choice but to take mrt.
i took d last train from harbour front mrt.
and i had to change 2 times.
so i was kinda scared there wont be any trains.
but luckily, i still manage to catch all d trains.
so i didn't have to spend money on taking cab.
i reached home nearly 1 i guess.
super tired.
cos it's a long & tiring day.

for d movie, i find it okay.
it's not my genre.
i wouldnt wan to watch tad kind of movies.
initially, it's a little boring i guess.
tad's y i fell asleep.
but after tad, it's kinda nice.
all d fightings & stuff.
but abit scary also.
hahaha. cos d machines & fighting & stuff.
i would think it's not bad la.

going out for 3 consecutive days is super tiring.
esp. when 2 out of 3 are 1 whole day.
super tired.
and now, i'm watching boys before flowers.
so i'll be busy at nite again.
previously is bai quan nu wang.
now is boys before flowers.
super nice drama.

i bought another top from online shopping.
but tis time i got cassie to help mi buy.
cos i'm kinda busy.
so shall wait for my top to come!
hahaha.
and another bad thing.
kor kor's bdae is coming.
so we're all going to celebrate by going for dinner tgt.
and all of them going to bring their other half.
cassie, kor kor & cheryl.
and cassie told mi to bring my partner also.
how am i supposed to bring a partner along when there isn't even one?
den i was telling cassie to ask cindy go also.
another of my cousin, younger sister of cheryl.

shall see how things go then.
it's not veri impt also.
hahahaha.
getting super tired now.
oh. and i'm kinda sick of restaurant city alr.
so i may stop playing tad.
wad is going to happen tis wk?
i shall seee.......

bizcom 2nd outing

2009-06-03T01:05:00.003+08:00

on sun, i met up with jocelyn to collect d earrings i ordered from her.
super cute blue lollipop.
den i made my way to bukit timah plaza.
i drove there.
reached around 430.
was late for 30mins and i was d 4th person to arrive.
so mani others were later than me.
huiying, wil and kw were d first 3 ppl to reach.

so we played pool while waiting for d rest.
super long nv play pool alr.
all my skills are kinda rusty by now.
we played pool until 6++ before we went for dinner.
and all of us think tad james is d best player among us.
hahhaa.
we went to beauty world for dinner.
cos james said there's tis veri nice peranakan restaurant.
and indeed, it's veri nice.
but d serving portion was quite small.
so d guys had to go for 2nd round.
hahhaa.

zhenyu is like super funni la.
he sang d nyonya song.
and he said smth veri true of singaporeans.
gathering in a circle and deciding where to go next.
hahahhaa.
d way he says it is super funni.
and indeed, tad's wad we did after dinner.

in d end, we decided to chill at rail way mall.
venue would be blooie's restaurant.
and i drank frozen mango margarita.
and abit of beer from d guys.
after tis chill out i guess we do noe one another better.
cos we talked abt alot of stuff abt ourselves.
love, friends, family, alot of stuff abt our lives.
a nice chill out.
& we left around 11plus.

tues went to a short shopping with my mum.
went bpp onli.
she wanted to look at some clothes.
so i just tag along lor.
gave her some comments.
and i bought tis jacket?
not realli a jacket la.
i dunno wad to name it.
my mum bought alot la.
3 tops, a bottom & a belt.
and she spent around $200.
my jacket is onli abt $50.

after tad, i went to get my stuff.
and to get some cheap chips cos it's on sale.
i wonder how my mum noes.
not a veri gd day.
cos i got MC.
initially, it was fine.
after tad, it got worse.
and there's tis lucky draw.
so i'm supposed to pick a no. from a list.
i totally no luck lor.
cos i pick tis no. and it's a mystery gift.
and tad mystery gift is an umbrella. -.-

wad lousy gift.
shld have asked my mum to pick d no. instead.
think she'll definitely have more luck than mi lor.
get tad $5 shopping voucher also better than an umbrella.
we spent $200 on clothes.
another $20 on some other stuff.
and wad we've gotten is just an umbrella.
totally no use la.
my hse got so mani umbrella alr.
sian sian sian.

and after tad i went home, i immediately went to d sofa.
cos i cannot stand it animore.
my MC is getting worse and worse and worse.
super super pain la.
i seldom kena mc.
and once i kena mc, it will be those super pain tad kind.
super sian.
and y muz kena it on tad day.
so i was in pain for abt 1hr+.

i was lying on d sofa.
hoping it would get better.
but it didn't.
and eventually, i fell asleep.
and when i woke up, d pain was gone.
it's just a veri short nap.
luckily, d pain was a veri short one.
if not i will suffer like hell la.

d past wk, i was busy esp. at nite.
busy playing restaurant city.
and busy watching tis taiwan idol drama.
it's called bai quan nu wang.
veri nice drama.
i love it.
so i watched it almost everyday.
and i finished d whole series yesterday nite.
super nice.
next show would be korean meteor garden?
another super nice show.
and d actors inside are not bad looking. hahaha.

oh ya. talking abt luck.
though recently i nv realli had any karma, i dont have any gd luck either.
so it's kinda neutral.
guess it'll be a gd news to me la.
at least no bad stuff happen to me.
no bad luck.
no gd luck either.
neutral.
no ups & downs.
it's a gd thing.
but i realli wonder where has all my gd luck gone to?

y cant i have gd luck?
y cant i enjoy being in luck?
wad's with all d karma tad has occurred on me previously?
my life is neutral now.
so does it mean tad next up my life would have gd luck?
karma: wad goes around comes around.
i dont like karma.
i hate bad luck.
i'm alr trying to change.
to hope for more gd luck.
where has all my luck gone to?
i miss my gd luck.

consecutive outings.

2009-05-28T23:00:00.002+08:00

on tues.
went out with 2/8 ppl to celebrate vien's bdae.
mi, joyce, brandon, norvin & vien were supposed to meet 12 at cck.
but vien was super late.
we ended up waiting for her for abt 50mins.
wanted to take bus.
tad brandon tot we're inside mrt alr.
so he went in.
den tad norvin asked us to go in also.
so we went in.
but we shld haven taken bus lor.

while waiting for vien, norvin played psp.
brandon read a book.
wth. and vien came after 4 trains have passed by.
so we boarded d 5th train.
kinda unlucky cos when we reached orchard, it was raining veri heavily.
and we had to get to paragon.
so we 3 girls walked to wisma den taka den lucky plaza.
norvin and brandon just disappeared half way.
cos they walked in d rain to paragon.
when we reached lucky plaza, we wanted to buy umbrella.
but we changed our minds cos d rain got a little smaller.
so we took d chance to walk briskly to paragon.
we survived. hahha

ben, hadley, justin were alr there.
jeen and his gf were d latest.
ordered food, took photos, chit chat.
as usual.
after d end of our lunch, we had a cake for vien.
super nice cake.
love it but quite sweet.
we ate at bakerzin.
and they gave us 2 plates of complimentary maracons?
if i nv rmb wrongly, tad is called maracons.
not veri sure either.
but it's nice. haha.

after tad, we went off and we ended up in a circle discussin where to go next.
hahha. as usual.
ben & hadley went off to do some stuff first before joining us back at nite.
den we stood there for a while.
and i suggested going toilet.
good suggestion.
so we went to d toilet.
we 3 girls ended up taking photos in d toilet.
so we took veri long.
hahhaha.

after tad jeen & his gf went off to do some stuff before joining us back at nite.
d rest of us went far east cos joyce wanna get smth.
on our way there, i saw fang liang.
a sec sch fren.
and he still rmb mi.
so i chit chat with him for a while.
den walked to far east.
shopped for a while onli.
den we decided to find a place to sit down.
went to grafiti cafe.
sat down and chat.
ben joined us shortly after we sat down.

did alot of stupid stuff.
everyone was like a bit sian.
joyce and vien left around 5 to go for their class chalet.
so left mi and d guys.
started to make plans for nite activity.
we walked to cine cos justin wanted to buy shuffle.
while walking there, i saw stephenie!
hahhaha. super shocked to see her there.
chat with her for a while onli.
and d guys had to stand there waiting for mi.
tad was why they were being approached by a woman asking for donation.
and so each of us donated 2 dollars.
and she said 'god bless u' to us.

when we're at d shop, d guys were like so engrossed in watching d trailers lor.
took quite some time before we left and head towards bugis.
and we walked to bugis.
so it's like we walked from far east to bugis!
super far la.
and quite hot though it's evening time alr.
walked until i cannot tahan so i took out my fan. HAHA.
such a long walk.
such a gd exercise ah.

super happy when we finally reached bugis.
cos there's aircon!
hadley, jeen & his gf were alr there waiting for us.
ben & hadley went off to buy some stuff.
while d rest of us went to shop for nicholas' present.
so i just tagged along lor.
and give some suggestions.
bought him a top in d end.

and den it's dinner time.
finally can sit down & rest.
we went to a shop near bugis.
it sells wanton noodles and it's quite famous.
quite a no. of media artistes went there before cos there were photos hanging on d wall.
so we all ate wanton noodles.
not bad leh.
and i drank their plum juice.
it's also quite nice.
quite a thirst quenching drink.

den went to some dessert shop which is quite nice also.
but i didn't eat.
cos i'm not veri into chinese dessert.
and i realised smth.
norvin and melissa(jeen's gf) kept eating d same thing.
from lunch to dinner to dessert.
everything is d same!
hahaha. but everyone was eating d same for dinner.
but still, it's quite a coincidental i think.
finally, home sweet home.
reached home around 10+
and i'm super tired.
cos i've been out for more than 10 hrs i guess.
super tired.

on wed, i decided to drive out at veri last min.
so i went vien's hse to fetch her and her bf.
cos her bf also wanna go town.
and there was jam at d expressway.
super sian.
so we went town.
cos we wanna buy joyce's present.
bought her a perfume from d place fang liang was working at.
and he gave us 2 more free gifts.
super nice. hahha

den went tangs to buy some snacks first.
afterwhich, we made our way to clarke quay.
exciting journey cos i dunno my way there.
onli roughly roughly according to wad i saw from online map.
so quite risky.
i drove wrongly den die le lor.
luckily, we manage to find our way there.
with d help of roadsigns & a mini map.
hahhaa.
but i still tio 2 ERP.
sian.

and i parked at liang court.
but i have to make my way all d way to timbre at boat quay.
it's a long walk.
but nvm.
take d chance as a stroll to admire d nice nite scenary.
HAHAHA.
took quite some time to reach there.
almost wanted to take out my fan.
but i didn't.
cos i wore quite a nice dress tad day.
hahahha.

ordered a pizza to share.
and some drinks.
i drank frozen mango margarita.
vien drank frozen strawberry margarita.
d difference is mine is a cocktail and hers was a mocktail.
joyce drank strawberry cosmopolitan.
our drinks were all quite nice.
initially, we were sitting inside cos it was full hse outside.
around 9 plus, there were seats.
so we shifted outside.
and we were listening to some thai talkshows?
wth. totally cannot understand cos it's all in thai.
but there were quite a no. of supporters. all thai ppl i think.

we took lots of photos.
d pizza were nice.
d drinks were nice.
d salad also not bad.
had a great nite.
and we were waiting for d band to sing at 10pm.
but it was delayed.
and d band was not bad.
d female lead singer can sing quite well.

joyce left around 10+.
but mi and vien didn't.
we decided to stay a little longer.
so we decided to dedicate some songs.
to nobody. HAHA.
we requested for 3 songs.
and she sang none of them.
super sian.
there were other nice songs though.
so sat down and listened to d nice songs.

a pity was d tapas.
initially wanted to order tapas but d person said dont have tapas.
when d order was closing, d waiter went around asking.
but we all didn't catch wad he was saying.
so we just rejected.
but we kept smelling d nice food aroma from nearby tables.
esp. d chicken wings.
it smelled super nice.
so we went to ask again.
and d order was close alr.
super sad.

left around 1130.
and we had to slowly made our way back to liang court again.
hahha.
on our way back, we took quite a no. of photos also.
first time i took so mani photos with vien.
and she actually dont mind taking so many photos.
hahhaha.
reached liang court and went to mac to buy fries.
and there was tis angmoh who approached her.
hahhaa. super funni.
but d guy dont look sober.

so we bought out fries and we went off.
drove vien home all d way to her hse void deck.
den i went home.
it was alr around 1am i guess.
i tot there wont be any parking lot.
but i was quite lucky.
there was tis empty lot.
not veri far away.
hahha. quite heng.
went home & uploaded photos onto fb.

on thurs. i met up with seok han.
finally. super long nv go out with her alr la.
i was a little late. hahhaa.
so we went to have our lunch first.
went pepper lunch.
more budget. hahha.
as usual, chit chat abt recent updates.
on ourselves and our common frenz.
after lunch, it's shopping time!
went far east first.
i was looking for quite a no. of stuff.
i had a list of wad i wanna buy with me.
oh ya. i saw ansley. first at d orchard mrt.
next when i was shopping in far east.

oh ya. and i saw benjamin, my nus fren.
but he walked off quite fast.
so i didn't manage to call out to him.
and i saw another nus fren in wisma.
so we were shopping around far east.
looked around but didnt manage to buy anything.
tried a few clothes though.
i bought jagabee. HAHA.

next stop, we went wisma.
and i bought a dress.
there were alot of sales going on.
GSS! hahaha.
so i bought tis dress cos it's quite cheap.
kinda tired alr. so we decided to rest.
high tea? HAHA.
but we went toilet to take lots of photos first.
hahhaa.
den we went to toast box for our high tea.

after we replenished our energy, we continue shopping again.
continue our search for d stuff i wan.
but we didnt just shopping.
we also got continue chatting abt our stuff.
or some random stuff.
hahhaa.
after wisma, we went taka.
den i started telling her my china's story.
cos she nv listen before.
hahahha. super funni story.

after a long search, we finally found wad i wanted.
super happy.
hahhaa. not a wasted effort afterall.
shopped around hoping to find some other stuff tad i wanted.
but there wasn't much stuff.
oh ya. and i saw tis notice at m)phosis.
cos i went there den suddenly it closed.
and i saw tis notice.
from tml onwards, there's a sale for a wk.
so they need to close at 7pm to prepare.
50%-70% sale.
maybe i shld go someday next wk.
see if i can get any cheap yet nice stuff.

den we went to watsons.
stayed there for quite long.
cos had to get some necessities.
bought cleansing foam and sunblock.
i took quite long to decide which sunblock shld i get.
cos there were many choices.
in d end, i decided to try out nivea's sunblock.
whitening sunblock lotion.
hahhaa.

though i dont seem to buy alot of stuff, i've spent more than $60 today.
wanted to save money.
in d end, i still spent alot.
no money alr!
savings depleting veri fast.
i need more money!!!
after tad, we went home.
time seems to fly very fast.
it was alr 8+ when we left orchard.
by d time i reached home, i'm like super tired.
esp. my legs.
cos i wore heels.
and i shopped for like d whole day.
so super tiring for mi & my legs.

i've been going out for 3 consecutive days.
it can realli be super tiring.
so tml will be my rest day at home.
shall rest & have a good slp tonite.
but may be eating dinner with cousins.
but will go to somewhere veri near our hse.
so it's still okay.
i'm starting to feel quite tired alr.
shall go watch taiwan idol drama now.
i'm at the 9th episode.
looking forward to d korean meteor garden on sat.
cos it's realli quite nice.

i'm like super busy la.
busy with all d outings.
hahaha. i realli shld curb my spendings.
i've been spending way too much.
have to start going on budget alr.
somemore GSS is here alr.
no money to buy clothes how.
i realli need lots of money.
yet i dont wan to work.
or is there any project basis job?
those tad work for a few days onli.
i would gladly take up tad kind of jobs.
lobang pls!

next wk will be another busy wk i guess.
busy with cca stuff and outings.
but mostly will be cca stuff.
bless me.
i shall survive through.
survive through all hurdles/obstacles.
survive through d dry-run at sentosa without getting darker.
tad's y i need to buy sunblock.
lots of sunblock i shall & must have.
need to get some skincare products cos my current one is finishing soon.
y finishing soon at tis kind of period where i'm like super broke.
i need sponsors! HAHHAA.

too mani stuff to buy with too little money.
too mani temptations.
and some unnecessary spending.
i need to control, control & CONTROL!!!
i need to save myself.
i need more luck.
i need more blessings.
i need to stop thinking too much.
i'm in need of other non-material stuff too.

updates for tis wk.

2009-05-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

i shall update things tad happened tis wk before d start of next wk.
last mon was slacking at home.
didn't went out.
was kinda addicted to restaurant city.
it's a game in fb.
so i always played until quite late.
but i've decided to stop playing tad alr.
was chatting with ling on msn.
so we decided to go for some workout.
instead of slacking at home.

on tues. i woke up earlier.
nearly 1 i guess.
prepare all my stuff.
and i drove to ling's hse to fetch her.
den we proceed to d gym at zheng hua cc.
first time i went there.
initially there were quite a no. of ppl.
and d gym was kinda small with limited no. of equipments.
somemore 2 of them were not working.
so i didn't have d chance to use any equipment.

thus, mi and ling went to carry dumb bells.
she taught me some exercise with it.
i wasn't veri gd at it.
cos i dont usually use dumb bells.
and i dont have much strength de.
hahaha.
so did a few exercises with tad.
and while i was doing, d other ppl took turns to leave.
so in d end, onli left mi and ling.
super shiok feeling.
den we turned d volume of d radio up.

after doing dumb bell exercises, i went to use the cycling equipment.
i dunno wad's tad call.
and i cycled for around 20mins.
and i cycled 6km.
my speed wasnt veri fast cos i increased the amount of resistance.
den i went to use the treadmill.
hahha. my favourite.
i wanted to run.
but ling taught mi another method.
so i carried 2 dumb bells and i walked briskly on it.
in d end, i didn't feel veri tired except for my arms.
hahhaa.

we stayed there for around an hr.
after tad, i went to ling's hse.
first time i saw haydn.
so i think he's a little afraid of me.
wanted to bring him down with us to buy some stuff.
but he cried.
so mi and ling went down onli.
went to buy some drinks and snacks for ourselves.

after tad, went back ling's hse to play with haydn.
omg. he's realli super cute la.
totally super hyperactive with lots of expression.
and he did alot of cute cute actions.
and he liked pooh too.
hahhaa. he has quite a few pooh toys.
so i started playing with his toys.
but he dont like ppl to touch his stuff.
so whenever i play with wadever toy, he'll come and take it away.
and he's super scared of ladybug.
and ling took tis toy ladybug and scared him right in front of him.
super bad la.
i was super scared he'll cry. but he didnt.

oh ya. and d food.
i ate tis waffle hotdog.
and just so happened haydn loves hotdog.
so he'll come and eat my hotdog.
but it's okay la.
kids ma.
alot of funni stuff happened la.
i totally love his expression.

tis is d first time i realli feel as if i love a kid.
firstly, he's realli super cute.
and secondly, he dont cry.
i hate kids who cry alot.
luckily, he didn't.
and he wasnt tad scared of me after a while.
so it's fun playing with him too.
but still, i hate kids.
hahhaa.
onli super cute kids can attract me.
but once they cry, tad's it.
i'll just hand it over to some person and faster avoid their cries.

went off around 4plus.
den went back home to bathe and stuff.
and i went out again.
went to lot 1 to meet joyce.
and just so happened, we both have craving for new york new york.
so we went there for our dinner.
super nice food and drinks.
but super full.
and we realli chat alot.
damn long nv tell her so much stuff alr.
it's nice meeting her.
and we may be going unity carnival tgt.

den brandon, norvin and ben came to find us.
cos i need to pass brandon some stuff.
but i left it on my car.
they came and find us.
we chat for quite a while.
cos brandon was chatting happily with nicholas on d phone for super long.
hahha.
after tad, they went to have their dinner first.
before we'll meet them again after our dinner.

i spent around $30 on my dinner.
den took d stuff from my car first.
den went to meet d guys again.
oh ya. went to flower shop too.
cos ben need to buy flowers.
after tad, we found a place to sit down and chit chat.
we chat abt alot of stuff.
all kinds of funni stuff.
from ben stuff to movies.
to religions stuff.
it was a long chat.
around 10, we had to leave cos d shop was closing.

but we stood at d entrance of lot 1 and we started chatting again.
tis time our topics were super funni la.
we talked abt animal sex.
wth.
from sex to reproduction.
d part on how chicks were laid were super funni.
and we stood there for nearly 1 hr.
and we left around 11pm.
we definitely talked alot.
esp. on religions stuff.
sensitive topic.
so better not reveal wad we've discussed.

on thurs.
met up with ling first.
we went to watch nite at d museum 2 at cine.
and i saw brandon low there.
hahha.
bought tix.
bought drinks and snacks in too.
i feel tad d movie was not bad la.
but it wasn't as funni as d first one.
so i still prefer d first one.
was supposed to meet grace at 6.
but she was super late.
so we went inside shokudo to wait for her.

took some photos while waiting.
den cannot wait animore.
so we went to order our food first.
and she came just when we were abt to order.
such a timing.
and she was late for an hr lor.
we ordered our food first but my food came d last.
and we had free drinks.
wanted to eat their dessert.
in d end, we were super full.
so we onli ate our main course.
as usual, chat abt alot of stuff with some gossips here and there.
den took photos.

after dinner, we went to d toilet.
and we totally camwhore there.
cos it's empty.
occasionally, there'll be 1-2 ppl coming in.
we took quite a no. of photos. there.
after tad, we decided to go home.
kinda tired alr.
and d bus was quite packed.
didn't had empty seats.
expected la.
so mi and ling stood all d way.
while grace took another bus.

on fri. it's d first bizcom MC outing.
met up at chinatown control station.
i was a little late.
but there were ppl later than me.
so we went to d ktv first.
some ppl came for d ktv and left after tad.
some ppl came for d dinner and left after d dinner.
some ppl joined us for d booze.
so it wasn't a complete attendance for each activity.
but overall, everyone turned up i guess except for 2 who were overseas.

so we went to sing ktv at chinatown from 2-7pm.
it's kinda fun.
cos i veri long nv sing alr.
and some of them can sing quite well.
but somehow, they like to sing old songs esp. zhenyu.
he realli chose all those super super super old songs la.
a few old songs i nv even heard before.
a few cantonese and hokkien songs also.
super funni la.
and i cant believe i actually sang all those old songs.
cos i usually will sing those newest songs.
and some classic older songs.
but not so old to tad extent.

zhenyu's old songs is realli those old until like my parents' generation one lor.
so d mtv super cock la.
dunno wad to say.
hahha.
but it's fun in a way la.
den we took some photos there.
and we went to meet a few others who were supposed to join us for dinner.
initial plan was to eat at swensens.
but last min, they decided to eat claypot rice.
cos they say it's super nice.
and have to wait for around 1hr.

but all of them dont mind, so we went.
i dont mind la.
just tad d place no aircon.
so cannot realli stand.
super hot lor.
luckily i've got my fan.
hahaha.
but i think some ppl think i'm weird.
but who cares.
as long as i feel cooling den can alr.

d place was at some hawker centre.
super long nv go hawker centre alr.
hahha.
super hot la.
ordered drinks.
and started chatting.
cos we realli waited for quite long before d food comes.
zhen yu even ordered xiao long bao.
and it's all his treat.
super nice.
thanks, zhenyu! haha.

den we decided to go clarke quay for some drinks.
but xina dont wanna go.
so she went home.
and we walked to cafe iguana which is at clarke quay.
not a veri long walk la.
just d weather was super hot.
and i had to bring out my fan again.
hahhaa. super funni la.
i walked veri slow lor.
d guys all walked super fast.
cos they have longer legs.
and by then, i'm d onli girl left.

reached there. kenny & audrey joined us.
and kenny is going to treat all of us.
there was around 10 ppl.
and wer're all drinking.
not normal drinks.
but alcoholic drinks.
thanks kenny for d treat.

most have eaten.
so a few ordered food.
d rest just drinks lor.
and it's d first time i ate beef tad is rare.
it's quite nice leh actually.
hahha.
d drinks were nice too.
pink guava and mango.
so we chat abt alot of stuff also.
cartoons. i dunno how tis topic started.
but it lasted for super long.
huiyang like noe alot of cartoons la.
and he can actually rmb.
pro leh.

me and audrey were like kinda off.
cos some cartoons are we dunno one.
so we started talking abt other stuff.
fashion. den we went on to hk drama where kenny, zl also joined in.
den from cartoons, i also how it becomes chinese history.
started to talk abt d emperors and stuff.
i totally not interested la.
walked abt movies too.
den talked abt games.
talked abt all kinds of random stuff i guess.
didnt realli wanna talk abt work stuff.
hahha.

it's kinda fun la.
at least after tis outing, i'm quite sure we do noe one another at least a little better?
like noe wad kinds of cartoons they like.
or wad kinds of dramas, shows, movies they like.
i had fun, definitely.
but i feel kinda bad also.
cos d whole day i nv pay anything except for d ktv.
dinner was paid by zhenyu.
drinks were paid by kenny.
so feel kinda bad.
but THANKS alot. =D
will look forward to d next outing.

spontaneous outing updates.

2009-05-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

after my chalet, i didn't realli plan outings for d rest of d wk.
cos i tot i'll just stay at home & rest.
cos i knew i wont be slping alot during chalet.
on wed, received msg from vien to go out.
we're going to give justin a surprise at his hse.
so on thurs nite around 10+, i went to vien's hse to fetch her.
den suddenly jeen told mi to fetch brandon also.
so from vien hse, went to brandon's hse.
den have to go to norvin's hse to get justin's present.
but norvin was sick so can't join us.

afterwhich, drove vien to admiralty to pass smth to her fren.
den we went to justin's hse.
reached his hse around 11+.
he wasn't at home yet.
they tricked him to come back.
but still he took super long to come back.
so mi and vien were like sitting on his bed waiting for him.
while d rest of d guys were playing games with justin's bro.
totally ignoring us.
thanks ah.
so we 2 girls just explore his room.
chit chat, took some photos.

around 12plus, den he finally came home.
but he wasn't surprised at all.
cos his mum called him & told him.
sian. hahha.
so we cut d cake.
veri nice cos from bakerzin leh.
as usual la.
they suddenly decided to go eat supper.
go geylang to eat supper.
luckily got 2 cars lor.
so can take 7 of us.
mi, vien, justin, jeen, brandon, ben, gx.

went off around 1am to go geylang.
and i had to follow behind jeen cos i dunno d way there.
reached geylang and i had to do parallel parking.
omg. super long nv do alr.
so i couldn't realli park.
hahhaha. and jeen had to help mi park my car.
den went to eat dim sum.
we reached around 2am.
and we finished eating at around 2.30am.
super fast la.

we didn't stay for long.
cos gx had to reach home early.
cos he has to work d following day.
or rather later tad day since it's alr past midnite.
so i took gx, brandon and vien in my car.
den drove them home.
den i went home.
and i'm kinda lucky.
cos i managed to find a parking lot tad's quite near to my hse.
dont have to go all d way to d back of d parking space.
reached home nearly 3.

kinda full.
cos not used to eating supper.
so went online and stuff.
and i went to slp at around 6am.
hahah. tad's when my mum just woke up.
my slping habits during hols is realli terrible.
everyday slp around at around 5.
den will woke up at around 3 d next day.
super bad leh.
have to try to change it.
if not sch reopens, i'll die.

and on tad day, kinda last min also.
to ask all of us to go watch movie on fri nite.
somemore watching movie at 1150pm.
fri nite, went to fetch vien again.
and we went to cwp.
and we 2 were d first to reach.
after a while, d guys also reached la.
we watched angels & demons.
there were 9 of us.
mi, vien, ben & his gf.
just, jeen, bran, norvin, jack.
first time saw ben's gf.

d movie were kinda nice.
but super long la.
2hrs plus.
initially find it hard to understand.
but after tad it was okay.
i think not bad ba d movie.
but i sit until my butt super pain.
HAHAHA.
tis movie is like star trek.
not d movie genre tad i would watch.
unless no choice or d guys want it.
but surprisingly, i find both movies not bad.
and i didn't fall asleep.
HAHAHA.

after d movie, all of us seated there till everything was over.
but there wasn't anything at d back.
and den we went back home.
took brandon, norvin and vien in my car.
like as usual.
cos we all lived kinda near?
d nearest alr as compared to others.
and tis time i wasn't tad lucky.
i saw parking lots. but they weren't veri near my hse.
so i parked at somewhere illegal.
cos recently alot of cars did tad.
cos a part of d parking were in renovation.
so recently can see alot of illegal parking.

so i just parked there lor.
den i told my mum to shift it away in d morning.
haha.
smart move ah.
sat and sun i just rest and slack at home.
and i've planned quite a no. of outings for d next 2 wks.
hahha.
i think i need to find smth more meaningful to do.
i can't be possible spendin my hols on going out.
abit cca stuff, mostly going out.
staying at home would be eating, drinking, slping, watching tv, playing com.
so meaningless.
total waste of time.
i realli need find things to do.
but wad can i do???
any suggestions?

MC first meeting & chalet updates.

2009-05-15T04:20:00.004+08:00

tis is going to be a long post.
cos it's from mon to wed.

DAY 1
on mon before d chalet, i had to go back to sch for my cca mc meeting.
so woke up in d morning & went to sch.
on my way there, there wasn't any rain.
until i reached ngee ann poly.
it started to rain super heavy.
and i reached kent vale first.
had to wait for xina to come too.
while waiting for her, i shift my chalet stuff to my car boot.
had i noe it would rain, i would shift it earlier.

luckily, there's umbrella in my car.
but still, i got kinda wet cos d rain is reali super heavy.
my car was wet.
and i was wet too.
super sian.
of all days, it just had to rain today.
and it's super heavy rain.
so when xina came, i took her car to mpsh.
and from there, we walked to yih.
there's shelter so it wasn't veri bad.

so we reached around 12pm.
not everyone was there.
but most of them were there alr.
and den we realised d meeting starts at 1 not 12pm.
cos they scared ppl would be late.
so within tad hr, we just slack around.
chit chat, self-intro to get to noe one another better.
first hr was kinda fun.
cos of all d jokes esp. from zhenyu.
super joker guy la.
hahha.

next 3-4 hrs wasn't as good.
cos it's meeting time.
yes, 3-4 hrs of meeting.
partly cos of 1st meeting.
so there's alot of stuff to settle.
alot of stuff to discuss.
so it would take longer time.
tad day was kinda tired i think.
didn't realli give much comments.
d meeting wasn't exactly tad solemn.
still have some jokes here & there.
it would be better la.

meeting ended around 4.45.
after tad, we had to start packing up.
cos we're going to shift to a new place.
but i couldn't help out for long.
cos i met emily around 515 in sch.
so i helped out for a while.
and i realised there's alot of gd stuff around.
hahaha.
so i went off at around 515 to meet emily.
and when i reached d place where i'm supposed to meet her,
she also arrived at d same time.
nice timing. haha.

went to take my car and off we go.
drove to harbour front centre carpark.
den went to d mrt to meet d rest.
all of us reached around d same time.
den went vivo.
when we just stepped into vivo, sarah shouted super loud.
she shouted "okay".
super loud & there's echo.
super paiseh. hahaha.
took some photos here & there.
and we went to eat sushi tei for dinner.
ordered nice sushi.
and it was grace's first time eatin sashimi.

nice dinner.
after tad we went to giant to get snacks for our chalet.
potato chips, cup mee, biscuits, drinks.
quite alot of stuff.
we even bought beard papa. hahha.
and we did some super auntie stuff.
hahaha.
chopsticks from cheers.
cup from mac.
hahahhaa. totally no image liao.
but we did it quite discreetly.
so still okay.

after tad, went back to our cars.
and off we go to sentosa to check in.
reached chalet around 9 plus.
and den we realised it's kinda cram.
kinda expected it.
if not it wont be so cheap.
but still okay la.
cos there's onli 7 ppl.
and luckily it's quite clean.
so still acceptable.
slack around in d chalet for a while.
watched tv for a while.
den we went out.

went to d beach!
siloso beach.
and of cos we took lots of photos.
emo photos.
stupid pose photos.
jumping photos.
nice photos.
all kinds of photos.
super nice. love it!
all d photos will be uploaded on fb. so go there to have a look.
by d time we went back, there's alr around 100 photos.
went back around 11plus.
and just nice, step has reached.

it's super hot.
so when we went back, we couldn't sit on our beds.
and we took turns to shower.
super tired alr.
still cannot sit on d bed.
cannot sit on d floor also cos d floor is kinda dirty.
so have to stand or squat down.
even more tiring.
hahha. but i was d 2nd one to bathe.
so still okay.

DAY 2
it's past midnight alr.
but we didn't realli intend to slp.
so we just kept playing games.
while waiting, we watched tv.
and there's yu le bai fen bai.
so we just watched till around 2am.
den we started playing all kinds of games.

first we played saboteur.
first time played tis game.
it's kinda fun.
but intellectual.
cos have to think.
and somehow saboteurs kept winning.
we played around 3 -4 rounds.
and most of d time i kena saboteur.
hahha.
we didn't play for long.
cos it can be quite tiring having to think.
but it's fun la. i love it.

next we played indian poker.
but we onli played for 2 rounds.
cos after tad everyone got kinda tired.
so have to play those more high games.
step and ruth were d losers for indian poker.
forfeit was some mixed drink.
kinda fun sabo-ing others.

after tad we played stock market.
hahha. super high game lor.
everyone sure high one.
and super noisy.
played for quite some time for tis.
and d forfeit was to drink some mixed drink.
mixed tomato juice with some vegetable juice and ice lemon tea.
tis time everyone lost except for mi and step.
step kept winning tad's y she nv lose.
and for mi, i guess my reaction was kinda fast.
cos i've played tis game before.

grace lost d most. had to drink 3 cups.
gaia drank 2.5 cups.
ruth, sarah 1 cup each.
emily 0.5 cup.
d game was super fun.
and in between alot of funni stuff happened.
totally love it.
and luckily i didn't lose.
cos i cannot stand d tomato juice taste.
super disgusting la.

took a little break.
and we decided to change game.
played psychiatrist. suggested by me.
cos i think it's fun.
but there's onli 7 of us.
so may not be as fun.
and all of us were like super tired alr.
so we gave alot of hints.
and d game ended within an hr.
super fast.

by d time it ended, it's like around 6am i think.
so we stopped playing game.
and we started chatting.
chat abt alot of stuff.
with some gossips also.
in d end, we all realli cannot tahan alr.
so we decided to slp at around 7am.
super tired esp. me.
cos i woke up super early for my cca meeting.
hahha.

all of us woke up around 1130am.
wash and clean up ourselves to have lunch tgt.
cos grace and ruth need to leave.
but we were super unlucky.
when we stepped out of our room, we realised it's drizzling.
den we tot it would be fine.
but it started to rain super heavy.
so mi & emily went to take our umbrellas from our car.
we dragged alot.
cos we need to plan for our wet weather plan.

start to think of places to go.
whether to go out anot.
whether to drive out anot.
from around 12, we discussed till nearly 1pm.
when we kinda decided, d rain stopped.
wth.
so we went back to our original plan.
but ruth & grace cant join us for lunch.
cos it's veri late alr.
so they went off.

while d rest of us went to siloso point.
went delifrance for our lunch.
and when we were on our way there, we saw ppl at d beach alr.
ate our lunch & we went back to our chalet first.
prepare ourselves.
for mi, it's to put lots of sunblock.
hahaha.
went to d beach around 2+.
there's nth much for us to do.
cos we didn't bring any ball.
and we cant take photos too.
cos we didn't bring our cam along.

i wrote KARMA GANG on the beach.
super nice.
after a while, we went into d water.
except for emily.
cos she didn't wan.
no matter how we persuade her, she still dont wan.
super stubborn & spoilsport lor.
so went into d water & we stayed in d water throughout.
played with water.
den started to think of games to play.

oh ya. when d waves got super big, we will start playing with d waves.
we will stand there & let d waves bring us to d shore.
and d waves are realli big den we can realli being thrown onto d shore.
hahha. super fun la.
so we started to play a few other games also.
emily also joined in.
but she didn't go into d sea veri far.
den we played tis veri fun game.
Q&A game.
it's a game we played during our cnm camp.
so each of us will take turn to ask a qns.
and everyone will have to ans d qns.

guess girls will enjoy it more.
cos sometimes we realli ask those veri personal kind of qns.
and i'm sure all of us will tell d truth cos we're kinda close.
and girls like to talk & discuss abt all kinds of topics.
so it's kinda fun in a way.
i reali love tis game.
cos realli can get to noe one another better.
and it's interesting cos d ans can be quite interesting & unexpected.
from around 3, we stayed in d water till around 5++.
and our skin became crumpled.
hahha.

so we were doing fine.
until a grp of ppl came into d water.
d sea so big.
but they just had to go to d area near us.
initially still okay.
but dunno y, they kept shifting until it's super near us la.
somemore they playing monkey.
so i super scared i will kena hit by d ball lor.
so after a while, we went to another area.
but somehow d sand there was veri coarse.
so dont realli like it.
continued playing for a little while.
den we went off.

before we left, there's big waves.
but all of them went off alr except for mi and gaia.
so 2 of us still stood there & let d waves hit us.
super fun la.
hahha.
den went to wash up.
cos alot of sands on our body.
and went back to d chalet to bathe.
after bathing, we started taking photos.
den have to look at d map to see where we can go for our dinner.

first we went to d beach station, but d prices there were kinda steep.
so in d end, we went palawan beach.
cos there's a food court there.
so we had our dinner there.
and i had tis drink. it's kinda nice.
it's plum lime juice.
just tad d plum taste is too strong.
it would be better if there's more lime juice.
after dinner, we decided to go palawan beach for a stroll.
saw some event there.
and there's a campfire.

we went to d bridge.
crossed over it.
and we took lots of photos over there.
scenary was okay onli.
nth much to see.
just sea and lights.
after tad, we decided to take tram to go back to our chalet.
it's 8plus.
and we didn't realise tad d tram was changed to a bus.
so we missed d first one.
and we waited super long for d next one.

while waiting, we did alot of stuff.
took photos.
took video.
sang songs.
talked cock.
stoned.
look at a millipede & see how it do mani stunts.
self entertained.
veri tired but still kinda high.
when we got on d bus, we still continued singing though there were other ppl.

went back to d beach station.
went to buy more drinks for ourselves.
den took another tram back to our chalet.
and we were just in time for d 9pm show.
so we watched tad show till 10plus.
den we went to a nearby pub.
cafe del' mar.
but it closed at 11pm.
we didn't noe.
so we had no choice but to go back to our chalet.
took lots of photos again.

we played back d same Q&A game.
with some gossip here and there la.
den around 1am, we watched yu le bai fen bai.
den ate our chips.
have to finish everything by tad nite.
cos we dont wanna bring d food home.
all of us were super tired.
but we didn't slp.
we stayed up throughout.
didn't play game.
we just sit around & chit chat.

after d show, we chat abt our family stuff.
emily said alot abt her bro with his gf stuff.
den i also complained abt my sis & her bf.
sarah also told us abt her bro & his gf stuff.
gaia's bro not gd. but his gf veri gd.
step's bro are younger so she didn't say anything also.
these topics we talked super long.
cos got alot of different stories to tell.
and we were super awake.
cos we got agitated when talking.
hahha.

but it's true leh.
from all these talks, we found out how bad humans can get.
realli veri terrible.
y can ppl get tad bad?
i dont get it.
i realli dont.
and i hate bad ppl.
so we talked abt alot of things la.
after tis chalet, i'm sure we all noe one another better.
hahha.

and we left d chalet around 6am.
since all of us were so tired.
so y not just go home early.
can rest early and avoid peak hrs too.
so we went off around 6am.
cos mi & emily drove ma.
so easier.
so we drove d rest to harbour front mrt.
den i just chiong home.
super tired.

reached home.
bathe.
unpacked my stuff.
den have to wait for my hair to dry a bit.
den i went to slp.
i slept at around 8.
and i slept all d way to 6+ in d evening.
slp alot.
have to compensate back d slp tad i've lost.

i realli enjoyed myself alot during d chalet.
it's fun!
it's enjoyable.
lots of laughter.
lots of fun.
lots of jokes.
lots of photos.
lots of talking.
lots of chatting.
everything is just great.
realli loved it & enjoyed it.
how i wish there's another chalet.

been so long since i've had so much fun.
realli just laughed throughout d chalet.
if not we would be talking abt some interesting topics.
guys, horoscope, girls, family.
anything under the sun.
reali enjoyed it.
but it's my first time having an all girls chalet.
but it's super fun cos we can chat abt all kinds of stuff without worrying d guys will hear it.
realli love my nus clique.
it's a big part why i nv regret coming to nus.
realli.
KARMA GANG ROCKS!
or shld we have another gang name? haha.

karma gang with 5 different levels.
karma god. (sarah)
karma queen. (used to be me only but gaia has levelled up so now it's me & gaia)
karma princess. (emily cos she also levelled up)
karma palace maids. (step cos she also levelled up)
karma commoners. (dione who couldnt make it, grace, ruth. these 3 ppl veri veri veri seldom say other ppl one. it would be ver hard to make them level up.)
so presenting to u, the KARMA GANG!
love it. =D
such a unique name.
i had another gang called GUAI LAN gang.
and now i have KARMA gang.
love. love. love.

post exams outing

2009-05-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

on sat. met up with yee chian.
met her at cine to buy movie tix first.
and when i reached orchard, i'm kinda shocked.
cos it's not crowded at all.
usually sat would be super crowded.
but tad day when i went, i feel like it was a wkday.
wondering y not alot of ppl.
somemore it's a public holiday leh..
isit cos of H1N1?
hahhaa.

for once, i was earlier.
hahha. cos i told her i'll be a little late.
in d end, she came later than me.
after tad we bought movie tix.
bought star trek.
though it's not realli d genre tad i would watch, it looked d most interesting of all.
so we decided to watch tad.
after tad, went to take for our lunch.
went to breeks.
suggested by me.

so we ordered nice food & drinks.
had super nice chat cos we realli super long nv go out tgt le.
took nice photos too.
we talked abt alot of stuff.
reali nice chat.
everything seem so nice until smth happened.
so there's a grp of guys who were going to sit beside our table.
den suddenly one of d guys accidentally knocked into yee chian's drink.
so d drink was spilled over.
and it kena mi.
cos d drink spilled towards my direction.

my reaction tad day was kinda slow.
hahha.
but d thing is d drink kena my clothes.
kena my leg & it flowed all d way to my shoes.
wth. super unhappy.
but there's nth i can do also.
so i went to d toilet to clean up d mess lor.
so sway lor.
my karma???
and yee chian was totally clean. haha.

but i didn't let tad affect mi la.
so after our lunch, went to walked a while.
den made our way back to cine.
and it's kinda early.
so we sat down & wait to go in.
while waiting, we took lots of photos.
d movie was 4.
but we can onli go in at 4.
isit cos of H1N1?
den need sterilise & make sure d place is clean.

so when i was inside d theatre, i wanted to walk to my seats.
though it's veri dark, i can see tis person dressing veri weirdly.
so i kinda stopped there.
but yc didn't see it cos too dark.
den there wasn't just 1.
there were a few others weird character.
they were there to publicise some scv stuff.
cos after d movie ended, they gave each person there a free gift.
d gift was a pen.
while waiting, can see lots of flashes.
cos everyone was so busy taking their photos.
and they go around scaring ppl.

sometimes, they'll randomly sit beside a person.
den some ppl who just entered got a shock too when they saw d person standing near their seats.
hahhaa. so funni.
but there's tis time, one of them suddenly popped out behind mi & yc.
cos we were sitting at d last row.
super scared leh.
i didn't realli dare to turn back & look at her.
hahhaa.
i took a few photos of them too.

back to d movie.
d movie is kinda those sci fiction.
i tot i wouldn't like it.
cos i dont like fiction stuff.
but apparently, i found d movie not bad leh.
though there were some parts tad were kinda chim.
they used alot of technical terms la.
but still can roughly understand.
it's kinda nice leh to me la.
maybe cos of another reason. cos of d male lead.
hahha. one of d male lead was quite handsome.
and inside d movie, he's super funni la.
maybe tad's y i like d movie too.
i cant rmb his real name but i saw him quite a no. of times in other movies.

after d movie, i was abt to leave.
den suddenly i heard someone called my name.
and guess who. it's emily aka the tomato head!
hahaha. super shocked la.
den suddenly i heard another voice.
it's joyce!
she said she heard my voice first den saw mi.
such a small world.
saw 2 frenz inside d theatre.
firstly, they muz be watching same movie at d same time slot.
secondly, they muz be sitting near my area.
if not we wont be able to see one another also.

den went toilet.
shopped a little while with yc before she went home.
den i went to meet emily.
cos we're going to have dinner tgt.
met her at outside heeren.
so we started chatting there.
beating each other. hahha.
den num was doing some publicity stuff.
i saw a few wanted to approach us but dont dare cos we were busy talking.
den suddenly 1 guy approached us.
so he explained d stuff to us.
and before he left he added tis.
"sorry to disturb u all"
HAHHAA. wth. so funni. he tot we les ah?

since we werent hungry yet, we walked around first.
wanted to shop for mother's day present.
went taka.
saw victor & his gf.
shopped around aimlessly like tad.
cos dont have any idea wad to buy.
went to tis shop & we got free ferror rocher.
hahhaa.
den we went to wisma.
we didn't buy anything.
super tired alr so we decided to go have our dinner.
and we went wheelock.

went nydc since joyce was working there.
we shared our whole dinner tgt.
drink, pizza & dessert.
cos we 2 weren't veri hungry.
hahha.
and i saw a nus fren there but not veri close to her.
took a few photos too.
and we chat alot. as usual la.
chat abt all kinds of stuff.
around 9 plus, we went off.
wanted to walk around.
but kinda late & most shops were closing too.

went borders for a while den walked to shaw towers.
since emily's car was parked there.
on d way there, i saw chaileng.
but she didn't see me.
today i reali saw quite a no. of frenz.
hahhaa.
both of us realli dunno wad to do.
since we were so free.
so inside d shaw towers, i spotted a bench.
so we went there to sit down.
and we started chatting again.
haha.

sat down there for around 30mins i think.
around 1030.
we decided to go home.
there was nth for us to do also.
so i took her car to bukit timah.
if i took bus from orchard, it would be veri crowded.
so i took her car to bukit timah tad area.
den i took bus home.
it's kinda fast la.
cos not alot of ppl ma.

kinda fun day today.
and another spontaneous day.
cos i tot i would be going home after d movie.
didn't expect to see emily at orchard.
and cos i saw her, tad's y we decided to have dinner tgt.
so spontaneous & random rite.
hahaha.
like d other day (thurs) too.
kinda last min den decided to meet for lunch.
hahhaa.
tis is d result of having too much spare time?

i love spontaneous day.
i love surprises.
i love spontaneity.
hahha.
sometimes to do things unexpectedly, it's kinda fun also.
not tis doesn't apply to all situations la.
have to depend on wad kind of situation before.
for outings, it's okay.

aniway, later today, i'm going back to sch.
for my cca bizcom mc meeting.
after d meeting, den would make my way down to chalet.
luckily i have a car lor.
if not it would be super troublesome for mi.
carry so mani stuff & have to change buses for a few times.
so excited for d chalet.
it would be a 3D2N chalet.
so i would be away for 3 days.
wont be able to use my laptop too.
so dont miss mi too much! haha.

will be back soon with more interesting updates.
and lots of photos.
i can predict tad we'll be taking lots of photos.
hahhaa. will be back soon. =D
exciting chalet at sentosa.

spontaneous day

2009-05-09T02:34:00.003+08:00

thurs was a very spontaneous day.
initial plan was to go out with fren.
but it was being postponed.
so i tot i would be slacking at home.
but i was wrong.
on thurs morning around 3AM, me & emily decided to meet up.
haha.
so random & sudden.

so we met up at bpp for lunch.
went to tis newly opened jap restaurant.
it was quite not bad i guess.
after tad we went to d travel agency.
our main purpose for d day.
to get more info on our holiday trip.
after tad, went to walk around in bpp.
since both of us are veri free.
emily went popular to get some stuff.
after tad, we realli shopped aimlessly.
hahhaa.

walked around & we ended up in ntuc.
so bought some random stuff.
bought cleo.
den went subway.
cos tad's emily's dinner.
hahha.
and we left bpp around 4.

went home.
settle some sch stuff.
den started searching for cheap hotels in taiwan.
hahha.
budget leh.
so tad we'll have more money for shopping.
budget airline, budget hotel.
lots of money for food & shopping.
isn't tad great.
but haven confirm yet.

den suddenly vien ask mi wan go out for dinner.
with 2/8 guys to celebrate norvin's bdae.
nearly 8, i went out from my hse to cck.
i drove there.
went to norvin's hse first.
my first time there though i've noe him for 7 yrs.
omg. if i didn't count, i didn't noe i've noe him for so long alr.
since sec 1.
tad's realli kinda long.
and it shows how old i am now..

so we sang bdae song.
cut d cake & ate it.
took some photos.
all candid pics cos they dont like to take photos.
unless i force them.
so in d end, we also nv take grp photos.
after tad, went to sunshine place for dinner.
there were 10 of us.
mi and vien are d onli girls.
norvin, jeen, jeen's bro, ben, brandon, justin, jack, wp.
guo xiang came after d dinner.
10 ppl onli & d guys ordered alot of food la.

4 crabs (2 are chilli crabs, 1 is steamed crab with dong fen, 1 is salted yolk).
kang kong.
pork ribs.
beancurd.
fu bi juan (some fried stuff with prawn inside).
man tou (a kind of bread. not wang zai xiao man tou ah. HAHA. LOL)
ya. i think tad's abt it.
but hor. all BIG one hor.
not small one.
so it's like super alot la.

i ate until my stomach wanna burst la.
but actually i didn't eat alot also.
wasn't tad hungry.
den d rest of d guys have to eat alot to finish up d crabs.
hahha.
b total bill was 200++.
each person around 23 i think.
super ex la.
kinda shocked.
cos i dont realli noe d price of crabs cos i dont pay.

continue to sit down there and chat lor.
talked abt alot of stuff la.
super funni. as usual.
and childish as before?
though we're 20, we dont behave like we're 20.
hahha.
stupid arguments.
stupid & lame jokes.
but it's realli fun la.
cos their jokes always super funni one.

more & more ppl seem to be getting attached.
tze got attached.
den jeen & ben also attached.
hahha. who will be d next one?
aniway, after tad we were talking abt cars.
and as usual, they will make fun of my car.
cos my car is realli kinda not veri gd.
so they make fun of me & my car lor.
but i wasn't angry la.
i even laugh at their jokes.
cos it's super funni.

after tad, all d guys were like super thirsty?
so went to a nearby petrol station & bought drinks.
cos d supermarket there was closed.
and jeen's bro super kua zhang leh.
all bought a bottle.
but jeen's bro bought a carton.
HAHAHAHA. super funni la.
& it's time to go home.
and it's alr 11pm unknowingly.

so took jeen & vien in my car.
drove jeen to take his car cos he parked at some other place.
den drove vien home.
and i went home.
it's an enjoyable day with lots of jokes.
though i've spent around $40 on my meals.
around $18 for my lunch.
and another $23 for my dinner.
1 day onli leh.
& i spent $40 & it's on food ONLY.
pro leh. hahha.

but i had fun la.
so thurs was a super spontaneous day for mi.
thurs 3am decided to meet emily at 1.30pm.
den 6+pm decided to go celebrate norvin's bdae.
super spontaneous.
but i love it.
it's kinda fun to have such random & sudden outings.
it makes my day.
cos i love surprises. =D
it's definitely better than stayin at home & rot.

later today i'm meeting yee chian.
super long nv meet her alr.
but i do bumped into her in sch.
but rarely la.
so tml meeting her.
kinda looking forward to it.
and since i'm going out, den of cos muz slp earlier.
so i'm going to slp veri soon.
after tml, i will have lots of photos to upload ba.
hahha.
mon is coming veri soon. can't wait! =D

random.

2009-05-07T03:25:00.002+08:00

song i'm listening now....
all about you by mcfly.
used to love tis song alot.
kinda catchy in a way.
veri long nv listen to it alr.
and now, i'm listening to it.
and i still love it.

aniway, tis is not my point.
i wanna talk abt some other stuff.
after so long, i've tot i could stop brooding over it.
i've tot i've gotten over it.
but in fact, i didn't and i havent.
when i dont think abt it, it's okay.
but sometimes when i see things related to it, i'll just keep thinking it.
it refers to wkwsci.
one of d gd choices tad i chose to give up.
till now, i'm still not sure if i've made d right choice anot.

all i can and is sure to say is....
i've definitely regret giving up tad choice.
but if given another chance, would i choose to accept tis choice instead?
i myself also not sure.
though i've regret, there're still some stuff in nus tad makes my uni life better.
so i'm realli not sure if i would choose tad choice given another chance.
but i have to say tad course is realli gd.
i realli love it.
i realli wanted to get in and i did.
but in d end, i chose to give it up cos of nus.
i'm sorry but i have to say i realli dislike ntu campus.
maybe tis is one of d major reason tad makes mi reject it.
it may sound unconvincing.
but imagine u going to a sch u hate everyday,
would u enjoy? u wouldnt even wan to go to tad sch ba.

so i realli not sure.
but i realli love tad course.
y isn't tad course in nus.
y nus dont have a course tad is comparatively as gd as tad course.
wkwsci.
sometimes, i do think tad tis would be a better choice for me.
yet i chose to do things emotionally instead of rationally.
i chose nus cos i love nus & not of d course it offered to me.
rationally, i knew wkwsci might be a better choice.
i realli regret.
regret alot.

but i have to say it's realli tough for me.
tad period was a veri tough one for mi.
cos i have to make such important decisions for myself.
and d choices i had wasn't easy for mi to choose.
ntu wkwsci.
smu biz mgmt.
nus fass.
how to choose.
u tell mi.
if given another chance, i would still stuck in tad tough position.
with lots of dilemma.
i realli dunno how to choose.
nobody can help mi.
cos it's my own choice.

even my mum also dont wanna help mi.
but if she were to choose, she would choose ntu.
i still rmb.
tad time, i did a poll.
hahhaa.
i asked ppl around mi which choices shld i choose.
in d end, most chose smu.
2nd is ntu.
lastly is nus.
of cos la. nus course is fass leh.
who would wan to choose tad course.
but tad's my first choice.

i've gotten all my first choices.
i shld be happy.
but i'm not.
cos i'm stuck with d tough choices.
sometimes, i would realli rather i didn't get all my first choices.
if i didn't get my first choice, i would have an easier life.
i would noe wad to choose.
instead of kept thinking & thinking.
i love ntu course.
i love nus campus.
i love smu way of teaching & d new facilities.

i noe i shldn't keep thinking.
i noe i shld convince myself tad my choice is right.
but i just can't make myself do tad.
cos i'm not enjoying some of d mods tad i took.
i dunno how to convince myself.
i saw photos taken by one of my frenz who is in wkwsci.
it just tempts mi alot.
everytime i see her, she would remind mi of wkwsci.
luckily i dont have alot of frenz in wkwsci, if not i'll die.
hahaha.

i just hate myself.
hate myself for thinking so much.
hate myself for keep looking back.
hate myself for not being confident of my choice
hate myself for swaying between my decisions.
hate myself for having cognitive dissonance!
(cognitive dissonance is a term i've learned from my course. haha)

on a happier note,
i might be going overseas again!
yeah!!! cos d swine flu dont seem so serious now.
hopefully can go overseas.
going taiwan with frenz.
if cannot, i will be bored to death in sg.
hopefully swine flu situation will get better.
yellow light now.
turn to green light soon. haha.

freedom from exams.

2009-05-06T01:35:00.002+08:00

1 veri gd news..
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
it's gd tad it's finally over.
but when it's over, i start fretting wad i can do besides playing.
how contradictory humans are.
but tad's part of our lives.
happy tad exams are over.
yet i'm kinda worried abt results..
sian. dont remind mi of tad.
god, pls bless me. HAHA.

exams r over.
i should be relaxing.
but how come once i'm online, i'm stuck with so mani things to do.
suddenly so mani things to do/settle.
when i online after a while, suddenly alot of ppl came and talked to mi.
think chatting with abt 5 ppl.
den sms 2 other ppl also.
den got other windows for other stuff.
so mani things to do lor.
cca stuff, planning outings stuff and talk cock stuff.
HAHHAA.
talking to so mani ppl, so i'm kept busi with all d conversations.
changing from 1 windows to another.
non stop leh..

so mani things to settle.
1 of which is chalet thingy.
it's not veri gd to be organiser sometimes.
hahhaa.
but looking forward to chalet next wk.
tml plan is to slack at home.
slp as much as possible.
hahha. to get back all my energy first.
den have to settle some sch stuff.
den start planning for chalet programmes.
and plan some other outings.
and oh. i need to start my secret plan soon!
but super lazy..

ppl, start asking mi out.
cos i'm quite lazy... hahhaa.
potato couch is me! =D
i feel like cutting my hair.
super long, cant stand d hot weather.
but i dont wan to cut short.
just trim will do.

cos there's nth much to do, so i ended up thinking abt alot of stuff.
which is not a veri gd thing.
cos i think abt alot of negative stuff.
if not i'll end up day-dreaming.
which is not a gd thing also.
cos fantasy is always opposite from reality.
fatalist i shall be and i am one.
hopefully, my destiny changes soon.
change to a better one.
one with no more karma.
hahaha.

though d swine flu looks kinda bad now, i dont feel anything towards it leh.
no sense of urgency at all.
i dunno y.
tad time during sars, i rmb i was quite scared in some ways.
but tis time, i totally have d heck care attitude.
i dunno y.
maybe i'm too fatalist?
cos if i'm destined to die, i'll die no matter wad.
well, hopefully swine flu will go away soon so tad i can go overseas.
but i doubt so.
cos it's more dangerous than sars without any obvious symptoms and stuff.
sian.

staying in s'pore during my 3 mths holidays is definitely not a gd thing.
cos sg is so small.
with limited places to go.
i think i'll get bored within d next few wks.
and den i'll left with no places to go.
and may just end up like d time after o levels.
go to d east area and started exploring.
changi ariport, shopping malls tad i dont always go.
or just do all kinds of stupid stuff.
hahhaa.

hate myself

2009-05-03T02:11:00.002+08:00

i hate myself for being so slack..
these few days i'm super super slack.
and my progress for my revision of last paper is super slow.
and i hate it.
i've tried to concentrate.
but i just can't.
shit. i onli have 2 more days.
y am i so slack....
i hate being a slacker.
yet i love being a slacker.
contradictory feeling.
another love-hate relationship. haha.

wish mi all d best.
i realli need lots of luck tis time round.
i can onli succeed tis time round.
i cannot afford to fail.
if not i'll just die.
so i realli have to make myself to study hard no matter wad.
though onli 2 days left,
i still have to study harder!
i've wasted 3 days.
i cannot waste any more days.
if possible, i might stay up tonight.
so xw, jiayou!

and i realli hate tad stupid swine flu.
it's giving mi so many problems.
firstly, it disrupts my holiday plan.
so i'll have to stay in sg for 3 mths?
i'll realli bored to death.
secondly, cos of tad, all sch have to carry out temperature taking exercise.
SIAN!
so troublesome.
take an exam also muz take temperature.
so u see. how bad d flu is.
giving mi so many troubles.
luckily, i'm onli left with 1 paper lor.

i hate clashes.
realli realli reali hate clashes.
clashes for events.
i've went thr' many clashes before.
i just hate it.
cos it's a tough decision for mi.
which events shld i go to.
i realli hate to make tis kind of choice.
esp. when both of d events i want to go so much.
tis makes it even harder to choose lor.
sometimes, 2 clashes will make me die.
but i've experienced 3 and 4 clashes before one..
totally sian.

and i will wonder y m i so unlucky.
kena so many clashes.
if possible, i'll try to go for all.
but sometimes, things wont go my way.
so ya.
and there's going to be clashes for my upcoming events.
totally sian!
hope i can go for both...
if not i'll have to make a choice between d 2.
and i'll have to get back to my revision.
totally sian diao..
cant wait for tues to come.

short post.

2009-05-01T01:23:00.002+08:00

juz wanna say smth.
hate tad swine flu.
why muz it come at tis time?
cos it totally spoils my plan.
wanted to go overseas with frenz.
but dont looks veri safe.
so might have to postpone.
toally sian diao leh!!!
stupid pig.
so it will mean tad my hse will be super dangerous also.
cos there's a pig in my hse.
opps. =X
HAHAHHAHAA.

and i'm super slack today.
shit. totally in a holiday mood lor.
if tis continues, i'll realli be in a deep shit.
xw, muz study hard!!!
jiayou! =D

exams updates

2009-04-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

haven been updating my blog.
cos it's d exams period.
progress so far..
i've done with 4 papers.
left with 1 more paper.
and tad paper has to be 5 days later.
if not i would have ended my exams today..
super sian la.
but at least got more time to study...
though i'm still slacking around... hahaha.

d exams paper tad i've taken so far...
eh. no much comments.
all i wan to say is i've studied for them.
and i think SHLD be okay ba.
but tis kind of thing veri hard to say one.
cos of d bell curve ba. (tis is like d self-fulfilling bias! PSY! haha)
so i think okay but might not be d case.
but hope tad i wont do too badly ba..
sian sian sian sian sian.
super worried lor..
results will be out abt 1 mth later.
tad's quite fast hor..

so today after my paper, i totally have tis slack mentality.
or rather i have tad mentality even during d exam.
dunno whose handphone kept ringing.
totally distracting. 2 ppl somemore.
maybe cos veri tired and sian, i also find it hard to concentrate.
so ended up doing veri slowly.
and so i didn't finish.
i can finish one. i noe i can.
but i was doing too slowly, thinking too slowly and kept being distracted.
well, i can onli blame myself..

after d paper, went to "celebrate".
hahhaa. went to IMM.
ate ajisen ramen.
mi, sarah, gaia and emily.
as usual, ate, talked and laughed.
den was complaining abt d pingpong show.
tad irritating xiao fen inside tad show.
hate her.

after lunch, gaia went back.
den left 3 of us.
so we decided to walk walk.
realli aimlessly walk leh.
saw some cute shop den went inside.
went daiso and sarah finally bought her file.
den went giant.
hahaha. bought some food stuff back home.
emily bought d most lor.

den found some empty bench.
so we sat there like some aunties.
hahahha.
after tad, we decided to eat some dessert.
cos sarah says she wanna treat mi and emily.
cos we always drive her around.
and we went to anderson's ice cream.
ice cream was quite nice except for 1 flavour.
rum and raisin. OMG
d taste is realli super not nice and quite strong somemore.
so we just scooped out tad ice cream.
took some photos too.

nice lunch.
nice dessert.
nice shopping.
nice chat.
hahaha. finally got to enjoy myself.
get myself away from all d exams and revision.
it's a great day.
but i have to start studying soon.
like now??!!
cos i still have another paper.
and tad paper i die die also muz do quite well.
if not i'll realli be dead.
so wish me all d best. =D

will update soon.
cant wait for exams to end.
so mani things waiting for mi to do.
all d outings with different ppl. (it'll be a quite long list)
chalet.
holiday trip to taiwan. (most probably)
so can't wait can't wait.
shall start studying soon.

unlucky wk.

2009-04-21T23:04:00.002+08:00

tis wk is my reading wk.
so i've been staying at home for d past few days.
stayed at home and study.
but apparently, my progress isn't veri gd.
cos of distractions.
internet, tv distractions.
super sian.
i study until super sian le.
feel like giving up.
but i noe i cant.

aniway, dunno y recently, i'm kinda unlucky lor..
recently, each time i read smth, i bound to see a picture of cat.
today, i saw 3 pics of cat.
d first one was from my psychology textbook.
and i screamed but wasn't veri loud la.
d 2nd and 3rd time was from a magazine.
2nd time i didn't scream cos d pic was kinda small.
d 3rd one, i screamed damn damn loud.
cos d pic is kinda big.
and d pic is those real cats not those cartoon types.
cartoon types i still can accept.
but i cannot cannot accept those pics tad look like real cats.

believe it anot.
but i realli can't.
i'm scared of cats.
i'm scared of those soft toys tad look like real cats.
i'm scared of pictures tad look like real cats too.
overall, i'm scared of everything tad's got to do with cat?
except for the word 'cat' and doreamon?
i dont like garfield cos it realli looks like a cat too.
but i'm not scared of garfield.
i'm also scared of tigers, leopards (animals tad belong to d cat family).

y recently, i kept seeing pics of cats?
so unlucky lor!
and i'm super scared okay.
not fake one.
stop letting mi see pics of cats.
and it's not just today lor.
previously also got.
in the sch library, there's tis pic of cat too.
veri near d entrance.
and whenever ppl wan to use examples for animals, one of it would surely be cat.
SIAN!!!

today i was studying for psychology and it mentions things like phobia etc.
den i realli realli wonder why am i so scared of cats.
it's an in-borne phobia?
tis kind of phobia is called specific phobia.
HAHHAA. revising wad i've learnt today.
my phobia. i dont think it's something genetic.
cos my parents are not scared.
isit environmental factors?
there are alot of stray cats in sg.
cannot be classical or operant conditioning ba.
y would my mum wan to instil tis phobia/fear in me.
and my mum wouldn't noe ba. hahaha.
it's just smth tad cannot be explained.
cos it may involve many factors.

and i wan to complain abt smth!!!
CASSIE AND CHERYL!!! (i noe 2 of u will be interested)
can't rmb when.
but there was tis nite (veri veri late alr. around 2/3am i think).
suddenly, my door was opened by someone.
and guess who?
the pig cum XXL.
like totally wth.
i tot he went home alr.
but he came back again.
and tis is not d first time he took away our keys.
alot of times alr lor.
he will just take d keys with him.
veri wad leh. so wad if they're in a r/s.
doesn't mean he can keep our keys rite.
(eh. wait. maybe i should use IT instead of HE! HAHAHA)

aniway, he came back at such a late hr. totally wth.
like tad also nvm.
d worse thing is they started quarrelling.
WTF!
so late alr.
still quarrel.
somemore his voice also quite loud (maybe cos of d big tummy?)
(shit. later i tio more karma... but it's d truth, so god pls dont blame me.)
so they were quarrelling.
firstly, i'm afraid other ppl might be woken up by them.
secondly and most importantly, i'm studying leh.
for goodness sake.
so late alr. and i'm studying for my upcoming exams.
i realli realli need total concentration.
yet they're super distracting!

realli super fed up by them.
if u all wan to quarrel, leave d hse!!!
open d door also open super loud.
wth lor.
u think it's your own hse ah.
your hse should be at a farm ba.
super irritated lor.
i'm sure all of u can understand how i feel rite.
just now, not long ago,
i've heard some loud voices AGAIN.
but luckily, just once onli.
not alot of times.
if not i will realli scold them.

another irritating thing is...................
today my mum cooked curry chicken (YUMMY!)
tis is not d point.
d point is my bro came back hse, put his stuff down and went out again.
it's alr at nite.
so he haven eat his dinner yet.
and after my mum came home, i told her tad he nv eat and stuff la.
after some time, she suddenly asked mi if my bro realli has not eat anot.
she wans to double confirm.
and she added saying 'i put 4 drumsticks in wad'.
wa lao. after hearing tis rite, i SUPER SUPER SUPER IRRITATED!!
for all those who dont understand, i shall explain...

4 drumsticks.
1 for mi, my dad, my sis and my bro. (SUPPOSEDLY).
but sadly, my bro didn't manage to eat tad super nice drumstick.
so i angrily replied my mum "obviously, it's eaten by a pig!"
super angry lor.
he super BHB leh.
drink, eat, slp, bathe in my hse.
used up water electricity and OUR money.
yet he still dare to eat our drumsticks???
like totally WTH lor.
it's not his hse leh, for goodness sake.

tis is d realli super BHB person i've ever met leh.
for all these yrs (at least 4 yrs), he has been spending OUR money.
without returning or feeling paiseh or smth one leh.
sometimes, when my mum dont cook,
we still have to buy his share!
buy food for him and using our money to buy for him.
he bathed, drank, so he used alot of water.
somemore he has a big mass, so will use up more water.
sometimes, my mum also washed his clothes for him.
maybe 1 or 2 tee shirts.
WTH!

den he used our electricity like for free.
cos sometimes he will just on his laptop d whole day.
totally waste of electricity can.
all these need money. and it's not cheap ba.
it's not like he onli comes 1 or twice a day.
he comes EVERYDAY!
even when there are days when my mum dont cook,
he will take d money from my mum and go out to buy.
since u going out to buy, can't u use your own money.
HELLO.
all these yrs, it's like we're spending money on rearing a pig????
and it's not a cheap pig somemore.
i bet we at least spent $1000 on tad pig.

there's tis time when he was supposed to do a survey for his ns or smth.
he even conveniently used our hse phone and called one by one.
it's alot of ppl leh.
he just called using our hse phone.
wth. it's our money and our money leh.
totally hogging d phone somemore.
another time when i reached home quite late.
wanted to eat dinner.
but he was a tad quicker and went to take d food first.
and WTF, he took away all d veggies.
it's kang kong somemore. my fav.
so my mum will tend to cook a little more.
but he took away d remaining.
so i'm left with nth to eat.

WTF!!!
super irritated with him leh.
he realli treats MY hse as his own hse lor.
take wadever things he wan on his own.
do wadever things he like.
use our things.
totally bhb leh.
everytime my mum has to think of him.
ask him wad he wans to eat.
and she has to cook his share also.
wth.
i'm super unhappy la!

always hogging d room also.
and my stuff is all in d room.
and he stinks like hell can.
tis realli proves smth.
pespiration by fat ppl realli does smell.
and they like to hog d room and close d room.
so each time i open d room, OMG.
i can hardly breathe inside tad room.
i hate his presence in my hse.
i hate d way he does things.
i hate his attitude.
i hate his BHB-ness.
i just hate everything.

**p.s. everything written here is true.
i'm not faking anything.
i'm not exaggerating either.
it's 100% TRUE!
believe it anot.
i'm sure my cousins noe all abt tis.
and pls dont have any karma on me.
cos it's all truth.
though it may seem kinda bad and evil, they're all facts.
so no karma on me pls.

feeling a little better now.
after voicing out all my grievances.
and it's time to get back to my work.
jiayou ba!
2 more wks and everything will be over.
JIAYOU!!! =D

end of sch.

2009-04-17T01:07:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling kinda happy today.
cos later today will be my last day of sch.
and yesterday (thurs), i've finished my 2 reports.
like finally.
finally done with the 2 reports.
1 of which have alr been submitted.
so just have to submit d other one.
so happy tad we're finally done.
felt so relieved now.
so i decided to blog.

tml last day of this sem.
time realli flies for tis sem leh.
unknowingly, it's alr end of sem.
which means exams are coming soon too!
in abt a wk's time.
tml most prob will be going to techno edge for lunch!
i kinda love friday.
cos of d 2 hr break.
den can go techno edge for lunch.
so it's kinda a wkly thing alr.
shall be looking forward to tml's lunch. =D

from now to end of exams, i have to FOCUS.
which is kinda hard.
cos i will tend to slack at home.
previously during jc, i would always find frenz to study with mi.
though sometimes we may be distracted, i still manage to study.
it's definitely more productive than mi studying at home.
cos at home, i will be tempted by the tv.
hahahah.
and for uni now, i dont realli find frenz to study tgt.
so it's like all by myself.
super sian.
and i have no motivation to study la.
i need to find motivation.
but where and how to find??

somebody, give mi some motivation pls.
hahahha.
where's all my drive during my jc times?
at least during my jc times, i can still make myself study.
but now, i find it hard to make myself study.
i want my drive back.
return it to mi pls.
LOL.

i have exactly a wk to chiong only.
cos tis time, my exams start veri early.
my first paper is next sat.
SAT!!!
super sian.
kill me pls.
and tis paper will be one of the hardest ba.
no. i shld rephrase tad.
all papers are hard.
tad paper is d hardest among the hardest.
hahahhaa.

can't wait for exams to end.
cos alot of programs have been lining up alr!!!
brief schedule for my 3 mths holidays.
1) chalet with uni clique
2) k box singing session with 4/5 gang
3) holiday trip with frenz (but not confirm yet)
4) outing with my sec sch juniors.
5) outing with seok han
6) dinner/lunch with cousins
7) outing with angelyn
8) outing with guai lan gang
9) pool playing with 4/5 guys
10) outing with jannah
11) outing with bizcom MC???
12) outing with yee chian
13) UC camp and dry run
14) nustyle outing??
15) singing session + chill out with nus clique (cos we wan to play alot before we turn 20)
16) some secret plan with SARAH!
yup yup. tad's all for now i think.

oh ya, and before i forget.
i wan say smth.
i realised recently i abit high in sch.
and more crazy too.
hahaha. i dunno y.
dont ask mi why.
i will do alot of stupid stuff recently.
den laugh quite loud.
den make alot of funni jokes la.
like super high lor.

and recently, i realised i kept talking to myself!
hahha. OMG.
is tis some kind of bad omen?
i will just talk to myself or my pooh bear.
and den suddenly realise it and stop myself fro doing it.
hahahaha.
too crazy le.
maybe some wires are connected wrongly in my head.
need to connect it back soon. =D
on my fb list, alot of ppl bdaes are coming..

last wed, i've just celebrated a fren's bdae.
my bizcom MC de vice.
so we gave him a surprise.
hahaha.
it's kinda fun in a way.
celebrated, chat and laughed.
and i realised tad d chairperson was from sajc!
hahaha. it's going to be fun.
i can sense some future fun-ness in my MC.
it's a gd thing yeah.

no mood to study

2009-04-15T02:04:00.003+08:00

i've lost my confidence.
wait. do i even have confidence in d first place?
HAHAHA.
i've lost all my goals and motivation.
my energy has been drained out.
i dunno if i can still continue anot.
sometimes, i realli hate life.
or rather, i hate uni life.
i realli felt so cheated.

ppl said the hurdles in jc are the toughest.
once u managed to conquer it, u'll be fine in uni.
but tad doesn't seem to be d case.
i feel tad uni isn't as easy as they said it was.
it's not easy as all.
it's not easier than jc.
at least, i feel that i'm better in my jc.
i reap wad i sow.
i have d motivation to study.
i noe who i can look to if i have qns/doubts.
i noe who i can look for to study tgt.
but now, i'm just in total confusion.
arts subjects. how to study.

i still prefer sci.
i'm all along a veri sci person.
and i knew it.
i knew arts wasn't my cup of tea.
triple sci, i have no problem handling it.
maths, i have no problem handling it too.
and all As is definite.
but now, i'm so unsure.
i'm so not confident.
i miss studying sciences and maths.
my best subjects.

wkwsci would be a better choice for mi?
y would i reject their offer?
biz mgmt. why would i reject them too?
nth seems to be going smoothly for mi in uni.
all the hurdles that i'm going through or have undergone.
a period of bad luck + karma.
not getting wad i want.
having lots of regrets in my life.
brooding over lots of things that cannot be changed.
super sian!!!
can't wait for this wk to end.....

i'm falling....
falling into.......
deep shit? HAHA.

regret decisions again?!

2009-04-11T22:06:00.002+08:00

i suddenly have d urge to blog.
so here i am.
i sometimes really dont understand the world.
i dont understand what the god is thinking.
i wonder why sometimes d god muz be so bad to some ppl.
i'm one of them.
with lots of karma. HAHA.
all the boom in my life.
i dont seem to have any peaks.
dont have much luck also.
and why we dont reap what we sow?

i'm a fatalist.
quite a extreme one.
cos i dont believe i can change my fate.
i'm always leaving it to the destiny.
i'm such a fatalist.
so ended up always blaming the god?
hahaha.
but in any case, i think it's all fixed.
let nature take its course.
i realli hate it when ppl dont reap what they sow.
and some ppl are just damn lucky.
they get what they want.
basically, good life.

but i'm the one with bad life.
sad case leh.
and i always think alot.
i find it hard to make those important decisions.
i think alot alot just to make a decision.
but after i made a decision, i dont seem to stick with it.
i kept thinking of other choices that i have.
or i will regret the decisions that i made.
i felt so contradicting.
but there's nth i can do.
cos nobody can help mi make my decisions.
afterall, it's my decisions and it's my life.
other ppl cant decide for me.
they can only provide mi with some advices.

suddenly have so much thoughts.
partly cos of what happened today.
today i went back to sch for my bizcom agm.
agm = annual general meeting.
i didnt realli intend to run for any positions initially.
but looking back to the previous agm, i felt that maybe there's a need.
cos of the no. of ppl.
i tot today response might be better.
but it wasn't.
super sian again.

and ppl kept nominating other ppl.
though they may have rejected, they will re-nominate tad person for other position.
i rejected a few times.
den i was thinking maybe i shld run for PR.
but i wasn't veri sure if i wan tad.
cos of committment and stuff i guess.
i'm scared that my studies may be compromised cos of tad.
so i really dunno if i can take up the job anot.
i tossed a coin.
and the result was not to run.
but in d end, i still did.
i dunno if tad's a wrong decision anot.

so now, i'm officially in bizcom MC.
vice-PR.
gd thing is tad i didn't get the PR manager position.
cos i dont realli wan also.
i would rather work under someone.
but i would still think back wondering if i made d wrong choice.
i would think abt d future, wondering wad will happen.
i need to do well very badly cos i wan to go sep.
but things dont seem to be going veri smoothly for mi.
super sian.
i dunno wad to do next.
i'm always in doubt with my own decisions.
i dunno why.
cos i'm not confident enough?

i realli hope tad i wont regret.
hope tad things wont turn out too badly.
dont be like d case for uni.
2 best choices and 1 average choice.
and i chose the average choice.
previously, i kept thinking.
and now, i can seriously say i kinda regret my decision.
i still wont choose smu biz mgmt.
i shld have accept ntu comm studies.
but it's too late alr.
and i do get over it alr.
so i also nv realli think abt it animore.
things will be better in nus.
tad's wad i told myself.

for now, i shld be more worried abt exams.
2 more wks to exams.
tis wk will be quite busi finishing up 2 reports.
so i'm only left with 1 wk to chiong my revisions.
ntu starting exams next wk.. all the best to my ntu frenz!
and smu frenz whose exams have alr started.
and all the best to mi too.
tolerate just 1 more wk of sch.
and everything is over.
den can fully focus on my revisions.
jiayou ba! =D
though i'm feeling sian alr. hahha.

disappointing, demoralising.

2009-04-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

tml will be d last day of sch for tis wk.
1 more wk and it'll be the end of sch.
followed by reading wk.
den exams period.
around 2 more wks to study.
i better start my revision now.
if not later cannot finish again.
after mid terms, i totally stop revising.
hahaha. super sian lor.

aniway, today was 2219 presentation day.
we all wore veri nice to sch.
tad's y i brought my camera to sch today.
took quite a no. of photos.
but not alot.
will upload during the wkends.
and i wore my new dress today.
so happy. and somemore i wore heels.
first time i wore so nice to sch lor.
totally not used to it leh.
i felt damn weird lor.
like alot of ppl looking at mi like tad.
hahahahhaa.

aniway, it's over alr.
and i think we did quite okay.
so no worries.
great job for everyone in my grp.
okay. maybe not everyone.
except for 1.
HAHAHHA. opps.
later i karma again.
aniway, it realli wasn't my fault.
it's realli d way tad person acts and behaves.
cannot blame mi for having such negative reaction okay.
even d rest starting to have some negative thoughts.
but i feel kinda bad in a way.
cos i'm d one who started talking abt all this..
dont karma on me. hahaha.

but it's true la.
i have gd observational and analytical skills alr.
most of d time, i will notice it veri fast.
sometimes, unknowingly.
like tis case.
but well, it's going to be over soon.
just need to write another report.
so just bear with it.
and i shall make wiser decisions next time.
my judgement failed on me tis time.
how sad.

aniway, i was talking to jason on the phone just now.
had a veri long talk i guess.
at least an hr.
but i realli enjoyed talking to him.
cos i can realli practically tell him everything.
i can tell him everything of mi and my stuff.
no secrets between us.
we're realli tad close.
and we're going out on fri with some other frenz too.
looking forward.
cos veri long nv see him alr.
hahaha.

so we were kinda complaining to each other.
he complained abt his ns stuff.
i complained to him abt my sch stuff.
kinda comfort and encourage each other.
i feel better in some ways.
i can voice out my grudges to him.
though he can't realli help mi much.
hhahahaha.
but well, better than keeping everything inside of me.
it's great talking to him.
i definitely feel better.

but i still super sian of uni life.
uni life is so sian.
sucks totally.
i dont understand why some ppl still wan to come uni.
uni is realli tad gd meh?
i dont think so leh.
it's not as gd as wad other ppl depict lor.
totally exaggerating.
and they will say like it's damn hard to get into local uni.
but i dont think so.
i got all my first choices.
and the best 2 courses for ntu and smu.
nus is not the best course yet i put as my first choice.
cos there's no other course tad i'm interested.

but well. jc ppl have to go uni ma.
tad's cos no choice.
but poly ppl can just go out and work with their diploma.
isn't tad gd.
or maybe d timing is wrong.
cos they graduated tis yr.
and it's economy recession.
all i can say is they super suay.
so maybe tad's y they wan to study ba.
i dunno.
but i realli dont enjoy uni life.
it's super super super sian la.

recently, i supposedly can go home early one.
but cos need do projects/reports and stuff.
so most of d time have to stay back.
super sian la.
hahahhaa.
can't wait for holidays to come.
den i can slack for 3 mths.
hahahaha.
in july, shld be busi with camps and stuff.
may going to chalet.
currently, planning holiday trip with another fren.
but haven confirm yet..
shall see how.

blog too much alr.
have to get back to my work.
somemore tml i have morning lessons.
everytime have to force myself to wake up.
and i need to set 3 alarm timings in order to wake up.
HAHAHHAHAA.
set 3 alr.
but i will still not want to wake up.
so drag abit here and there.
luckily, i drive to sch lor.
i cant imagine how i will survive without the car.

cos if i were to take bus, i have to wake up very very early.
cos have to think of d traffic jam and stuff.
i love having a car.
somebody, pls buy my car.
so tad i can faster upgrade to a better one.
hahahhaa.
will update again.
dont miss mi. HAHA.
jiayou, everyone!!!
everything is going to be over soon.

busy busy busy.

2009-04-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

so long nv update alr.
realli no time to update.
i decided to update now cos i do my work do until super sian.
tml is sun.
yet i still have to go back to sch for project.
super sian lor.
recently, super busy lor.
so mani things to do.
and last thurs, my lesson starts at 10am.
and i left sch around 8+PM.
nearly 12 hrs in sch lor.
cos of another project also.

recently, there's so mani things to do.
project presentation.
2 more reports.
tutorial assignments.
cca stuff.
everything to be done by next next wk ba.
before sch ends lor.
and sch ends means exams are coming!
still have to prepare for exams.
have to faster catch up my readings.

uni is super sian.
i'm so sian of uni life.
but i'm onli yr 1.
still got a few more yrs to go.
dont remind mi of tad.
and recently, i found out there's quite a few of my poly frenz applying for uni.
some expected la.
some veri unexpected.
wad's with all d ppl applying for uni?
uni is tad gd meh?
i dont find it gd lor.
it's not like it's veri hard to get in also ba.
haha.

well, dont remind mi of my past again.
past of rejecting the best course in smu and ntu.
and ended up choosing not the best course in nus.
so weird of me to do tad rite.
got so gd choice.
yet i didn't choose.
oh well, tad's all in d past alr.

on a happier note,
next wk is a 3 days work wk for mi.
cos got gd fri holiday!
hahhaa. so gd.
den can slack around.
a long wkend for mi too!
yeah. HAHA.
have to get back to my work soon.
or else i wont be able to finish it.
will update soon.
JIAYOU!!
and all the best to smu and ntu ppl whose exams will start earlier than mi.

good fate? bad fate?

2009-03-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

this wk was kinda busy but i still manage to find days to slack around.
so wed was the critical day for votes! haha.
reached sch kinda early.
cos no jam at all.
met up with sarah and ruth.
den went to d tut class.
on d way saw dione.
so we went in and starting chatting.
chat abt alot of stuff.
abt holidays!

emily and me so want to go overseas la.
but sarah got summer programme.
and she wants to work.
so how to go.
ruth also want to work.
looks like alot of ppl are intending to work.
except for mi and emily.
hahha.
we're the slackers.
work is so sian la.
no overseas trip.
so local trip lor. chalet! =D
so looking forward.

den we got kailing to vote.
and she voted for me.
dione also voted for mi.
so d result is 6:3
i won!
hahaha.
oh well, it's just voting.
doesn't matter much also.

on thurs, went to sch for a lect.
lect got veri boring.
left when showing a video.
mi, emily and ruth.
we went to discuss our project stuff.
after tad, i made my way to the cathay to meet cas and cheryl.
and so coincidental lor.
d bag tad cheryl brought is d same as mi and cassie.
but we not using d bag tad day.
mi and cassie bought tgt one.
but cheryl buy it herself.
and we 3 got different colours.
no wonder we're cousins.

accompany cassie to go smu to submit some stuff.
and we made our way back to the cathay again.
went to eat astons.
so it's recommended by me.
and it's so nice lor.
and as usual, we 3 of us will start our gossips.
hahaha.
*** and ***
some secret codes tad onli selected ppl will noe.
so better not say it out here.
if not more ppl will noe abt it.
but we got talk abt other stuff also la.

after a heavy lunch, we went shopping.
went to daiso to get some stuff for myself.
and we walked down to the heeren to shop around.
wanted to buy some stuff.
but i didn't manage to buy any.
after tad, we went cine.
went to take neoprints.
cos we nv take before.
and we 3 damn long nv take alr.
took neoprints.
and took photos with my cam too.

after tad, went to d foodcourt to have some drinks.
and we saw adam (zhang jin quan).
kinda shocked.
and cheryl likes him.
i okay okay onli.
wanted to take photo with him but we 2 veri shy.
saw him talking to somebody so we didn't approach him.
and whenever we want to approach him, he'll end up calling.
he like damn busy la.
so we also didn't approach him.
cos not veri nice to approach him when he's on the phone rite.
den he walked away and we kinda follow him.
and he went to find his fren.

his fren is another mediacorp artiste.
i dunno her name.
she's quite a newbie.
but she acted in quite a few shows.
d most recent would be 'the dreamcatchers'
her name inside tad show is xiaowei.
she looks veri pretty in real person.
and she's quite tall also.
so both of them walked off.
and we followed them.
but adam all along was on d phone.
so we dunno how to approach him.

den he went into d lift.
and we didn't follow him.
so we didn't manage to take photos with him.
kinda sad.
cheryl was kinda disappointed too.
but can see him in real person is also good enough.
if he's nat ho, i will sure approach him.
hahaha.
and i saw nat ho in real person twice before.
kinda lucky.

after tad, sat around for a while.
and we went off.
2 of them kept psycho mi not to go for meeting.
so i realli ended up taking bus home.
but in d end, i still went for meeting.
went home.
rested for a while.
den drove to sch.
it's wasn't a veri meaningful meeting.
it's more of a data entry meeting.
ended up typing some cca stuff.
oh well.

fri. favourite day for this sem.
as usual.
print notes.
den go for lect.
den lunch time.
and we went techno edge again.
tis time i didn't eat indo food.
i ate bar chor mee.
it's quite nice leh.
hahaha.
talk abt guys again.
but it's not gossiping hor.
just talk abt our past and future.

after tad, we went to d bazaar at central forum.
but there wasn't much stuff la.
and sarah ended up playing d basketball machine.
not bad la.
just tad after a while, she got tired.
haha.
den went up the lift.
and we help our fren with her project experiment.
saw samuel.

went lect.
and we start drawing one another's notes.
hahaha.
damn funni.
cos i realli realli damn bad at drawing!
hahahahahahahahaha.
dont laugh at me okay.
art not veri good onli ma.
and i also dont like art.

after lect, we had a project meeting.
abt 2219.
wa. damn sian leh.
discuss until wan to faint.
all d stupid politics.
i hate politics stuff.
and during our discussion, we will tend to digress.
like mi and sarah.
suddenly talk abt other stuff.
den got tis time, we all started singing.
and benji suggested going to ktv.
but fri nite veri ex.
so he said go ktv pub.
and we damn on la.
so last min but we still decided to go.

so we chop chop finish our discussion so we can faster go sing.
we ended around 8.
den still have to wait for bus and stuff.
bought some food and stuff.
need change train also.
in d end, we reached boat quay around 9plus.
so i decided to bring them to d pub i used to go veri often.
cos i also noe d ppl there.
but it's was damn packed la.
so we decided to change venue.
and i saw harry and his gf there.
omg. damn qiao la.
realli realli realli didn't expect to see them there.
so saw them and i also kinda expect to see d others later.

but well, it can be a good thing too.
cos i will have company home.
dont need take nr home.
so it's kinda good too.
so we went to this pub near white bar.
there wasn't much ppl.
so we faster chose d songs we want to sing.
den there's tis guy at d counter.
i'm like kinda helpless cos we all dunno how to use.
so he came and helped us.
and he looked damn young la.
he looked kinda cute too.
HAHA.

we ordered heinken.
a bucket of heinken.
and we started singing.
taking photos.
chatting.
cheering to all d stuff.
cheers to singlehood (mi and sarah).
cheers to we noe each other (gaia and me).
cheers to karma gang (mi, sarah, gaia).
cheers to meimin (mi, sarah, gaia and benji).
HAHAHAHA.
kinda fun ah.

and we played some cards also.
and time flies.
and sarah had to go home.
she left around 11pm.
after tad, more ppl were coming.
and soon, d place was damn packed.
and we had to wait for damn long for our songs to come.
so sian of waiting.
muz sing non stop den more shuang.
haha.
played cards while waiting.
played pokers, a few rounds of finger guessing with benji.
we also listened to other ppl singing too.

den i went over to find my cousin and his frenz.
his frenz also my frenz la.
haha.
talked with them for a while.
took d chance to drink their drinks too.
haha.
den i went back again.
there's some technical error i think.
cos we realli waited for damn long before our songs come.

so there's tis time we decided to delete some of our songs.
cos we realli had alot of songs in d waiting list.
so mi and gaia walked to d counter.
i saw d guy.
he was at d counter and alr wanted to walk away from d counter.
den he saw mi walking over to d counter.
so he walked back to d counter.
and he asked mi wad i wan.
so i told him we wanted to delete some songs lor.
and he helped us.
all d while when we were there, he nv look at gaia at all lor.
he just looked at me onli.
den smile at mi.
HAHAHHAA.

tad's just some stupid stuff tad i wan to say.
i nv think too much hor.
it's true lor.
and he smiled to mi alot of times when i was at d pub lor.
while waiting for our songs, i went to find my cousin again.
went there.
and played dice game with harry.
den drank quite alot.
stayed there for quite some time.
den they got this sofa seat.
so i went back to ask gaia and benji if they wanna go over and join them.
but they didn't.

cos wanted to wait for our songs.
tot will be our turn soon.
but it wasn't.
so gaia abit sian of waiting.
and she decided to go home.
it was around 1plus.
so d 2 of them took cab home.
den i went over to find my frenz lor.
kor, derrick, harry, irene, siliang and spencer.
played games.
sang songs.
drank.
chatted.
played pool.

and i realised d last time i went to white bar was last yr.
cos i was chatting with irene.
and time realli flies.
so fast 1 yr alr.
cos d last time i went white bar was also d last time i went out with them.
1 yr alr leh.
so fast lor.
and tad day realli damn qiao tad i saw them there.
if not i wont be drinking with them ba.
so we started playing this kinda stupid game.
i wondered how invented it.
kinda "fun" in some ways la.

i didnt lost much.
hahah.
kinda lucky tad day.
lost twice i think.
but it's okay.
i love to drink.
sang a song with harry.
another duet song with kor.
and a song i sang alone.
didn't sing much.
i'm suddenly so into singing again.

and when i'm singing, stupid harry kept pushing my head.
made mi kiss d mike a few times.
irritating.
but i still can sing.
didn't stop singing.
haha.
as usual, mi and harry like to disturb one another.
our friendship is still like d same as previous.
it's good.
no change.
but i told him he became fatter.
HAHA. opps.
and he sure suan mi back one lor.
say i become shorter.

so we just continue hanging around.
till we finish d whole bottle of liquor.
and they also waited for mi and irene songs.
while waiting, they played games to try to finish up d mixer.
coke and green tea.
think derrick and harry drank d most ba.
and there's tis round i took over derrick and played.
and i lost.
felt damn guilty la.
cos i wanted to drink.
but derrick dont let mi drink.
so he just helped mi drink.

den he let mi play pool.
when he's competing with sl.
but i didn't hit d ball in.
so i feel kinda bad also.
cos he wanted to beat him.
but he nv blame mi la.
but i still feel gulity lor.
so we hang around and left around 4 i think.
i reached home nearly 5.

same old place.
with same grp of frenz.
with some old memories.
yet a totally different feeling that i had.
a different experience.
different attitudes.
everything just feel so different.
how things realli change just within a yr.
y isit that things just can't remain constant forever?
why muz it change?
i can't help but kept thinking of the old memories.
it makes mi so distracted.
i hate it.

i hate distraction.
i hate thinking back.
i hate tad thing.
tad thing i dread most.
it suddenly comes back to me again.
and it's affecting mi again.
i hate it.
i realli hate it.
fate is just so unpredictable.
fate likes to play around with ppl.
sometimes, i just hate fate.
good fate?
bad fate?

d way u look at me.
eyes to eyes.
d way u talk to me.
u initiate convo and will talk more stuff to mi.
d way u treat mi.
your attitude.
d way u touch mi.
u touched my hair and some physical interaction.
your body language.
everything.
compare it with d oldest memories we had.
but tis time it seems so much better.

but it's kinda late to say all this.
but there's so much things inside mi.
i dunno.
but i have tis mixed feeling.
i so wan to explain d stuff to u tad happened previously.
but it's so long alr.
tad time was kinda bad.
and i think there's some misunderstanding.
i so wan to tell u.
but i noe i wont.
i wonder.
if there's no misunderstanding, would things turn out better?

when i was sitting next to u, i so feel like talking more to u.
but i didn't.
i so want to hold u.
but i didn't.
cos i noe things are different now.
not like previously.
i so want to sing with u.
gave u chance. but u didnt.
u wanted mi to sit beside u.
but i didnt.
but after tad, we still did sit with each other.
and tad's d time i so want to hold u.
i so wan to lean on your shoulders.
but i dont dare though i noe u wouldn't mind.
i so wish there's more interaction.
but we didn't.
i so wanted to sms u.
but i didn't.

all these are just empty talk.
i suddenly realli wish d misunderstanding didn't occur.
at tad time, cos of tad misunderstanding, we drifted.
i can tell from your body language.
tad time i sat beside u, but u deliberately left a gap between us.
u didnt realli talk to mi.
but u were still so nice to mi.
still so gentleman.
i suddenly feel so bad now.
shit. i can't stop thinking abt it.
i shld stop talking abt it.
i shld slp.

i reached home nearly 5.
slept at 5plus.
shld slp all d way to late afternoon on sat.
but surprisingly, i didn't.
i dunno why.
i didn't slp well at all.
i also didn't slp much.
i woke up at around 10.
i dunno why.
usually, i will just keep slping and slping.
after i woke up, i still try to slp.
but i didnt manage to fall asleep.
i dunno why.
all i noe is alot of things just keep running through my mind.
i shall try to slp well later.

random stuff

2009-03-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

today went to sch for 2 hrs lesson.
and i went home after tad.
but still, it's kinda fun in some way.
and of cos it's all d crappy conversation.
with sarah, emily and grace.
hahahhaa.
it's always funni.
cos mi and sarah are totally like jokers?!
HAHAHAHA.

can't wait for wed to come.
cos of our bet.
and it'll be interesting.
cos we'll den noe who will be in d lead.
well, i'm still in d lead.
hahahha.
but anything could happen.

some random stuff in fb.
Xiao Wei took What does your birthday say about you? quiz and the result is September.

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

most of d parts are veri true: Careful, cautious and organized, Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable, Fun to be around, Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic, Stubborn
well, some parts are not veri true cos i'm not quiet. do i like to criticise? HAHA. no comments.

another test i took.
Xiao Wei took what are you born to do? quiz and the result is best at everything.

you are the social person who make useful contacts. you introduce important people to influential people and always reap some sort of reward as a result...but you dont enjoy the spotlight as much. you prefer to stay in the back as there is more room to stretch and you like the feeling that you are the one with the power and most of the time that is true... you will do well in almost anyfield you know how to flatter without being too obvious and you can make just about anyone like you.

hahha. true in some way? cos i nv work before. so i can't realli comment on this.
but well, it's kinda related to my interest and wad i'm studying now.
future PRO (public relations officer)?

ling's bdae wk.

2009-03-15T03:16:00.002+08:00

updates on this wk.
wed.
had project meeting after sch.
den went home.
sarah and gaia took my car.
and i sent them to the sim bus stop.
how nice of mi. HAHA.

thurs was a terrible day.
had a tutorial at 8am.
so i reached sch at 7plus.
and i had to stay in sch all d way to 8pm.
12hrs in sch??!!!!
how great ah.
and i'm extremely tired lor.
after my tut, i had a lect.
after tad, found some place to use my lappie.
wanted to do some tutorial.
but i was too tired.
so i kinda dozed off.
after 1hr plus, i'm still at pg 1 of my reading.
how fast.

after tad, went bk with my frenz.
ate tad for lunch.
and had my project meeting.
damn tired la.
totally cannot think much.
tired until my eyes can close anytime.
but i still can't go home after d meeting.
meeting ended at 4plus.
den still hang around with emily.
cos both of us had cca meeting.
but different cca.

damn tired leh..
but still have to go.
meeting was usual.
waited for ppl to come.
started around 7 and ended at 8.
so mani stuff to do for my cca.
too mani things happened alr.
totally sian.
totally hate economic recession.
when can d economy revive???

fri as usual.
a fun day. no matter how tired we're.
cos of d jokes and stuff.
went for lect.
lect was kinda interesting.
cos suddenly talked abt kw.
him and his story.
and den started talking abt the bet between mi and sarah.
hahahaha. an interesting bet ah.
initially, sarah was leading (3:1).
during d lect, we talked abt it.
and get more ppl to vote.
and d end result is i'm leading (4:3). HAHA.

den went for a rp.
and we went to engin to eat our fav indo food!
hahaha. it's great and nice.
and started our gossips.
hahaha. as usual.
kinda bad also.
talked abt d tags in facebook.
talked abt other ppl.
opps. =X
karma god + karma queen + karma plus plus + future-to-be karma.
HAHAHAHA.

all the karma.
maybe we shld form a karma gang?
it'll be nice rite?
hahahahhaa.
all the funni gang names.
and i'm actually realli looking forward to the bet leh.
the actual result.
but when will the day come?
so interesting ah. hahaha.

den went co-opt to get some stationery.
and it's lect time again.
and after tad, it's home time.
mi, sarah, gaia and emily went home tgt again.
and we all alighted at d same stop.
since we can.
but after we alighted from d bus den mi and emily saw our bus behind.
cos emily going bp.
so she's taking same bus as us.

and sat.
went out during evening.
went to cine.
met up with xina, kw and wil.
wanted to go see jason but i didn't manage to do so.
sad case.
den went to buy ling's present.
hahaha. took quite a long time to choose.
and went to watch movie.
watched marley and me.
it's veri funni and nice.
and it's veri touching too.
didn't cry cos i held back my tears.
it's a nice movie.

after tad, xina went to meet her frenz.
den we 3 went to hk cafe.
saw my juniors there. geraldine and yelyn.
hahaha.
ate and chit chat.
and we went off around 1030.
bought a cake first before leaving.
took bus back to bp with kw.
talked abt alot of stuff.
and he waited with mi till grace came.
grace came and picked up mi from d bus stop.
and off we go to ling's hse at around 11+

a surprise for her.
have to walk veri quietly.
talk veri softly.
hahahha.
and we did surprise her.
she looked kinda shocked when we shouted "SURPRISE!"
it's nice.
sang bdae song.
and we ate d cake.
took some photos too.
den sat around and chit chat.

den went into d room and chat.
talked abt alot of stuff.
uni stuff. overseas stuff.
den we started tis gossip abt XXL aka pig.
hahahaha.
it's interesting story.
oh ya. and some gossip abt my bro too.
hahahhaa.
all interesting story.
but all confidential.
highly confidential.
it's so funni la.
left her hse around 1am.

and we continue chatting online after we went home.
how much we miss each other.
how much we miss gossiping.
how much we love each other.
how much we love gl gang.
stayover at someone's hse during hols!
cant wait cant wait.
gossiping through d nite.
hahahhaa.
it's going to be fun.
i'm veri sure of tad. =D

unlucky day???!!

2009-03-10T02:58:00.004+08:00

just some random photos above.
wkends i just totally slack away at home.
kinda nice to slack at home.
but it's realli a total waste of time.
but i just dont feel like studying.
and my mum bough mac for me.
nice meal + slacking = great!
hahaha.

i wanna say abt yesterday, mon.
first time ever in my life.
smth like tad happened on me.
i went to bed around 3am.
it's okay so it's veri normal for me.
and my lesson starts at 2pm.
so it's okay to slp so late.
and my plan is to wake up at 10+.
i've set my alarm and stuff.
so usually, i will just wake up and go to sch lor.
but tis isn't d case tis time.

apparently, my phone had no more batt.
and it just shut down by itself.
and i didnt noe.
i was slping veri veri soundly.
and i also dunno why.
tis is one of the veri few times where i realli realli slp veri soundly.
no disturbance and stuff i guess.
and somemore, it's raining outside.
so tad's y i slept so soundly ba.
and i just slp and slp and slp.
i nv wake up at all.

den suddenly, my mum came in.
and i woke up.
she said "1pm alr leh. u dont need go sch ah".
wa. i total shock leh.
attempt to look at d time on my phone.
den i realise no batt alr.
den i just jump out of my bed.
1 hr to my tutorial.
i realli dont feel like going lor.
why did such a thing happened on me?
first time in my life leh.
and my mum just totally blame mi for not telling her wad time i'm going to sch.

it's not my fault lor.
she shld noe wad.
d usual time where i go to sch.
it's her own fault lor.
it's her not remembering wad time i go to sch.
and why can't she comes in and wake mi up earlier.
argh. so irritating.
so i just rush lor.
bathe and stuff.
left my house at 1.50pm.
sure late one lor.
just a matter of how late i will be.

and it's pouring outside.
damn heavy la.
but i just heck care alr.
just sped all d way to sch.
normal days i need 15mins to reach sch.
and tis time, i took 15mins to reach sch too.
tis shows tad i realli just sped through though it's realli pouring like siao.
it's heavy until u need to turn on d headlights.
and u can't realli see d cars behind.
and all d lumps of water on e roads.

in d end, i was late around 10mins.
cos i still need walk to d classroom.
but it's okay la.
i just feel tad i'm kinda unlucky?
why did such a thing happened on me?
oh well.

schedule for the rest of d wk..
wed and thurs got project meeting.
thurs also got cca meeting.
fri need do some stuff
sat going out with frenz.

looking forward to wkend.
sch is getting more and more sian.
or rather uni life is getting more and more sian.
no fun at all.
boring lectures.
tutorials still okay.
but i'm not reali enjoying.
can't wait for my 3mths holidays to come.
less than 2 mths.
less than 2 mths and tis sem will be over.
it's kinda fast though.

wad shld i do during d 3mths holidays?
working? dont feel like.
going overseas? feel like but not alot of ppl can go cos they will be working.
most of my frenz will be working. sad.
slacking? cannot slack for 3 mths rite. it'll be damn boring.
going out? go out everyday for 3mths also will be damn sian one.
s'pore so small. not much things to do also.
sian sian sian.
wad shld i do during holidays?
anibody who is not intending to work during d holidays???

recess wk

2009-03-07T03:06:00.002+08:00

last wk was my recess wk.
though it's recess wk, i can't realli relax also.
cos need to study for exams.
damn sian.
but in between, i still slack alot.
hahah. expected la.
it's totally my style.
so after d outing with neh neh girls, den i have to start studying.
but i still feel so sian.
so i kept falling asleep.

i started studying psy first.
and i took mi 3 days just to finish 5 chapters.
tis shows tad i'm damn slow and d amount of time i kept slping.
and tues.
damn tues.
my phone just had to die down on mi tad day.
blank screen.
totally cannot see anything.
took out battery and stuff.
still cannot.
damn it.
i hate it.
so i brought it to service centre tad day.

damn frustrated with my phone.
and d person told mi they had to delete all my stuff.
i was devastated.
totally sad.
all the messages, pictures and other stuff.
damn sian but i had no other choice.
days were terrible without my phone.
i had a loan phone.
but nth was inside.
it's empty.
cos it's an old phone.
so i cannot insert my memory card inside.
so no contacts and stuff.
everything is just empty.

feel so terrible.
like suddenly disconnected from d world.
wanted to msg my frenz but i can't.
cos i nv save their numbers in hard copy.
tad tues and wed were veri terrible.

on thurs morning, went to town early in the morning.
abt 10+ for a project meeting.
and we were done in less than 1 hr.
it's kinda fast and efficient.
tad's good.
1 of the girl didn't come.
after discussion, 1 of d girl left.
leaving mi, fiona and farhan.
so we stayed behind and chit chat.
chat abt alot of stuff.
sch stuff, nm stuff.
all important and relevant stuff.
it's good to have nice project members.

after tad, i went to collect my phone.
totally can't wait.
i want my phone back veri badly.
and of cos i got it back successfully.
its good.
after tad, i went home.
and in d evening, i went out again.
when i'm walking to d bus stop, i suddenly heard someone calling my name.
so i turned back to see.
and guess who i saw???
grace and her mum.
hahaha.

so shocked to see her there la.
but it's great since i veri long nv see her alr.
so we ended up chatting for a while.
den i went off to take bus to cwp.
met up with vien and other 28 guys.
justin, jeenson, ben and guo xiang.
we went to swensens for our dinner.
damn long nv go out with them alr.
as usual, them with their jokes.
hahahaha.
it's funni though it's kinda bad.

for our dessert, we all shared a GIANT earthquake.
hahaha.
ben had his own icecream. his belated bdae celebration.
the ice cream was nice.
i love sticky chewy chocolate.
and we all ate until veri happily initially.
after tad, realli can get sick of it.
cos it's kinda sweet cos of d flavours we ordered.
and it can be real filling too.
and at d end, we finished almost all of it except for d mint scoop.
tad scoop was ordered by ben.
and just so coincidental, all of us dont like it.
ben was d onli one who like it.
so nobody ate tad. haha.

it's a filling and great dinner.
after tad, we went to cinema.
and we took damn long to decide on which movie.
problems between guys and girls.
we girls wanna watch like marley and me or he's just not tad into you.
but of cos d guys weren't interested.
they wanted to watch outlander which was strongly opposed by us.
suggested pink panther but mi and vien watched alr.
we realli took damn long to decide.
at least 30mins.
cos we will end up being distracted by the trailers.
and we will just keep watching the trailers.
haha.

in the end, we had no choice.
but we decide to watch the bloody valentine.
since d choice is between outlander or bloody valentine.
while waiting for d movie to start, went ljs.
since jack who joined us later wanted to eat his dinner.
after tad, mi and vien went to buy gummies.
haha.
den we went to d movie.
d movie is..........

damn scary.
cos d character will suddenly pop out.
and d sound effects just had to make it worse.
and the scene is just damn bloody.
some of d scenes are damn gross and disgusting cos of d way d characters are being killed.
damn gross.
better not to mention abt it.
there's tis 'RA' scene.
hahahahaha.
this female character totally naked.
it's realli totally naked.
no censor. it just shows everything.
and it's kinda funni.

d first scene of d movie was at tis hospital where there's alot of dead bodies.
and d guys just laugh out loud.
they kept laughing and laughing la.
while mi and vien just covered our eyes.
and for d most part of d movie, tad's wad we did.
covered our eyes, see selectively.
there's a few other scenes where d guys just laugh la.
it's a thriller movie, if u dunno wad is it.
laugh during d thriller movie?
while mi and vien just kept covering our eyes.
and there may be times where we realli scream out.
but not those veri loud screams la.

it's just a gross movie.
it's okay la.
think there's going to be a 2nd part since d bad guy didn't die in d end.
but well, mi and vien just totally feel like leaving d threatre while watching.
haha.
thriller movie is still okay.
after watching, u wont be tad scared as compared to horror movie.
cos thriller movie is unrealistic.
u noe it wont happen, so u wont be tad afraid.
for horror movie, it's different.
their settings tend to relate to our lives.
and d after effects tad it will tend to hover in our minds.
these of cos make us feel veri scared la.

but still, given a choice.
i will never never choose to watch a horror or thriller movie.
i dont understand why guys like to watch tis kind of movie.
cos they are saddists?
hahahaha.
i prefer comedy or romance movies.
but of cos prefer comedy more.
hahahahaha.
after movie, it's kinda late.
around 11plus.
and jeenson drove tad day.
so he drove us home.
so nice. =D

after d whole day of relaxation of not studying at all,
i have to pia through to catch up with ny readings.
and recess wk ended kinda fast.
and tis wk is d wk after recess wk.
so sian.
still holiday mood.
luckily my tests is on mon and fri.
so i have more time to study for my test on fri.
and tis wk, i had 2 free days.
cos i pon sch on thurs.
hahaha.
damn lazy to go to sch.

mon was as per normal.
attended tutorials first den i went to print stuff.
den went to another tutorial.
and tis time, another tutor came in to relief us since our tutor is sick.
and d tutor is my 2101 lecturer cum tutor.
he's realli kinda nice.
haha.
after tad, went to slack around with sarah and emily first.
den went for our exam.

wed was a damn tired day.
morning lesson at 9.
totally sian and tired lor.
after lessons, just chiong home.
and during our 1 hr break, went upper deck for lunch.
and we talked abt alot of stuff with ben.
talked abt all d different movies.
and him telling us R21,M18, NC16 and PG shows.
well, we still cant watch R21 shows.
i dont ever wan to have d chance of watching tad.
cos it would mean tad i'm old.
i dont wan my age to start with '2'.
i wan my age to forever stay at 18. haha.

fri. went sch as usual.
attend lect.
totally damn sian.
after lect, went for lunch.
after tad, went to library to study.
saw a no. of frenz on d way like lena. =D
and we studied at reference area.
a damn damn quiet area.
and i almost fell asleep.
gaia did slp cos tad's her intention.
emily also fell asleep though she didn't wan to.
after tad, we cannot tahan animore.
so we decided to go 'gai gai'.

hahahaa. went to central forum.
saw alot of cars.
den went co-opt.
and we ended up buying sweet, choco and stuff.
hahaha.
can help keep us awake.
and den it's exams time.
after exams, we were standing outside the lt.
den our lecturer cum tutor came and talked to us.
asked us abt d exams.
and we ended up talking some crap stuff in between.

hahaha. damn funni la.
didn't expect him to talk to us for so long.
talked to him for at least 10mins i think.
hahaha.
den mi, gaia, sarah and emily took bus home tgt.
half d sem has gone and ruth hasn't joined us at all.
not even once.
but it's okay.
so 4 of us continue our crappy chat in d bus.
but can tell tad we were all damn tired.
but were happy too.
cos our mid terms ended.

i'm loving friday.
cos it always end up so fun.
and so crappy.
and so funni.
and so lame.
hahaha.
was chatting with sarah online just now.
and we talked abt our photos.
totally leh.
just made mi laugh.
and my super unglam pics.

going to slp soon.
cannot tahan le.
damn tired.
going to fall asleep anytime soon.
time check: 3.48AM

busi yet fruitful wk

2009-02-24T00:35:00.002+08:00

tis has been a veri busi wk for mi.
but it's kinda fruitful too.
let's start on mon.
monday morning.
had to wake up early to meet sponsor.
so woke up earlier to drive to sch.
park there den made my way to buona vista.
met wilson there.
d sponsor veri nice leh.
cos i said i duno how to go there.
and he offered to drive us there from buona vista mrt.
damn nice rite.

so on d way there, i damn scared veri awkward.
but it wasn't tad bad.
cos d sponsor will talk to us.
ask us abt some sch stuff.
and he's from ntu comm studies.
haha.
saw d new studio.
den went to holland v to discuss.
everything ended kinda fast.
took around 30mins onli?
hahaha.
and he treated us to drinks.

he left first.
den left 2 of us there to sum up our discussion.
den we made our way back to sch.
kinda lucky.
cos when we reached sci, it started to rain damn heavily.
so we went sci to have our lunch first.
saw wei ling there.
my jc fren.

luckily, d rain didn't last for veri long.
after we finished our meal, d rain kinda stopped too.
so went to kent vale to put down my laptop.
den went for my lessons.
so not used to wearing formal clothes in sch.
haha.
during break, saw kailing.
and she told u she went to play d arcade style basketball at central forum.
mi, ruth and sarah skipped our lect.
and we went central forum after our rp.
realli got d basketball machine leh.
but we didn't play la.
not gd at it. haha.

tues is my free day.
wed had to stay back in sch till late.
during break, went to do my rp.
saw xina.
saw bel and lena.
chat with bel and lena.
haha. realli miss our jc times.
and our topic revolves around car.
hahahahaha.

initially plan to go for cnm meeting.
but in d end, we didn't go cos there wasn't a need.
so went to grad nite meeting instead.
before tad, went for camp councillor interview.
thurs, had nustyle meeting.

after lesson, met up with kenny to discuss some cca stuff.
michelle joined us too.
after tad, drove to vivo to meet joyce.
had lunch.
japanese cuisine.
damn nice la.
hahahaha.
den shopped around.
saw edward.
kinda shocked.
cos he came up to mi and waved right in front of mi.
when i'm veri engrossed listening to joyce.

shopped till joyce's bf come.
den i went back to sch for meeting.
not alot of ppl cos onli some sub cells.
took some time to read through my readings.
hahaha. cos i need to submit my work by tad nite.
after meeting, start commotion abt uc camp councillors.
d formation of OG.
haha.
oh well.
went home after tad to rush my work.

fri.
went to sch as usual.
but tad day i'm damn tired.
and today lect smth happened.
smth happend to gaia and her mike.
hahaha. damn funni.
another of her embarrassing moment.
and smth happened during 2101 lect.
cos of gaia again.
but tis time, i embarrassed myself.
but i dont think alot of ppl noe it's mi.
still okay.
but we attracted alot of attention.
even d lect was being alerted.

hahahahahahaha.
it's damn paiseh.
yet it's funni.
i better not say it here.
if not other ppl will noe it's mi.
gaia and her 2216 lect.
me and my 2101 lect.
smth got to do with CIRCLES.

after lessons, went to take bus to harbour front.
with gaia and sarah.
got company.
and we saw ruth's bf on d bus.
saw bel too.
den took mrt all d way to kallang.
kinda crowded.
saw those tad seem to be going for yoga's concert.
mi and jason dont realli noe how to go there.
but luckily, i saw xinyun there.

so went to d bus stop.
but d bus was too packed.
and it just went past us.
so we had no choice but to take cab.
but most of d cabs were occupied.
so we walked further up.
and we took damn long to find 1 empty cab.
reached there around 8.
but d concert started at around 830.
and ended around 1130.
3 hours leh.

yoga sang and danced.
olivia ong was there too.
S.H.E was there too.
it's realli great.
yoga sang damn nice.
i sat kinda front but at d side.
and d speakers were veri near mi.
so it's kinda deafening for mi.
but still okay cos i got go clubs these kind of places before.
but jason couldnt take it.

after d concert ended, we took a bus to orchard.
and from there, we took NR home.
realli enjoyed yoga's concert.
nice singing.
his lame and funni jokes.
his cute cute actions.
his dancing.
his clothes.
his attitude.
everything is just great.
love it and love him =D

sat. went orchard around 2plus.
met up with sarah, gaia and stephenie.
but when i reached, it rained damn heavily.
so i'm stuck at d bus stop.
onli gaia brought umbrella.
but it's damn small.
den i saw sarah coming with d umbrella.
she passed mi d umbrella and she ran back with her bag.
aww. so nice and sweet of her to do tad.
such a big sacrifice.

after tad, we went taka for 'high tea'.
saw lena while walking to taka.
and i called out to her kinda loud.
hang around and chatted for a while.
wanted to just eat some snacks and chat.
but d place was packed.
went coffee club but it was also packed.
so we went to breeks instead.
ate some finger food, drinks, desserts.
den chit chat.
hahaha. we had alot of jokes.
and we just kept laughing and laughing.
almost non stop.
and we laugh kinda loud.
step and sarah laughed until they cried.
hahahahaha.

after tad, went toilet.
and as usual, we took some photos.
but alot of ppl were there, so we left.
and we went to some other place.
saw some posters and we started imitating d posters.
den we spotted tis place.
white background.
and we started posing and took lots and lots of photos.
hahahah.
damn fun la.
and some poses were damn funni.

after tad, step went to work.
and we met up with emily.
went cine to buy tix.
but it's so popular.
so we ended up watching pink panther.
went paragon sushi tei for dinner.
but have to wait.
so we went toys 'r' us.
hahahaha.
so childish rite.
went there.
took photos.
played with d toys there.

totally like some big children.
hahaha.
but it's fun la.
remind us of our childhood memories.
nice nice.
went for dinner.
nice dinner.
ate house specialty and some other sushi.
veri nice leh.
all d jokes and laughter.
hahaha.

after dinner, went toilet.
and we took photos again.
hahaha.
den made our way back to cine for d movie.
it's realli damn funni lor.
and gaia laughed DAMN loud.
louder than mi lor.
louder than mi during 2101 lect.
and her reaction kinda lag also.
hahaha.
but there's tis irritating woman who sat behind mi.
she kicked my chair a few times.
i was irritated, so i turned back and looked at her for a few times.

but i didn't let her spoil my mood.
i still enjoy d movie.
cos it's realli lame yet funni.
after movie, we made our way home.
movie ended around 11+.
it's realli a great day.
cos i realised i damn long nv go out and play d whole day alr.
damn long nv realli relax and enjoy.
it's realli a great day spent.
and tad day was our clique went out tgt during non-sch days.
just our clique ah.
so i realli enjoyed and love it. =D
all the nice photos.
another cam whoring group.

after playing, it's time to study.
damn sian.
i cant concentrate for long.
and my pace will be kinda slow.
cos i will still slack around.
watch tv.
slp for quite long.
just waste my time.
hopefully, i can speed up.
which is kinda hard.
thurs going out with frenz i guess.
hahha.
can't wait.

meanwhile, have to study for exams.
do my tutorials.
do some other assignments.
and have to try to catch up with my readings.
cos i'm kinda quite behind.
hahaha.
all the best. =D

over workload

2009-02-15T04:24:00.002+08:00

after cny period, it is the start of tutorials.
so it means d start of assignments and projects.
all the deadlines to meet.
all the cca stuff to do too.
this sem i have quite a no. of projects.
and i joined a few projects for my bizcom too.
so this sem is a busi sem for mi.
busy busy busy life.

my memory is deteriorating.
shit. i hate this.
i rmb i saw ruth in sch at sci.
first time see her in sch.
start all d tutorials.
and the formation of project groups.
got to noe tis new girl.
is realli a small world.
cos she has 3 tutorial classes same as ruth.
and she has another 3 tut classes same as mi.
such a small world.

tis sem alot of tutorials have familiar faces.
some is purposely one.
some is realli coincidentally.
so is a gd thing i guess.
tis sem has 1 free day.
almost can make it to 2 free days.
wanted to have webcast so much.
but it just has to disappoint mi.
damn sian..

mi and sarah has tis ec.
but it's more of her ec.
just tad we spotted tad ec together.
hahaha.
damn funni.
and we always have d same reaction whenever we see our ec.
at least it's smth gd la.
finally found 1 acceptable.
damn long dont have ec alr.
aniway, mi and sarah have tis bet.
see who will get attach first.
d one who get attach first will have to treat d other person.
hahaha. treat: a meal.
gaia voted for mi. ruth voted for sarah. sarah voted for mi.
i voted for i dunno. hahaha.

i feel tad mi and sarah is getting better.
cos we totally have d same frequency la.
whenever smth happens, we look at each other.
and we just get it.
it's damn funni la.
gaia's embarrassing moments.
gaia's comments.
gaia's actions.
hahaha.
everything just made our day.
or during 2101 lect. d lecturer's jokes.
lame and funni.
mi and sarah love to laugh at him.
and somemore, he's our tutor. even worse.
make us laugh even more.

mi and sarah totally have karma lor.
all d bad stuff tad happens on us.
but sometimes, i feel tad my karma isn't veri bad too.
cos there'll be smth nice for my karma.
it wont be totally tad bad.
for example, there's tis time i wanna go home.
so took bus to kent vale.
but it just has to rain..
and it's those super super heavy rain.
i cannot dash across.
cos it's realli damn heavy.

den there's tis guy who approached mi.
he offered to shelter mi using his umbrella to my car.
awww. how nice rite.
so i'm unlucky in some way.
yet lucky in some way too.
and there's another time..
i was carrying a tray of 4 bowls of soup.
initially, nth happened.
even if i were walking down d stairs.
nth happened.
BUT there's tis drain cover.
and it wasn't closed properly but i didnt see it.
so i tripped over and i spilled d soup.

so unlucky rite.
but lucky in some ways too.
cos i didn't fall down.
and d soup didnt spill on mi too.
so lucky rite.
muz try to look at things in more positive light.
so tad my bad luck will go away.
somemore my mum said tis year most lucky zodiac is snake.
like totally not true.
i did smth good last wk.
cos i saw a beret on d floor of d bus.
and i noe it belongs to tis boy in ncc uniform.
so i picked it up and returned to mi.
accumulate good deeds to minimise my karma. HAHA.

i wanna say smth damn funni.
there's tis time, i saw lena at the deck.
gaia was with mi.
so i went to talk to lena.
gaia and lena noe each other too cos of french.
so they were talking abt some french stuff.
den they wanna exchange numbers.
i was just standing there listening to them.
so gaia was waiting for lena to take out her handphone.
just then, i saw gaia type some numbers on her screen.
den i was wondering why.
they wan exchange numbers but lena haven tell gaia wad's her no. yet.
after lena took out her phone, gaia said 'i miss call u'.

den tis is damn weird la.
lena haven say her number leh..
and guess wad.
d no. she type is her own no.
and she even attempt to call her own no.
calling halfway, den she realise her mistake.
hahahaha.
damn funni la.
and there's tis time, she saw tis ang moh guy.
and she said 'he's damn cool'.
mi and sarah immediate reactions were to look at each other.
but we canot say anything cos we dont wan animore karma.
den we just look at each other and laugh damn loudly.

our eyes can talk to each other.
our frequency is getting better and better.
gaia frequency sometimes abit off ah.
hahahaha.
damn funni la.
i'm loving friday.
cos we have 2 hrs break.
mi, gaia and sarah.
and during tis break always got some funni stuff one.
certainly makes mi day lor.
so these are some of d stuff that happens within d last 2 wks.
can't realli rmb much.

oh ya. and sometimes my bro will ask mi some jc stuff.
i totally feel damn guilty.
cos i forgot alot of stuff.
and i will take damn long to think.
sometimes after thinking, i may not be able to ans him also.
i feel so bad towards him.
i feel bad to myself too.
i've been studying sci and maths since young.
they're my strongest subjects.
just cos i got into arts, den i forget everything?
isn't it like wasting so mani yrs of my life studying on sci and maths?
i so feel like studying sci and maths again.
but not to study them for 4 yrs in uni.

hope i can think better next time.
hahaha.
aniway, next wk is a damn busy wk for mi.
going out with neh-neh girls.
if nth goes wrong.
meet to meet some sponsor.
have to attend 3 rp slots.
there's 2 meetings that clash next wk.
same date, same day, same time.
shit. which one shld i go.
damn sian.
and d last thing...
i'm going to yoga lin's concert!!!!

OMG. it's my first time in my life going to concert.
nv been to concert before.
and i'm going there for free.
free tickets.
somemore, first class seats leh.
omg. i'm damn happy and excited.
so looking forward to it.

tis wk is kinda good for mi.
cos i have 2 free days due to 1 lect being cancelled.
and another day of mine ended early cos another lect is also cancelled.
but tis wk is kinda busy too.
cos i had a test earlier tis wk.
hopefully i wont do too badly.
kinda last min studying for mi AGAIN.
have to do hand in 1 project proposal next time.
so some reseach for another project.
have to start doing another project soon.
trying to catch up my readings.
cos my progress is pathetically SLOW.

so regret taking 2216.
it's just killing mi.
d lecturer, d assignments, d projects, d readings. everything.
it just sucks totally.
realli hope i wont do too badly.
and next wk is d last wk of sch before mid term break starts.
i dunno wan to be happy anot.
happy cos i can have break.
not happy cos i have to study for tests and exams.
it's d same contradiction again.
but well, i think i will have some fun too.
can't wait to go kbox..
i miss k box!!

busi life + during and post cny

2009-02-10T01:04:00.003+08:00

recently, i've been veri busi.
busi with sch stuff.
all the projects and assignments that i need to do.
d deadlines that i have to meet.
and all d readings that i need to do also.
and i still have my cca stuff to do.
handling 3 different projects tis sem.
so i will be veri busi tis sem.
damn sian. so mani things to do.
and i keep having a feeling that i forget to do some stuff..

wanted to update my blog abt my life.
but i can't.
cos i dont have d time.
talking abt cny.
cny day 1 is just house hopping lor.
go to ah ma's hse.
den go to ah mm hse.
den go to my aunt's hse.
den at nite watch movie.
watch the wedding game.
tis is a typical kind of schedule for my cny day 1.

ah ma hse is d veri fun part.
nice food.
nice company.
took photos.
joke around.
play mahjong cards.
look at wedding photos.
etc etc.

den go ah mm hse.
abit sian there.
cos we always d first to reach.
so dont have ppl to accompany mi.
den i'll end up watching tv.
and somehow, i'll fall asleep.
cos d tv shows are getting more and more boring..
when my other relatives come, den it'll be much better.
cos at least i can talk crap with my cousins.
better than sitting down and watch tv.

somemore i've tis veri small and cute cousin.
he's damn shy.
3yrs old i think.
so just play with him lor.
veri entertaining to mi.
after tad, we all went to my aunt's hse.
she will cook dinner for us.
and i love her prawns.
hahahaha.
her hse has just renovated.
damn nice la.
got my favourite sliding wardrobe!!
it's big.
and has different compartments.
so nice lor.. i also wan tad..

her hse new look is realli nice.
veri modern and class.
love it.
but too bad, it's not my hse.
haha.
den played around with my cousins.
gang up to trick tis pri 4 cousin.
cos he can be damn irritating.
it's fun tricking him.
hahaha.

den went to play with d small cousin.
i took lots of photos.
cos have to try ways to take his photos.
since he will always be so shy and look away.
but i still manage to took quite a no. of his photos.
so cute lor..
den talk to my 'yi zhang' and another cousin which is 1 yr older than mi.
talk abt alot of stuff.

after tad, we went yishun to watch movie.
watch the wedding game.
15 ppl of us.
my family, XXL, cassie, kor kor and his gf, 3rd uncle.
and 2nd uncle's fmaily.
first time so mani ppl watching together.
d movie was not realli nice i think.
and my 3rd uncle fell asleep towards d end.
and he snored very loudly!
hahahaha. so funni lor.

for cny day 2.
my family went to my ah mm's hse.
but i didnt go.
went to tianwei's hse for nustyle gathering.
mi, wil and kw were d first to reach.
so we start playing guitar heros.
den d others came one by one lor.
nice game.
first time playing with fii.
it's damn fun la.
wil is totally pro at drum.
i'm quite okay with drum and guitar.
kw totally sucks at everything.
totally no tempo one..

den we had lunch there too.
nice food cooked by tianwei's mum.
mi and kw even went to talk to her.
veri nice.
good hospitality.
went there around 2pm.
played guitar heros for damn long.
den they decided to change it to naruto.
hahah.
quite fun also.
anyhow shake d wii controller.
and i always anyhow den sometimes, i'll end up winning.
hahahah.
so tyco.

but it's very fun.
fun games.
nice food.
great company.
and i stayed there till 10pm den i went home.
fun day. =D

wed went to sch for just 1 lect onli.
and i'm damn tired.
so i didn't stay in sch for long.

thurs.
went sch for 1 lect onli also.
den went back home.
and went back sch again for 2 meetings.
halfway thr' nustyle meeting, i left.
cos i need go to joyce's hse for 28 gathering.
went there.
ate pizza for dinner.
played mahjong and played cards.
typical also.
chat with them.
took photos.

main highlight: gamble.
hahaha.
i was kinda unlucky so didn't realli dare to gamble much.
everyone had to take turns to become dealer.
3 rounds each.
so when it's my turn, i'm kinda lucky.
cos for my last round of dealer, i got 5 cards.
and i didn't burst.
so everyone has to pay mi double.
tad's y i won quite alot.

after tad, some ppl left.
but i still stayed on to play for a while more.
played in between.
win, lose, win lose.
so it's still abt d same.
overall, i won $20.
damn lucky lor.
left around 11pm.
den drove xinying, jishen and liling home.

on fri.
was veri tired.
during our break, i suggested going to mac.
so mi, sarah and gaia went mac for our lunch.
jeremy joined us for a while.
after lunch, we had to take photos for our assigment.
instead of taking photos for our assignment, we ended up taking photos of ourselves.
was beside adm block.
so we just stayed there and took alot of photos.
different poses.
different expressions.
hahahaha.
damn funni la.
den we went to take our serious photos.

at nite, there's bizcom cny gathering.
so met up with kw den went yih together.
met daryl there.
den realise we were too early.
cos nobody were there.
so we just hang around at d canteen.
talk cock.
but kw kept disturbing mi.
so irritating.
saw tze wei there.
and he joined us.
after tad, saw kenny and his gang.
and samuel came over to join us too.

chit chat.
den went into d function room.
attendance for tad day was okay.
there's our batch one.
seniors.
and those veri old seniors who have graduated years ago.
so we ate dinner.
took photos.
chit chat.
den 'lau yu sheng'.
it's chaotic.
food were flying everywhere.
in a total mess lor..

luckily, i was given advance warning by seniors.
so i manage to avoid.
but i still kena a little.
but it's okay.
though not alot of ppl turn up, it's still kinda fun in some ways.
hahaha.

sat. had 4/5 gathering.
met up at bpp for lunch first.
ate ichiban.
after tad, we went to xina's hse first.
play cards.
watch tv.
took photos.
gamble a little.
and i lost.
no luck tad day i guess.
but we all play small, so i didn't lose alot.
luckily.

jason and des were d onli guys until kk turned up with ruth.
mi, xina, enqi, mel, regine, yr, meishi and ruth.
after her hse, they came to my hse.
and i didn't wan kk to come to my hse.
there's reasons okay.
those who noe kk will noe why i did tad.
and my hse got alot of food to eat.
so all of them started eating and drinking for quite some time.
den chit chat around.
watch tv.
took photos too.

after tad, we started playing cards.
played stock market.
hahahhaah.
totally chaotic and damn noisy la.
but it's okay.
it's fun.
but jason were totally turn off by it.
hahahaha.
den we change it to stupid pig game.
hahahahaha.
totally lame.
and jason totally dont understand la.
so he was total lost.

somemore, he lost during 1st round.
so it makes him even more lost.
since nobody can talk to him.
hahaha.
damn funni la.
around 5pm, they all left.
xina, jason, enqi and des went back.
d others going to meishi's hse.
but i cannot go.
so i went bpp with them to meet vicky.
hahah.
den i went back home.

after tad, i went ah ma's hse for dinner.
cos it's ah ma's bdae gathering.
and i drove camry there.
so went there for dinner.
so much nice food.
hahaha.
took photos.
talked crap.
drank red wine!
nice nice.

and it marks d end of cny celebration.
=D
love cny cos of all d gatherings.
and all the angbaos.
and meeting up with ppl whom i don usually meet.
and wearing of new clothes.
and d chance of dressing up.
and d chance of wearing my fav damn high heels.
i jus love d cny season. =DD

pre CNY updates

2009-01-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

recently i've been veri busi.
cos it's the cny period.
so it would mean tad there are alot of gatherings.
let's start updating with pre-cny.

last wk. 22nd jan. thurs.
went to sch for a lecture in d morning.
lect ended quite early.
so hang around in sch for a while first.
den went to meet cassie.
took bus to harbour front.
wanted to go toilet.
so went to d toilet at vivo cos it's nicer and cleaner.
den went to walk at candy empire for a while.
bought my fav chips.
den went to meet cassie.

met her at chinatown.
cos we're going to my aunt's salon.
it's kinda crowded.
so went to grab some snacks first.
went back.
waited for a while den started doing my hair.
so i re-dye my hair first.
and i was damn tired.
so i fell asleep for a while.
hahahaha.

after tad, we went to have lunch first.
went to chinatown point.
cos tad place is nearer.
decided to eat mac since we damn long nv eat alr.
twister fries.
damn nice.
hahaha.
after lunch, we went back again.
i trim my hair a little first.
den re-highlight my hair.
while cassie cut her hair.

we went there at around 1.
and we left around 7.
hahaha.
after tad, we took train to jurong point for shopping.
cos we didn't wan to go town area.
it will be crowded and we wanted somewhere near.
so went jurong point.
shopped around.
saw some nice clothes.
look quite nice on mi.
but i didn't buy.

in d end, i bought a small pouch to put stuff.
den i bought a top from fox.
*p.s i saw a girl wearing tis top today.
exactly the same. SIAN.
wanted to leave at 8plus.
cos both of us need to rush some assignment.
but shopped until too shuang alr.
so we left at 9plus.
den we decided to call kor kor.
damn coincidental, he's just around tad area.
so he came and picked us up.

it's derrick's car.
first time sitting in his car.
not bad ah.
reached hom nearly 11.
and i need to submit my assignment by tad day before 12midnite.
luckily, i manage to finish it on time.
hahaha.
damn last min la.

24th jan, sat.
it's nussu bash.
didn't went for dinner.
so met xina at bpp instead.
den we took a straight bus down to zouk.
reached there.
saw some geeks.
saw some glamorous ppl too.
den took photos.
and wait for time to enter.

was with my cca.
so there's quite a number of ppl.
slack around.
chit chat.
ordered drinks.
took photos.
laughed around.
wait for d pageant thingy to start.
it's kinda fun la.
d mc was better than d arts bash one.
hahahaha.
and i think d response was better too.

so d contestants start to come out one by one.
and i started shouting.
giving alot of comments.
wadever i say, cheong cheong will repeat after mi.
but he of cos shouts louder than mi.
hahahaha.
kinda paiseh.
cos he shouts damn loud la.
and everyone around us can hear.
and they would noe wad i say abt d contestants.
hahaha.
it's fun though.

den i saw boon heng.
so i tried to shout for him.
but of cos, it's not easy.
cos club is kinda noisy.
den cheong cheong helped mi shout for him too.
and a few others joined in.
it's kinda dumb.
cos we shouted alot of times.
and we kept shouting.
and alot of ppl were looking at us.
but we still continued shouting until he saw us.
shout for damn long la.
hahahaha.

and d same thing happens again when i saw shawn.
hahahah.
shout alot of times also.
before he heard us.
but not as mani times as boon heng i guess.
damn funni la.
den somehow, i became obsess with d medicine guy.
so i kinda cheered for him.
and cheong cheong repeated after mi.
so ended up, all my cca ppl heard it.
hahaha. THANKS AH.

saw kailing.
so she came and chat with us.
she's damn funni la.
totally should suan with her.
i voted for tracce and d medicine guy.
tracce won but not d medicine guy.
it's d guy from sci.
a veri cui guy.
omg.
but overall, i feel tad it's better than arts bash leh.
more fun.
maybe cos of d company ba.

bh and vanessa came and joined us.
hang around there for a while after d pageant ended.
went to find seats to sit down.
damn tired.
after standing for so long.
den went to take drinks.
drank baileys.
after tad, we decided to go.
went to d hotel toilet.
bizcom ppl went prata shop.

after went to toilet, sat down in d hotel for a while.
after tad, we were being chased out of d hotel.
hahahaha.
den waited for bh's fren to come.
and we went mac instead.
went there to chat and eat fries.
hahaha.
but it wasn't 24 hours.
so we went to search for some hk cafe.

saw a cat when walking there.
we manage to find it.
hahaha.
den went there to eat some desserts.
kinda nice.
saw jiamin and jason there.
not bad.
den started chatting.
chat abt alot of stuff.
den d whole nite, i'm like keep suaning kw.
i also dunno y.
just feel like suan-ing him.

saw zhongliang there too.
i was veri full.
but i keep seeing the korean maggie mee.
made mi feel like eating.
den i saw zhongliang's fren eating tad.
den i kept looking.
in d end, i didn't eat.
though i realli feel like.
but i'm not hungry.
just wanna have a taste of it.

so we hang around 3plus.
and we took cab home.
mi, xina, wilson and kw.
hahaha.
4 of us becoming better ah.
our newly formed clique?
hahaha.

sun. cny eve.
as usual, went to ah ma's hse for dinner.
but tis time, it's kinda different.
cos onli my family, ah ma and small uncle.
oh ya. and second uncle's family also.
d rest didn't come over.
as usual, we ate steamboat.
nice nice. =D

but cassie came over after dinner.
den we just hang around chit chat.
watch tv.
some mahjong movie showing on tv.
quite nice and funni leh.
den my cousins were irritating mi.
cos they wanna play d games on my phone.
but i will NEVER EVER let them play.
hahaha.
so no matter how they beg or try to snatch from mi, they will nv succeed.
den when cassie came, they went over to her.
initially, she was reluctant.
but in d end, she still gave in.
but i didn't.

after d show ended, i went over to cassie's hse.
cos she wanted to go chinatown.
so i just tagged along lor.
since i'm free also.
went her hse.
kor kor and his frenz were alr playing mahjong.
den we started watching show again.
watched 'teacher marries lao da'.
hahaha. a veri funni show.
joanne and jorene came over too.
my cousins.
initially they were damn noisy la.
den we were kinda playing with them.

after tad, all of us quietened down and watch d show.
damn funni.
laugh veri loudly.
after d movie, we went chinatown.
omg. it's a damn wrong choice to go on cny eve.
alot of ppl.
everyone was pushing and squeezing.
walked around for cny goodies.
den it's going to be 12am.
so ppl started counting down.
firecrackers and fireworks.
nice.
but damn hot.

den wanted to walk off.
but we couldn't.
cos everyone was pushing around.
den suddenly, a grp of ATs came from d side,
and they just cut into us la.
totally not in order can.
and they were pushing and squeezing through la.
totally inconsiderate.
damn irritating.
everyone was den scolding them.
told them not to push.

an ang moh got damn fed up.
den she scolded "F off la. stop pushing my son!"
omg. damn fierce.
but i was damn irritated too.
but cassie more irritated.
cos beside her got a few ABNN.
and they were pushing her too.
tad's y she was damn irritated.
bad day.
first day of cny and we scolded vulgarities.
hahaha.

after quite some time den we managed to get out.
den we went to buy ba gua.
and we went home after tad.
as in i went to cassie's hse.
played com for a while.
den started gambling.
cos kor kor has a lot of frenz there.
so we just joined in lor.
i noe some of them.

i didn't bring any money.
so i borrowed 50cent from someone.
den i played using tad.
when i won money, i returned him d 50cents.
sometimes lose, sometimes win.
fluctuating luck?
hahaha.
played until 2plus 3 like tad.
and i won $1 in total.
hahaha.
not alot i noe.
but at least i won.
so it's smth to be happy abt.

den sat in derrick's car.
cos he drove mi home.
sent sl home first den yilong.
den i was d last.
derrick drove damn fast la.
kinda scary.
he accelerated to high speed veri rapidly.
so scary.
somemore i sitting in front.
hahaha
damn hiong la he.
den i kept asking him to slow down.

reached home.
check my pockets.
and i realise i dropped my coins.
so i tot my luck is starting to change.
but it turned out tad my luck is still the same.
so suay la.
win 1dollars still can lose it.
in d end, i won nth lor.
sian.

another unlucky day?

2009-01-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

it's my another unlucky day yesterday again..
recently i'm realli unlucky to the max.
so yesterday morning i had to go to sch.
so i walked to d carpark to get my car.
while walking towards my car..
i saw smth...
i saw a cat standing in front of my car.
and it's licking my car!!!!

OMG. damn gross.
and i'm damn scared la.
i dont even dare walk close to car.
so i was standing a distance away from my car.
hoping d cat will walk away.
and indeed, d cat did walk away.
but it walks a little.
and it just sat down beside my car. -.-
THANKS AH.
i was standing opposite my car.
praying hard it will walk away.
but of cos it didn't.

i'm going to be late.
and d cat just sat there.
so i called my mum.
and my mum gave mi d expected ans.
she says 'u just go and start your car and d cat will walk away'.
but d problem is i dont even dare go near my car.
so how do i start my car?
SIAN.

thinking tad i'm going to be late.
i plucked up my courage.
but to look on d bright side..
at least the cat was sitting at d side where it's not d driver seat.
so i shld be glad rite.
so i faster walk towards d car door.
open. got in quickly and close d door.
phew. wad a relief.
luckily nth happen after tad.

so went to sch.
was supposed to meet up with sarah first.
in d end, she was damn late.
so i went to print notes.
attended lect.
after tad, went to arts canteen.
and started my swapping.
omg. i'm damn lucky la.
once i select d slot i wan, it just changes immediately.
so fast until i can't react.
and i didn't realise too.
so lucky.
and i find it so unbelievable
so kinda happy.

but i still got a very kns tut timing.
sian. 8am leh.
how to wake up on time?
and i sure feel very sleepy one.
hang around in arts canteen until 1pm like tad.
in between, ben was like entertaining us.
told us abt alot of funni and amazing stuff.
he's damn happening la.
always have all those very funni and unique incidents.
i wonder why i dont have such incidents.

after tad, mi and sarah hang around in sch till 2pm.
cos she meeting her frenz while i meeting my frenz.
den we decided to go library.
we saw bazaar at central forum.
so we went there instead.
went there to kill our time.
den we saw a milo truck.
so we started talking abt milo truck.
we were kinda thirsty after so much talking, so we went to have some milo drinks.

den walk around but there wasn't much stuff also.
those typical stalls.
saw some damn cute tee shirts.
but we didn't buy.
i saw dannylah there.
so chit chat with her for some time.
den realise she's actually living within nus.
i didn't noe tad.
and she's going to change her course.
but it's nice chatting with her.
shld go havoc in her room next time. =D

went to kent vale with sarah to fetch my car.
drove her to eng.
den i went sci to meet my frenz.
met up with sw grpmates for lunch at megabites.
5 of us.
and as usual, we talked alot of crap.
but with some serious stuff also.
crap here crap there.
laugh here laugh there.
and we finally treated xiaohan to a meal after so long.

around 3plus, all of us went off.
den i drove boon heng to some place near sim.
so tad he can take a straight bus home.
he's damn lucky la.
cos he spotted his bus.
den i drove him to d following bus stop for him to take his bus.
lucky kid lor.
not like mi.
so unlucky recently.
and indeed, smth unlucky happened to mi and my car.
almost got into a car accident?
car accident abit exaggerating la.
but it's possible.
so d story goes....

i was driving home after i dropped bh off at some bus stop.
den there's tis stretch of road which has alot of bends.
it's kinda like a short expressway or a flyover.
so there's alot of bends.
and i'm driving very fast.
cos no cars were around.
except for a lorry driving in front of mi.
i wasn't trying to overtake it.
just wanna drive fast.
tad's all.

so den, we reached tis particular bend.
quite a wide bend i guess.
and it's just so happened tad my car was beside it when we're turning.
so i just turned la.
nth difficult.
i was in my lane turning.
some drivers may not turn veri well and may cut into my lane.
but at most, they onli cut into my lane abit onli.
it's quite a common scene when turning la.
but this particular driver.
he damn cock leh.
dunno how to turn at all.
i wonder how he manage to pass.

so we were turning.
and he cuts into my lane.
NOT ABIT BUT ALOT!!!!
he cut into my lane until almost hitting into my car alr.
luckily, i manage to stop my car in time.
if not, there will be a car accident lor.
damn cock leh.
turning also dunno.
den turn for wad.
dunno how to turn den dont drive so fast la.
slow down den can turn within his lane alr wad.
cut into my lane, nvm leh.
cut so much until almost hitting my car.
omg. i swear i was damn fed up and irritated.

so i stopped my car on time.
den tad stupid driver took this chance to speed off.
F***
he sped off just like tad.
and to think tad i actually forget to horn him.
wth.
i FORGET to horn him.
cos i'm not veri into horning ppl.
and i'm also not used to using d horn.
or rather, i've nv use d horn before.
so i didn't horn him.
damn angry leh.

when learning, usually the instructors will be the ones horning.
not us.
so i dont actually have d chance to horn other ppl too.
so when i'm supposed to horn, i will forget.
it's not my first time forgetting.
quite a few times alr.
cos there's couple of times where i shld have horned other cars.
but i didn't.
dumb rite.
so frustrated with myself.

so tad stupid driver just sped off.
and mi being irritated, of cos went after d lorry la.
i was realli driving veri fast.
almost reaching d lorry.
den there's tis big truck.
it was going to U-turn.
but it's just too long tad it's back came into my lane.
wth.
and this caused mi to slow down again.
and when i wanted to speed up again, d lorry came into my lane.
i dunno if he did it on purpose anot.

but i think shld be.
cos it's kinda obvious that i'm chasing after him.
he's in front of mi.
so there's no way for mi to overtake him.
cos d traffic was kinda heavy.
cars everywhere.
so i have no chance to catch up with him.
irritating.
but i saw his lorry plate number.
PEOPLE, BEWARE OF THIS LORRY: YM2333L
it's a damn cock lorry.
old and outdated lorry.

damn frustrated.
cos i wanted to take a good look at tad idiotic driver.
and wanted to show him some hand sign too.
dunno how to drive den dont drive la.
he will onli be a road hazard to other ppl.
and he will be the root cause of car accidents.
this kind of ppl should be banned from driving.
totally inflicting harm onto others.
harming the innocent.
harming the environment.
harming the vehicles.

in d end, i of cos didn't manage to catch up with him.
cos he sure purposely drove very fast.
den dont wan let mi overtake him.
somemore, at a traffic, i had to turn.
and d lorry just went straight.
so i didn't catch up with him.
DAMN.
damn irritated.
damn angry.
damn frustrated.
damn tad driver.
he better pray hard tad he wont bump into mi again.
or else, he's just going to pay for it.

cock driver.
stay away from the roads la.
went home and told my mum abt it.
and my mum said i shld just horn him.
and just keep pressing the horn and not release.
and shld have follow behind him and horn him.
but i forget ma.
i'm not experienced enough.
not experienced enough to handle this kind of situation.
so angry!!!
why am i so unlucky???!!!

reached home.
wanted to watch tv while waiting for 630 to come.
but i fell asleep.
this shows how tired i am.
and i woke up at 6plus.
just in time in meeting ling.
so i met up with ling at bpp first.
decided to eat ichiban.
went in to sit down first while waiting for grace to come.

ate ichiban for dinner.
but i wasn't hungry at all.
so i ate a little onli.
grace eat more than mi.
but she left her stomach for her shi lin chao da ji pai.
ling ate d most.
cos she didn't eat lunch.
and she of cos was damn hungry.

talked some crap as usual.
and ling did smth veri bad inside ichiban.
but it's better not to say out here.
omg. i can't believe she did tad.
if a kid did tad, i can still accept.
but it's ling.
hahaha. it's kinda fun though.

after dinner, walked around in bpp for a while.
it aids digestion?
hahaha.
den i bought 2 big packets of potato chips since got offer.
it will add into the cny stocks in my hse.
different varieties of potato chips in my hse.
and we went home after tad.
cos grace wanted to watch some 8 o'clock show.
it's a great dinner though.
cos we seldom meet up with one another.
guai lan girls of the guai lan gang! =D
guai lan guys of the guai lan gang?
guai lan gang!!! =DD
loves.

unlucky!!

2009-01-20T12:20:00.003+08:00

this is my 400th post.
i didn't noe i wrote so mani posts.
aniway, tad's not d main point.
d main point is tad i'm damn damn unlucky recently!!!
unlucky to d max leh!!!!
omg. i just feel like dying...

yesterday, mon.
a veri unlucky day.
had lect at 6.
but have to submit some form at arts building.
so had to go sch early.
firstly, d lift is just being irritating.
all d lifts just went pass my floor without stopping!
and i waited for 2-3 mins like tad.
not tad i'm lazy to take d stairs or smth.
i have my reasons for not taking stairs.
cos i dont wanna end up bumping into some cat.

in d end, i still took d stairs.
so when to my car and drove to sch.
omg. i'm damn damn suay can.
i stopped at almost all d traffic lights!!!
damn irritated leh.
somemore my hse area there got quite a no. of traffic lights.
even those veri veri seldom will turn red one i also kena leh.
small traffic light also kena red.
so irritating to stop at almost all d traffic lights.
so make mi reach sch even later.
when i'm alr kinda late.

along d way, met some cars tad drove realli slowly.
damn.
and somehow, tad day, there's quite a no. of trucks.
i dunno why.
previously, there wasn't such a problem.
tad day got quite a no. of trucks.
and trucks usually drive veri slow.
and it will totally hog the lane.
and disrupt d traffic!
SIAN.
damn unlucky la.
totally unlucky!!

and alot of cars just totally hinder my way la.
stopped in front of mi.
den i have to wait for them.
and a cab changing lane abruptly.
causing mi to stop and hindering the traffic.
so suay la! irritating.
d most irritating part is here....
so from arts, i need go sci for d lect.
my frenz were in my car.
we're going to be late alr.
a few more mins to 6 leh.
i could have reached in time.
but i'm just damn unlucky.

so on d way to sci.
den there's tis lorry is front of mi.
behind d lorry are some foreign workers.
drive damn damn slowly la.
think it's onli going at 20km/hr!
omg.
it's not like there's other cars in front or smth.
totally nth lor.
it can go much faster but it just dont wan!
i dunno why.
damn irritating leh.
esp. when we were late alr la.
still drive damn slowly.

so i was cursing and swearing at tad lorry.
den i say smth tad's realli funni.
i said 'tad stupid lorry drive so slow for wad.
scared tad d bangladesh behind will drop off meh'
HAHAHA.
my frenz were laughing like hell...
so angry leh.
i'm alr kinda mad.
it just has to made mi even angrier.
den my fren says next time muz invent some loud hailer for my car.
so tad i can say 'the car in front excuse pls. i'm in a hurry'.
hahahaha.

den mon is d release of our tut balloting results.
sian. suay again.
i got no psy tut at all leh.
put 4 choices but i didn't get any of it.
damn sian.
cos if i dont get it and i go for d next round, it will onli left with all those kns timings.
which will be those very very early timings or those very late timings.
damn sian la.
but d rest of d mods were still okay.
3 of them i got my first choice.
but d other one i got my 2nd choice.
so abit sian also.
since i ranked tad mod as my 2nd choice leh.
yet i didn't get it...

suay to the max leh.
den today i've made plans to go out.
den yesterday nite suddenly receive msg tad tody got meeting.
SIAN.
spoil my plans totally.
tues is my free day.
go to sch just for tad meeting?
sian. sian sian.

so today, tues.
woke up kinda early.
10+.
wanted to go sch.
but was being delayed by balloting.
so i didn't go.
wanted to go also.
but my dad left for work kinda early.
so i also didn't manage to go.

den went to ballot.
sian.
damn suay lor.
reali all d kns timings.
wad u wan mi to do sia.
dunno which slot to choose also.
sian sian sian.

den when i switch on d tv to watch some shows.
another suay thing happened again.
most of d channels tad i switch to, it will show ending.
sian!
channels also wan bully mi.
dont wan let mi watch show.
show mi all d ending...
thanks ah.

and there's a cat below my block i think.
keep meow-ing.
so irritating.
and i hate to listen to tad sound.
it's gross.
totally turns mi off.
sian.
y so suay.

and my phone.
another problem occurs again.
tis time, when a msg comes in, there's nth showing on d screen.
can hear d sound onli.
.....
SIAN.
totally suay leh.
but when i switch it off and on again.
it's fine.

so currently, my phone got alot of problems..
1) tad time i cant call out
2) sometimes my phone has no sound
3) sometimes it will auto restart when it hangs
4) nth showing on d screen when a msg comes in
5) earpiece has some problem too
SIAN SIAN SIAN.
i realli damn suay lor.
so mani things givin mi so mani problems..
i just wanna die le la.

start of 2009 leh.
and i got so mani problems.
and i'm so suay.
i realli can't imagine wad will happen later in d yr.
SIAN.
i dont wan d bad luck aura to be surrounding mi.
pls go away..

y m i so suay?
is it karma?
is it my retribution?
hahaha.
for laughing at other pp?
for suan-ing other ppl?
sian.
i need to build up on my gd deeds.
going out later.
hope i wont be so unlucky...